I do not own anything.
Who I Am Hates Who I've Been – Relient K (Don't Own)
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
The same cheers and yells he got from his crazed fans were the same from before. Ikuto and his friends got off the stage, but everyone including the staff knew something was wrong with Ikuto.
When they were finally backstage, Kukai decided that he should say what he wanted.
"Hey, Ikuto, what happened today? You seem to be off in another world," He said the thoughts of everyone.
"Shut up," Ikuto said, standing in front of Kukai who stood next to Nagi.
"It's about Amu, isn't it?" Nagi raised a brow in amusement.
"I'm leaving," He walked out of the building, giving on glare to the smiling man.
"I was right," The man who seemed to smile his widest even smile wider, creeping out the people next to him especially Kukai.
"W-What am I doing here?" Amu sat up, all groggy.
The wet cloth on her forehead fell.
"Ahhhhhh! These weren't my clothes from before!" Amu's eyes fell on the innocent suspect. "P-P-P-PERVERT!"
"N-No, I didn't do anything! It was my neighbor who changed you!" Kai put his surrendering hands up in the air.
"Did you look while I was being changed?" The female stared daggers into her savior.
"No, I swear," Her accused male put his hand over his heart.
"Thank you," She sighed in relief. "But why am I here anyway?"
"I brought you here," He sat at the edge of her bed.
"Why?" She raised her brow in question.
"Well, when I found you, you were about to be kidnapped, raped, and possibly killed. After I negotiated, I noticed you had a very high fever, but I guess you've healed now by your enthusiasm earlier," He smiled, causing to blush at her earlier actions.
"Now I have a question," All of Amu's attention was centered on him. "What happened today that caused you to end up with some gangsters unconscious with a high fever?"
"What do you mean?" Amu tilted her head to the side.
"What I mean is what happened after I left the hospital?" The persistent man pressed.
"Well, I went to the roof. I and Ikuto talked; I was at the café with Rima, Kukai, and Utau; Rima left; I left; and I blacked out," Amu went through her events with no description.
"What were you and Ikuto talking about?" Kai asked.
"Well, I wanted him to tell about what he was talking about, but he said…" Amu paused, looking down at her hands. "It wasn't important."
"What did he exactly say?" He said cautiously and slowly.
"'I don't care about you. That's the problem,'" Amu whispered, but Kai had just barely heard.
"How did you feel about that?" He asked the same way he did his last question.
"Well, I'm not very sure," A smile with no happiness or humor appeared on her beautiful face.
"Let me rephrase that. What did you think after his… statement?" He urged seriously.
"I thought what were both of your problems because you were acting strange," Amu looked at Kai, wondering his answer to her implied question.
"What did you think after that?" He ignored her question completely.
"Ummm… Well, I thought," She looked back at her hands with watery eyes. "'I know that we only met like three times, but why am I so depressed over that? Who would care about someone who they just met for a few times, but I still feel devastated at those words.' Every time I think of those words, I get this throb in my head.. and also in my heart. I must be weird for thinking that way." Amu rubbed the back of her head, laughing. Her endless stream of tears seemed to rush down her face at a quick pace.
"I don't know why I'm crying," She rubbed her eyes, trying terribly to conceal her tears. Kai scowled at the strained expression she kept on her face. He pulled her into a hug.
"What-"
"It's okay. You don't have to hold it anymore," He cut her off, tightening his hold on her. At first, Amu didn't know what to do, but she was already at her limit. She let her emotions flow out of her, holding onto the person who cared about her.
"Ikuto, I don't mean to take Amu away, but you're pushing her into my arms," the red head thought, never taking his eyes off the pinkette crying into his chest.
Sorry for not updating earlier today, and also I might not be able to update twice today. Please Review! It's my fuel!