My eyes widened in shock.

"A-are you serious!" Lussuria chuckled lightly,

"Completely serious love~" I clenched my teeth, that damn boss. He must've planned this and I have no choice but to abide.

"I-is Squalo coming too?"

"He's being sent to the Vongola branch in America" That bastard! Lussuria stared at me confusingly,

"Is something wrong, Peano?" It's hard enough to avoid the boss here, now I have to be by his side, and who knows how long I'll be in Japan with him. I balled my hand into fists, there just had to be another way. Maybe I could ask someone to take my place. But that would be plain cowardly; it'd make it even more obvious that I was trying my hardest to avoid him.

"Ya know ever since that day we all got drunk you've been acting extremely strange" I glared at him,

"Really?" I knew I was being wrong towards Xanxus but I at least tried to keep my composure around the other Varia members.

"Well after what the boss did, that must've been really uncomfortable" Lussuria said

"If he weren't such a scary person I might've saved you"

"Might've?" Lussuria giggled-yeah you're all twisted I thought.

I found no loophole out of this. So I accepted my fate and packed my luggage, making sure to bring extra weapons, for the long journey to Japan. I've been there once when I was younger with my adoptive parent, but that was only for two weeks. This time it'll be for a few months.

A few months with Xanxus.

I shivered as I picked up my luggage and carried it to the front door-He, was waiting there. He looked at me once and that was it. He didn't even glance at me from the trip to the airport and on the plane. Hell, I was sitting right next to him and he still didn't look. Its as if he's completely disregarding my presence, not that I find that a bad thing. But it's oddly, very oddly, unlike him. The image I had in my mind was being forced up a wall while he bangs me over and over and curses at me and punishes me for ignoring him. Matter fact, he had fallen asleep, his face lye in his palm-looking like a complete angel again. I decided to drift off as well-it seemed safe enough.

I was in a garden filled with black and white roses. I twirled over and over, my white dress twirling with me, and the black bow in my hair flowing with the motion. They smelt amazing, like honey mixed with a sprinkle of nutmeg and I breathed in the scent to my delight.

And he was there.

And much younger; his dark hair was shorter and his pure crimson eyes were bigger and more naive. There were no scars on his face or anywhere else on his body. He looked utterly innocent.

"S-Saiya, you shouldn't be here, this is the ninth's garden" he tried to warn me, but I ignored him and continued to twirl and breathe in the sweet scent of roses. He sighed and picked a black rose of its bush.

"I don't get why you like these things, they're just a bunch of puny, weak flowers" I stopped twirling and stared at him.

There were still thorns on the stem of the rose he had picked and I tried to warn him put he pricked his finger before I could even open my mouth.

"Dammit! Stupid flower attacked me!" he whined and sticks his pricked finger into his mouth, a drop of his blood had dripped onto the rose and flowed throughout the petals leaving a path of blood. I walked up to him and cautiously took the rose into my hands staring closer at the red liquid.

"You damn kids! What did I tell you about being here!" an old croaky voice cursed. Xanxus grabbed my hand and I drop the black rose,

"Stop dazing off and lets get out of here," he said.

I awoke, stretching out my arms and yawning lightly. That vision, it wasn't sad at all. And even more awkward he was in it. I looked at Xanxus who was staring at me, calmly.

"G-good morning boss" I said, he looked away. I sighed and stood from my seat, that boy in my vision was definitely Xanxus. But he was so much more innocent and I guess kinder, it made me wonder what turned him into such a sad man. But I wondered more of what the boss had to do with my past, and why he acted like he didn't know me. Maybe he had forgotten, but the boy in my vision certainly seemed very trusting of me. The only way to know was either wait to for my next vision or ask Xanxus directly. I glanced at him and he had fallen asleep again. This man... My boss... He knows something about me that I don't. He's the most important clue I have to unlocking the secrets of my past. And I don't want anything to do with him but it seems he's already imprinted in my life. I chuckled lightly. Ever since I had the horrible vision of my dead mother and crying father I've wanted to know more about myself. My adoptive father said I would want to know someday, he was right about everything.

"You'll help me, right?" I said to Xanxus even though he was asleep.

"You'll help me find out who I am?"