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Chapter 232 – What the hell Thomas?
I cannot believe that Nathaniel fought with me over a stupid song and actually questioned who I loved. Unbelievable! Why does he become so unsecure around Thomas. As this Damaged song was ending, we heard Thomas chuckled to himself. I looked at Nathaniel and his eyes were closed. He looked so mad. The next song started….let's see what is he trying to say to me know.
Like what the hell Thomas! You are engaged to Elena.
The song started and I listened like I have been all this time. It was a slow song, with a really nice melody. Oh my god..really? I am so confused. IS Thomas like messing with my head…
Tal como una hoja que se lleva el viento me deje llevar,
Me encerraste en un beso y no supe escapar
Hoy que no te tengo desde la distancia te puedo jurar:
Que te extraño en mis sueños
Que me dueles aún más...
OH COME ON! The song says 'just like a leaf I let myself go in the wind. You trapped me with a kiss and then I did not know how to escape. Now that I do not have you, from the distance I will swear to you that I miss you in my dreams and that I am still hurt..'
SHIT! So he loves me, than what is he doing with Elena. Like in this song, he kissed me he gave me my first kiss the day he was turned but I thought he was killed. But could it be that like this song I trapped him with a kiss since he let go and apologized for kissing me but I kissed him myself second later. As I was kissing him, we were caught off guard and Nathaniel bit his neck. I remember, I had entered his mouth and I was wondering why he was not kissing me back but when I opened my eyes, I saw what was happing. Nathaniel's fangs were in my Thomas's neck. I remember I let go of Thomas's mouth and he was so hurt, more hurt that Nathaniel actually bit him than the actual pain, tears rolled down his face and he fainted on top of me, this weight pushed me to the ground as his blood spilled over me..my neck, chest and face. I seriously thought that he was killed. That was like one of the best and worst days of my life. I got my first kiss and found out that Thomas loved me back but I also thought that he died. I just looked at Nathaniel..he opened my his eyes and I just glared at him, Remembering that day that took place more than even hundred years ago.
Like the song said, I too dream about him from time to time.
"what" he said, I just shook my head and looked at my book. I am still on chapter two. I have not read a sentence so far. "well at least he knows that there is distance between you two" Nathaniel said and laughed. I looked back at the book in my hand and listened to the rest of the song.
Es tan difícil comprender
Que nuestros mundos sean tan diferentes
Como duele
No verte cada madrugada
Sentir como te extraña el alma
Haber tenido tanto y no tener nada.
This next part was so true..how can he find songs like this that matched his heart so perfectly? This last verse was 'it is so difficult to comprehand that our worlds are so different now but it hurts to not see you every breaking dawn. Feel how my heart misses you, to have so much and have so little'
Then I felt his feelings, he let go and it was overwhelming. It was pain and love and sadness. I grabbed my heart. I put the book on my lap and just held my heart..it hurts so bad.
Y duele
Sentir el corazón vacío
Saber cuánto te necesito
Y ver que sigue entre tú y yo una barrera de amor
Holding my heart I looked at Nathaniel and his eyes were closed and he too looked in pain, I listened to the song holing my heart. 'it hurts to feel my heart empty, to know that I need you and to see that now between me and you there is a barrier of love
Oh God.."please stop" I said and noticed that I was crying. I looked at Nathaniel and he too was crying.
"I turned him…I feel it too" he said and wiped his tears.
Then it quickly stopped. "SHIT" Nathaniel said and looked back. He was about to reach over and pull his head phones when I grabbed his hand.
"no…let him be. We cannot let him know that it is getting to us Love. Ignore him" I begged.
Nathaniel looked at me and wiped my tears and kissed me. I kissed him back and pulled him closer to me. He took my jacket off and started to kiss my neck. "in the hotel" I whispered
"yes Love" he said and smiled at me.
I hate Thomas right now so much. I let go of my feelings and channeled hate towards him. All the hate possible, I know that he was feeling it. A song started but he skipped it. I looked at Nathaniel, he raised his eyebrow. Wait..what is he doing. No more song…
Then the song started and I just laughed and shook my head.
Wow THOMAS! How does he have these songs. SHIT. He is so smart…
"I feel hate" Nathaniel said.
"me too..because I let go of my feelings and gave him hate..and now he is giving me hate back" I said smiling
"and now we have this song" Nathaniel said and rolled his eyes.
Me aposte que podia engañarte facilmente,
no fue facil pero un dia sucedio.
Busque despues mil formas de humillarte,
y es asi como confundia mi corazon.
Y es que tu no estabas en mis planes,
y que esto no era para siempre.
Pero tu fuiste como un angel,
que hasta la vida me salvo.
The first verse of the song meant that he 'challanged himself to trick me easily but it was not easy but somehow it occurred'
So him telling me he did not love me was a trick, according to this song and that I finally believed it. I signed in frustration and picked up my book from my lap. The rest was the "he looked many ways to get back at me and that is how I confused my heart. The thing is that you were not in my planes and I when you were it was not forever. But you were just like an angel that life gave me and I was save"
WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME!
THOMAS ANDERSON!
Crap I moved on, you are my old love. SHIT! I looked at Nathaniel and he looked so angry. I let my feelings go again and I channeled hate towards Thomas and then these following lyrics came and I quickly stopped and blocked my feelings.
Entre el amor y el odio esta la linea del perdon,
cruzarla significa darle vida a esta pasion.
Y aunque el orgullo a veces pueda mas que la razon
y aunque el alma se encierre, para que entre el amor
Entre el amor y el odio me enamoro mas de ti,
como dos sentimientos distintos viven hoy dentro de mi.
These lyrics mean "between love and hate there is the line of forgiveness and crossing the line gives significant passion to this life. I know that pride can do more than reason at times and even when the heart closes, love will be able to enter. Between love and hate I fall even more in love with you, how can two distinctive feelings live inside me today" Oh great…he hates me and loves me at the same time and because he feels both things, he has fallen in love with me even more..
"shit" I said and looked at Nathaniel.
"well at least he also hates you" Nathaniel said shaking his head.
Por mas que lo pienso no comprendo,
como puedo odiarte al mismo tiempo,
que me muero por estar cerca de ti.
THe song ended with "the more think and can't comprehand how can I hate you and at the same time I am drying to be closer to you". WHAT THE HELL THOMAS!
"oh Thomas" I said frustrated
"so..how is the book" Nathaniel asked
I laughed and said "so far the main character said he is a simple man, no statues are build for him..he has only loved" I looked back to my book. Pretend to read as another song started….
The song started and both Nathanial and I started to laugh. Thomas always has had a sense of humor. GREAT!
Only he can make both of us mad..and then in a second, make us happy.