A/N: Wow! I am a horrible updater, sorry for such a long wait. I had a lot of exams for school come up so i've lost track of this story completely. But! Those days are over, now I can focus on this piece without pulling my hair out (lol... not that i'd ever pull my hair out that'd hurt like hell)

I decided to use my grand tub today, running hot water until it filled to the rim. I slipped into the water and moaned in complete ecstasy from the comforting sensation it gave. I never realized Xanxus had been so rough until I had to walk to my room in pain from the cuts and inflammation in between my legs. That damn jerk, he could've been so much more merciful but I don't even think that word is in his dictionary. I added bubbles to the bath; they carried an arousing scent of natural spice and apple. I inhaled the scent and moaned again; I imagined this being heaven. The large buried tub was wide and lengthy enough to fit another five people. This was the first time I ever took a bath in this grand tub; if I knew it felt this great I would've used it sooner. Being in the Varia was slowly taking its toll on my outer sanity and it was hard for me to fathom the fact that I slept with my boss, who I personally hate. It's bad enough that my virginity was taken while I was drunk, but even worse that we did it a second time. It's sad, even though I think these things I know somewhere in my heart I wanted it. If I truly loathed Xanxus then there would be sword at his throat every time we met, but when he pinned me down yesterday I barely struggled. I thought back to my first meeting with him. He told me to succumb to him and I gladly accepted. I'm willing to lay my life on the line for the boss but giving away my body was extremely uncomfortable. I remembered how soft and smooth his skin felt against mine. Maybe Xanxus was right. Maybe I was eager when he touched me so roughly and claimed me again. But that eagerness must've faded away when that memory of my parents came to me, which I came to the conclusion that theses memories appear randomly, but why?

After a few more hours I finally got out of the bath and unfortunately my skin had become more shriveled then a prune. I gazed at myself in the mirror boarded on the wall in my closet. I couldn't help but laugh heartedly at how silly I looked and I blushed lightly. It's been a while since I would've laughed like that. Maybe I'm too depressing a person. . And killer... I hung my head, that's right I'm an assassin. I carry a demon in me, that I can willingly let loose to cause chaos. Yet when I held it in, I became this weird girl, who can't even understand her emotions. I am an assassin, a cold-blooded killer that ends a life with no purpose but for money. I had forgotten that detail for a long moment, and for some reason I felt much brighter when I had. I threw on a long red t-shirt that stopped at my knees and went to the opening of my closet door and stopped in my tracks. Squalo was sitting on my bed nonchalantly as if he invading my room didn't seem like a problem.

"Uh, what are you doing?" I dared to ask. Squalo smirked and stood. He walked over to me and touched a strand of wet hair that was covering my face. He moved it behind my ear,

"We have unfinished business to solve". I slapped away his hand.

"What do you mean?" I asked,

"Don't play dumb" he suddenly snarled and tried to grab my wrist.

"I was supposed to be the one to fuck you last night!" he managed to grab both my hands, then pinned me against the wall.

"Hey!" I cried. My body was too water numb and shriveled to move properly.

"That damn fucker, claiming things that don't belong to him" Squalo growled, creeping a hand up my t-shirt. I blushed madly,

"I was suppose d to have you, I should've known that fucker can't keep a promise even if his life was on the line"

"Stop!" Squalo had slipped a finger into the line barrier of my underwear.

"This, this is rape you can't do th-mmmm!" Squalo smashed his lips onto mine. He pulled away and glared evilly into my eyes daring me to say another word. Then he smirked widely,

"I don't care what feelings you have for that fucker, I'll force you to succumb to me" with that said Squalo hungrily attacked my neck. Biting and sucking leaving red marks and bruises. He wasn't going to let go of me, this was happening again. I felt dizzy as my head began to ache terribly.

"P-please don't" I choked out. My eyes were filled with salty water ready to overflow any second. Squalo looked at me; his eyes immediately softened. His grasp on me loosened,

"Hey, your not going to cry are you?" he said. A sob was forced out of me, I couldn't control the tears my eyes contained and they fell across my cheeks solemnly.

"Voi! I didn't mean to make you cry... See, I stopped" Squalo let me go and I sprinted out my room running through the manor hallways not particularly carrying what direction I went or where I ended up. I ran into a random room, closed the door, locked it, and jumped onto the dark bed and wept. I don't even know why I'm crying, Squalo let me go, indicating that he no longer wanted to do anything with me, but it felt so good to just cry; to release all the blocked up emotions in my heart. I wept into the sheets of the black bed, clenching them tightly. What did Squalo mean of 'claiming me'? I'm pretty sure I'm a female, not an object. Why was he treating me like an object? I didn't join the Varia to be a sex toy. When I finally stopped crying I glared around at my surroundings. The bed was black with black comforters and a black canopy with black transparent sheets and the floor was black carpet and the walls were a dark shade of grey. This atmosphere felt to familiar. Black bed… Black… My heart nearly stopped from shock and intense fear; no doubt I was in Xanxus's room. I tugged at my hair in confusion. How the hell did I end up here of all the places in this enormous building? I must've unconsciously remembered where his room was and unconsciously went there. 'No biggy' I told myself, all I had to do was leave. But that thought was shattered when the doorknob shook violently and a deep dark voice cursed over and over.

"What the fuck! Why I is my door locked!" Xanxus growled angrily. I began to cry again while trying to find a hiding place. I hid under his large bed just in time before he blasted down his door with his x-guns.

"Damn trash, trying to keep me out of my room", I didn't dare giggle at that. I've never felt so afraid in my life. I was invading Xanxus's room. Why couldn't have ran toLussuria's room or even Mammon's room? 'I'm so unlucky today' I cried silently to myself.

"What the fuck, why is my bed wet?" Xanxus snarled. 'Please don't find me please don't find me please don't find me' I chanted in my thoughts.

"Damn, I'm so tired… but I can't sleep on a wet bed… but it'd be such a bother to call a servant… but the bed is wet… why is my bed wet… since the water is freshly wet that means a certain someone is still in here". My heart stopped for at least ten seconds. My skin turned and pale and went cold. This was a whole new experience of fear.

"Found ya"

A/N: Dammit Saiya! wh'd you just run off like that, Squalo stopped!

Saiya: like i'd want to breath the same air as that fool after what he did,

Me: You forgave Xanxus

Saiya: Th-theres a difference! He's my boss-

Me: well Squalo is kinda your boss too-

Saiya: J-just be quiet!

Me: Lol, your so confused

Saiya: ...