Chapter 1

I don't own rookie blue

This is my first time posting anything on this site, so well, just wanted to say that. I try my best, but there is only so much I can do.

Anyway, enjoy this first chapter!

'Sam!' Andy called out as she knocked on the door once again. Why hadn't he opened the door yet? Was he out, at the Penny? It seemed strange for him to still be there at this time of night, but stranger things were happening. When had she ever gotten his voicemail before?

Getting out her phone, she called him again, only to hear the now familiar voicemail message. Giving that up, she tried to call Traci. She picked up mid ring.

'Hello?' she sounded somewhat distracted, probably due to Jerry.

'He, Trace, it's me. Are you still at the Penny?'

'No, I just left. Why? What's the matter?'

'Was Sam there? I need to find him,' Andy said, ignoring Traci's questions.

'Actually, now you mention it, I haven't seen him around there. Kind of strange. He Jer, do you know where Sam is?' There was some talking in the background as Andy waited impatiently. Why was it that when she was finally ready to take a risk, live in the moment, the person she wanted to be with was nowhere to be found? Somebody up there sure had some strange mixed up sense of humour.

'Sorry, he doesn't know either. Have you tried his cell?'

'Yeah, I left like a million messages. I'm at his house now, but he isn't here.'

'Honey, just go home. There's another day tomorrow. You have your entire lives ahead of you. How will one night stand in the way of that?' Traci said, obviously understanding the reason behind Andy's need to see Sam

'He's leaving, Traci. In a couple of weeks. He's going back undercover and I don't know if I'll ever see him again.'

It was silent for a while on the other end of the line as Traci took in that news. Andy waited, not knowing what to say or do, as a terrible feeling came over her.

What if their near kiss had been the final straw for him? There had been moments of tension between them, when sparks seemed to fly everywhere. What if he felt the kiss that didn't happen as the final straw and he had given up on her? Given up on them? What if he was out there doing god knows what with god knows who?

The thought of it alone made Andy grasp for breath.

'Andy, are you still at his house?' Traci's voice seemed to come from far.

'Yeah,' she managed to get out.

'Ok, stay put, we're coming your way. Don't worry, it's going to be ok.'

Andy sunk down to the ground and leaned with her back against the door. Why did this always happen? Just when she was ready to take a step, something was there in her way or something pushed her a mile back.

After a little while a car came around the corner. For a second she thought it was his truck, that he was coming home, but then she remembered seeing it parked down the street. One of the other things that didn't make any sense

Traci got out of the car and came towards her, immediately noticing her best friends tears. Andy hadn't even noticed she had been crying until she whipped her hand over her face.

'Oh, Andy. Let's get you home. It's all going to be ok, I promise you.'

'I blew it Traci, I blew it,' Andy sobbed as Traci let her to the car and they drove off. She didn't notice anything on the way to Traci's house, not how Traci made her bed on the recliner. She just lay there all night trying not to think about the fact that she was too late, that she missed her chance before finally falling asleep.

The next day, Andy awoke to hushed voices coming from Traci's kitchen. As she turned around and opened her eyes, she suddenly remembered how she had gotten here last night. Tears formed in her eyes as she thought about losing her chance of happiness with the person she wanted most in the world.

She had to try again, try to make things right, hoping he would give her a second chance, a chance to work on them being an us.

She hadn't really realised what he meant to her until last night. She had been a fool. A fool for accepting a marriage proposal from a man who was the save choice, the good choice. But how good and save had that choice been when she found out he had cheated on her with his ex, the person for whom he had bought the ring in the first place and had held on to it? But most of all, she had been a fool for not being with the person she had wanted to be with from the start.

She got up and after a shower she felt better. She even felt silly for her reaction last night. She knew Sam and she knew he wouldn't do anything stupid or rash, or at least she hoped he wouldn't.

She walked into the kitchen, sure about what to do, but not certain how to do it.

'Morning, you're looking better,' Traci noticed as she placed a plate in front of Leo.

'Well, I just figured that you are right. I mean, what is one night? Yeah, over a period of three weeks it seems like a lot, but he'll be back after that, right? And then we'll have forever,' Andy said, a smile appearing on her face.

'Right,' Traci said smiling, happy that her friend finally seemed ready to live her life in the moment instead of planning everything a head. 'Look, we'd better go if we want to make it in on time.'

'Sure,' Andy said. She went to get her things as Traci said goodbye to her son, whose grandmother would look after him for the day.

During the car ride to work, they didn't say much. A little chitchat about the songs playing on the radio, but nothing too deep. As they came closer to the station, Traci noticed how Andy got quieter by the second. She had been wondering when this would happen. Andy had seemed too certain about what she would do, however she was starting to get nervous now.

They quickly changed in the locker room and then made their way to parade. Just as they sat down, Best started.

Andy hardly listed to what he was saying. She knew that somewhere behind her he was standing, listening. He might even be looking at her at that very moment. She didn't dare look around to look at his beautiful face. She only started to really pay attention to what Best was saying when she heard her name.

'… McNally, you're with Shaw today. Alright that's it. Dismissed,' Best said.

The radar's in Andy's mind were working overtime. Why in the world was she partnered with Oliver today? She had been partnered with Sam for weeks now. Why had that suddenly changed?

She looked back easily spotting Oliver, standing at the back, but Sam, usually present at his side, was nowhere to be seen. Confused she got up and walked towards Oliver.

