PART II Young Muslim Girl Chapter 19, a vampires fanfic

Chapter 36 – Oh come on!

Was acting shallow 'til she found out
how deep that my pockets is
Mrs. pre-Madonna, this is your reminder
That I think you're fine, but I'm finer

"he thinks he is finer" I said looking at my Muneca.

"well look at him, he is finer" she said. My smile disappeared.

"what" I said.

Esmeralda laughed "I mean compared to me.." she said and looked at the ring in front of her.

I looked at Thomas, his eyes were closed. "oh my God, you think he is better looking than me" I said shocked.

"no..I did not say that" Esmeralda laughed.

"I can't believer it, my wife thinks my best friend, cousin, brother..oh oh and her husband in the Muslim world is better looking" I said shaking my head

"oh come on, my marriage with him did not count…you are my one and only husband. " she said. I just looked at her. I looked at Thomas..no expression on his face. ""mrs. Pre-Madonna, this is your reminder, I think you're fine but I am finer" The song is for me"

"no..the songs are about Elena" I said.

Esmeralda just looked at me. "I love you and that is all the matters right?" she asked

"yes, that is all the matters. But what do you think of it all..him sitting next to you. So close, and you hugged him too" I said

"he means nothing to me, he is like a brother now"

"a brother" I said laughed

"yeah" she said

"oh my God, you are serious.." I said smiling

"yes I am, I am happy for him. For the life he has and wish him all the world's happiness. I see him like a brother now..nothing else. But you, you Mr. Anderson. I love you Mr. Anderson" she said and she kissed me.

I laughed and said "call me Nathaniel..because technically my Thomas is the original Mr. Anderson"

"well for me you are my Mr. Anderson" she said smiling

"yes Ms. Mohammad" I said and we held each other's hands.

The song started….oh come on!

Que milagro tiene que pasar para que me ames
Que estrella del cielo a de caer para poderte convencer
que no sienta mi alma sola
Quiero escaparme de este eterno anochecer

Dice mucha gente que los hombres nunca lloran
pero yo he tenido que volver a mi niñez una vez mas
Me sigo preguntando
Por que te sigo amando y dejas desangrando mis heridas

No puedo colmarte de ni joyas ni dinero,
pero puedo darte un corazon que es verdadero
mis alas en el viento, necesitan de tus besos
acompañame en el viaje que volar solo no puedo

The meaning of first part 'What miracle should happen to love me, What star in the sky should fall from heaven to convince you which doesn't feel my soul alone I want to escape from this eternal dusk Many people say that men never cry but I had to go back to my childhood once more I keep wondering
Why I still love you and let my wounds bleed I cannot fill you with money or jewelry, but I can give you a heart that is true my wings in the wind ,they need your kisses, Come with me on the trip because I can not fly alone"

Esmeralda let go of hand and picked the ring in front of her and looked at. She looked at me and said "you know this ring..this ring. He worked day and night, well I knew what he was doing, he did it to buy us our wedding rings. The last night, I told him not to go and work, because he looked so tired. I told him I would sell your mother's ring..I thought he was working to find us a place to live, Thomas laughed and said that he would first starve to death than sell this ring..this ring" she said and showed me her hand..the hand that had my mother's ring.

I just looked at Thomas, eyes closed..he looks like he is sleeping. He is sleeping. "I have never meet anyone like Thomas and I do not think I ever will" I said smiling

"you know, so when he gave me the wedding ring that you threw in the sea..he said he will not be able to give me riches or money but only a heart" Esmeralda said with tears in her eyes. "and his heart he gave…" she trailed up.

"I am sorry, I should have not thrown it away…" I said

"I know where it is" Esmeralda said smiling

"it is by the dock in Spain when we went and visit it" I said remembering it

"I want it" she said and laughed.

"we can go back and you know what…I will look for your diaries, they must be at your house" I said

Esmeralda's smile disappeared. "Oh my God!" she said in a panic

"what" I asked

"oh my God.." she said crying

"what Muneca.." I asked and touched her cheek

"what if he found them..or even worse read them" she said in tears

"no, it is in the floor..the place you hid them and besides, he said he travels" I said.

"oh God please do not let him find them..Nathaniel we need to go to Spain, sneak into my house and get those diaries" she said nodding

"can I read them" I begged

"absolutely not!" she said

Y sabes que eres la princesa de mis sueños encantados
Cuantas guerras he librado por tenerte aqui mi lado
No me canso de buscarte
No me importaria arriesgarte
Si al final de esta aventura yo lograra conquistarte

Y he pintado a mi pricesa en un cuadro imaginario
le cantaba en el oido susurrando muy despacio
Tanto tiempo he naufragado
y no se que no fue en vano
No he dejado de intertarlo
Porque creo en los milagros

Sigo caminando en el desierto del deseo
Tantas madrugadas me perdido en el recuerdo
Viviendo el desespero
Muriendo en la tristeza por no ver cambiar este destino

No puedo colmarte de ni joyas ni dinero,
pero puedo darte un corazon que es verdadero
mis alas en el viento, necesitan de tus besos
acompañame en el viaje que volar solo no puedo

Esmeralda just looked at me and tears rolled down her face. She wiped them away and said "I sometimes forget that I was a princess…he use to always call me the princess of his dreams"

I just hugged her and looked at Thomas. GOD I HATE HIM.

The meaning of the rest of the song…

And you know you're the princess of my happy dreams
How many wars I have fought for having you here by my side
I hadn't got tired of looking for you
I would not mind risking
If at the end of this adventure I will manage to conquer

And I painted my princess in an imaginary picture
sang her in the ear whispering slowly
I wrecked for so long
and no it was not in vain
I have not stopped hoping
Because I believe in miracles

I'm still walkink in the desert of desire
So many mornings I got lost in the memories
Living the despair
Dying in the sadness because of not seeing changed this destiny

I can not fill you with money or jewelry,
but I can give you a heart that is true
my wings in the wind,they need your kisses
Come with me on the trip because I can not fly alone

And I painted my princess in an imaginary picture
sang her in the ear whispering slowly
I wrecked for so long
and no it was not in vain
I have not stopped hoping
Because I believe in miracles

She just cried in my arms. She mumbled "I want to tell him why I stopped loving him"

I just looked at her "but..Esmeralda.."

"I want to, to explain why I am with you" she said. I just wiped her tears. She was going to tell him that she forgot about him because she cannot have children…"can I" she asked. I just nodded.

She turned around.."he is asleep"

"wake him up" I said

"well I know only one way of waking him up…nothing wakes him up" she said looking at me

"wake him up the way you know how" I said

"you will rip my head off" Esmeralda said and chuckled.

"no I will not..go ahead" I said

"I will kiss him, that is how I always have..you, I just look at you and you are up" she said and looked at me

I just looked at her and then at him. "I'll wake him up" I said. "move" I said and Esmeralda put her head back, I leaned in and punched his face. It is so not fair that I am such a light sleeper and that he woke up with a kiss.

I HATE THOMAS!

"oh come on!" Thomas said and took on ear plug out.

"I want to talk to you" Esmeralda said

"one second…I want to play a song for you, then you can talk. This one is for you, the rest for my Elena but this one..this is for you" he said. He put on ear plug in her ear and then played a song. "it is called "Who Do You think you are?" by Christina Perri"

I listened…

I LOVE THOMAS!