Chapter 17 – We will buy it
What is going on? These two vampires know something and they are not telling me. I looked at Nathaniel..his eyes closed, a pained look on his face. I looked at Thomas…no expression on his face.
How is it that Nathaniel felt Thomas's feelings and he started to cry in pain but Thomas..Thomas looked his normal self as if nothing. Was the pain in my Thomas's heart that much that Nathaniel was telling him that I should choose between them. "hey..what the hell, you were going to give me up" I said and pushed Nathaniel's arm
He opened his eyes and just looked at me. "Oh my God….what have I done hu"
"nothing" he said and looked out the window
The song started…a soft piano
"nothing..you blame me for how he is feeling. It is like I can't win…listen to the song he is playing now. Like what the …bloody hell" I said and now looked at Thomas. His eyes closed…he looked like he had gone to sleep.
El alma nos juntó
con sólo un beso de testigo
cada latido prometió
que ibas a estar
siempre conmigo.
Hoy todo cambió
y es que has seguido otro camino
pero mi vida se quedó
toda en tus labios
toda contigo.
Te dice un corazón desesperado
que regreses a mi lado
que la vida sin tu amor no ha sido igual
Te pido con el alma que recuerdes
que juraste no perderme
prometimos que no acabaría jamás
que mañana es para siempre.
This song was so us. "how does he find songs like this" I said and looked at Nathaniel. He just shook his head and chuckled.
"well manana si es para siempre" he said will tomorrow is forever. I just shook my head and looked at his ring in front of me.
The meaning of the song was the following.'Our souls made us come together with only a kiss as witness,
Every heartbeat promised, that you were going to be always with , everything has changed
You have followed another path but my life was completely left in your lips, with you a desperate heart tells you to come back to my side, That life without your love hasn't been the same. I ask you to remember with my soul. That you swore you'd never lose me. We promised that it would never end since
tomorrow is forever'
For a vampire, tomorrow is forever. I signed and looked at Thomas. I took the head phone from his ear off. "hey" I said.
He opened his eyes and looked at me "yes Esmeralda" he said
He use to call me 'love'
"what are you doing?" I asked him
He smiled and said "I am trying to sleep"
"well stop the music" I said
"umm why?"
"because it is annoying, I am hearing it" I said
"I am listening to music because I always fall asleep to music now since I do not have yo…" he trailed off
"oh God" Nathaniel said. I looked at him and he just shook his head
"well your songs are annoying…I know what you are trying to do Thomas" I said and looked at him.
"stop biting your lower lip" he said. I did not realize I was doing it. I looked at him and he was looking at my lips as if he wanted to kiss me.
"fine…umm listen to your songs. I don't care" I said and faced the chair in front of me. "it is annoying though" I said to myself
"read your book. Just like the Notebook…I can be your Noah if necessary" he said, I looked at him, he smiled and put the ear plugs back in. I looked at my book
"what the hell does that mean" Nathaniel said and grabbed my book from me
"I have no idea" I said.
I moved the arm chair between us and he wrapped his arm around me. "how far have you gotten" he asked
"first paragraph" I said in a whisper
He shook his head "yeah..i am reading my book you said, like four times" and laughed
"well let's see what Noah does in this book" Nathaniel said and we both started to read it. From the beginning .
Another song started and we both looked at each other…we stopped reading. It started, it was a slow song.
Le bajé las estrellas de un solo golpe
Tal vez ese fue mi error
Le ofrecí cada día y cada noche
El alma y el corazón
Pero no le bastó no fue suficiente
No quiso quererme como la quise yo
¿Qué voy hacer con todo este amor?
Que no cabe en mi pecho
Que me cala los huesos
Que se ahoga en este mar de dolor
Que me quema la carne y que me hierve la sangre
Que me esta partiendo en dos la razón
¿Qué voy a hacer sin su amor?
¿Qué voy a hacer con mi amor?
"oh wow" Nathaniel said as we were staring at each other, faces inches apart.
This was the meaning of the song. 'I brought all the stars down for her at once perhaps that was my mistake. Every day and every night I offered her, my soul and my heart but she wasn't satisfied, it wasn't enough. She didn't want to love me like I loved her. What am I going to do with all this love?
That doesn't fit in my chest, That hurts me to the bone, That drowns in this sea of pain
That burns my skin and boils my blood, That is splitting my reasoning in two. What am I going to do without her love? What am I going to do with my love?'
"shit" I said in a whisper…it was so true. He gave me everything and now he is wondering what he will do without my love..and what he will do with his love…oh God.
"I wonder when he learned Spanish" Nathaniel said
"well he owns my castle in Spain" I said
"you want it back" Nathaniel asked
"yes" I said smiling
"we will buy it from him" he said. "I'll ask him for it right now."