'Ready to go McNally?' he asked as she came to stand beside him.

She nodded in agreement, not quite trusting her own voice.

They walked towards the exit where the cars were parked. As they walked past the D's office, Andy suddenly heard an all too familiar voice.

'Andy, can I speak to you for a moment?' Luke asked, poking his head around the door of his office,

'Sorry, buddy, but we have a job to do here,' Oliver said before Andy could even think of a reply and he started to guide her along.

'Later than,' Luke said, a shadow of sorrow falling over him. Andy nodded in acknowledgement again, still not sure about her voice.

They walked off to their car.

'Thanks,' Andy murmured softly as they reached the car and got in.

'No problem. I'm your partner, I look after you,' Oliver said matter-a-factly. 'Actually, I'm surprised I was pared up with you again. It seemed as though you and Sammy have been partnered ever since you blew his cover.'

Andy laughed with him as he turned on the radio.

'Speaking of him, I didn't see him during parade,' Andy said, hoping Oliver didn't notice her poor fishing for information.

'You know as much as I do, McNally.'

The radio crocked to life at that moment and they had to go to a noise complaint. They got several more calls during that day and they had much radio contact with the other cars and officers, however Andy never heard Sam's voice through any of the calls.

The day passed far too slow for Andy's liking. Lunch break seemed like an eternity ago when they finally pulled into the station at the end of their shift. Andy had a shower and quickly got dressed. Trying to put her worries and fears aside she applied her make up before heading to the penny.

As she entered she saw her friends already sitting at their table, though again, she couldn't spot Sam anywhere. She quickly went to join them and gladly took the drink Chris placed in front of her. It was only than that she noticed him, Dov and Gail sitting there looking anywhere but at each other.

'What's up with you lot?' She asked, for a moment forgetting everything going on in her own life.

'Nothing,' was the reply coming at her from three different sides.

'Oh yeah, clearly everything is peachy,' Traci said, giving Andy a look that said she'd fill her in later. Andy smiled at her friends. It was obvious what was going on, even if Traci hadn't told her with her look. Gail had a choice to make and people were going to get hurt.

Andy and Traci managed to get a conversation going with the others, although their part in it was much larger than that of the other three. Though the conversation wasn't about anything that mattered, Andy did feel herself starting to relax somewhat.

'Andy.' The voice came from behind her and she wasn't expecting it at all. 'Can we please talk now?' Luke's voice was pleading.

'Sure,' Andy said, getting up and walking to a quiet place in the bar, making sure she was facing her table, so she could sign Traci if she needed help.

'What is it?' Andy asked looking at him. He was handsome, she couldn't deny it. But it was what lay beneath that what really mattered. And unfortunately what you see is what you get did not apply to him.

'I'm sorry. I know I made a terrible mistake. I should never have done it. But you must believe me, I learned from my mistakes. Andy, I love you, I want you back.' He looked at her, letting his eyes do the work. As he spoke Andy started shaking her head.

'You know, I can't believe that you would even think you would have a chance of getting me back. You had your chance, and you blew it.' For a moment she got distracted. Would she have blown all her chances too? Had he asked for a transfer to another division and was she never going to see him again?

'Andy, please, you don't mean that. I know you love me too. What we had was good. I was crazy for not noticing it at the right time. I am so sorry.' He took her hand as he placed his other on her cheek. For a second Andy closed her eyes. Then, with one swift movement she pulled her hand free and slapped his hand from her face.

'Luke, I have moved on. I don't love you, I'm not even sure if I ever have. I'm sorry.' She stepped around him and walked back to her table, downing her drink.

'Would you mind if we go?' Andy asked Traci.

'You're giving me an out on this lot?' she asked pointing at Chris, Dov and Gail who sat in awkward silence and where still avoiding each other's looks. 'Please, let's go!' After Traci quickly said goodbye to Jerry, they left.

'So, what did Luke want?' Traci asked as they sat in the car.

'Me,' Andy answered simply. 'But I told him no.'

'Bet he didn't take that too well.'

'I have no idea, I walked away before he could react.'

'So, did you get a chance to talk to Sam today?' Traci asked.

'I haven't seen him all day. Trace, what if I really did blow it? What if he left and won't come back? What if he went to another division? Or to Guns N Gangs?'

'Andy, you may have only recently realised how you feel about him, we have all seen how the two of you feel about each other. He wouldn't leave you. Even if he thought all hope would be gone for the two of you to get together, he still would want to be around, just to be around you.'

'But this time it's different. Yesterday, we nearly kissed. And then, I just walked away. Why do I always realise things like this when it's too late?'

'It's not too late, Andy. You can still make this right,' Traci assured her.

When they entered Traci's house shortly after, the phone was ringing. Traci went to pick it up.

'Hello?'

'Trace, it's me.'

'Hi, Jerry. Not that I mind, but why are you calling?' Andy had heard enough and quietly walked into the kitchen. She didn't feel the need to hear any love talk tonight.

'Traci, I know where Sam is,' Jerry spoke.

'What?' Traci said, looking around, to see if Andy was anywhere in earshot. When she was sure she wasn't she spoke again. 'How? Where is he?'

'Boyd told me they had to move up the entire operation. He picked him up last night. He's undercover and Boyd has no idea how long he's going to be gone.'

This is all for the first chapter. Thank you so much for reading!

Sorry about bringing Luke in, I just couldn't resist the conflict he'll bring.

I would love to know what your thoughts are.

B