A/N: Hey guys! Long time no see? Sorry about that. I had a MAJOR case of writer's block... and I procrastinated... just a little bit.
Anyway, I just wanted to inform you all that I am apparently a liar. I told you that I never killed characters...I'm a total liar. Due to the awesomeness of this song, I had to kill a few. But, it's what the song's about. I can't change the whole meaning, could it?
I hope you enjoy this chapter! This is for cmcrox11! You rock!
Info: Most of the italics are flashbacks
Open Up Your Eyes by Daughtry
~Isabella POV~
I planted a single blood-red rose on the cool, gray stone. I remember when Phineas and I had planted them; originally sheltered by a small apple tree. Now, the last rose lay on Phineas' gravestone.
A tear fell from my eye and fell on the stone, freezing as soon as it touched the solid object. I remembered what today was, December 14, a year since he had died. Cancer had taken him from me faster than the doctors had predicted...
Phineas lay in the hospital bed, his breathing was irratic. I held his hand, tightly, as I sang a soft lullaby to calm him.
"Sleep calmly
Close your eyes
Hear me
Softly singing
Close your eyes
And when you awake
I'll be there, waiting for you
Just sleep, dreamily
And close your eyes
I'll be here..."
He was smiling and he closed his eyes. "Phineas?" I stopped singing my song. "Phineas, don't leave me! Please, don't!"
"Isabella, I have to. It-it's the end for me. I've lived my life, it's time for you to live yours." He grasped my hand. "I love you." His heart beat began t slow and the machine showed a straight line and let out a long beep...
"Phineas! No! I-I didn't tell you- Doctor!"
It seemed like it has only been a moment since the angels took him from my arms. Grief shook me every morning, every second of my waking moments, my dreams were filled with the agony of that one day. I would cry when I woke up alone...
"Why did you leave me?"
I would cry every morning; but I knew the answer: he didn't leave me. He had to leave. Not willingly...
I remembered holding his head in my arms while the doctors told me that he wouldn't be coming back...
"He'll be back, he always comes back!"
I was left alone, holding onto our drams, destinies, our tomorrow. But, without him, I failed at every attempt. Phineas was the key to my heart; and it was like I had lost him, and I'll never find him again.
The funeral...
Everyone showed up to the funeral. Phineas was one of the most loved people in Danville. Vanessa leaned against Ferb, trying to comfort him, but his eyes were rock solid, looking straight ahead. As if, if he looked hard enough, Phineas would walk out from the fog. Alive.
My hand wiped away the tears that I was crying away, something Phineas would do. I thought I could still fell his warm hand against my cool skin...
But as they laid him in the ground to rest in peace eternally, my heart swelled sadly and sang without a sound...
For the first time I could open my eyes and see the world without my sorrow which had weighed down on my shoulders. No one would know the pain I had left behind. All the peace I could never find here was waiting for me, to hold me and keep me safe. I wouldn't be alone when my peace would come, I would be content...
"Welcome to the first day of your life," A voice would whisper to me every day, "Just open your eyes, Isabella."
I lay on my bed at home, thinking of the life I have lived, that I would soon leave behind...
When I was ten and every one of us went on those crazy adventures...
When I was 12 and Phineas and I had our first kiss...
When I was 12 and I moved to New York... leaving Phineas...
When I was 14 and I lost my memory...
When I was 25 and I came back and was reunited with Phineas...
When I was 26 and we were married...
When he was 35 and diagnosed with cancer...
When he was 36 and he died...
And now... I was old... but he's waiting for me.
As I drew my final breath, I looked out of the window. The apple tree was in full bloom and natural light from the sun leaked into the room. I smiled; life was nothing when you were alive, but when you're ready to leave, you actually miss it. I know I would.
I closed my eyes, not wanting them to be open when someone finds me, and allowed the feeling of numbness to take over me.
A bright light appeared ahead of me, and I followed it, abandoning the darkness that concealed all of the pain and fate held in the world. My legs carried me very slowly, but, as I approached closer to the light, I felt myself grow stronger. I felt... younger?
I was now surrounded by white, and I was sure someone was here, watching me.
~Phineas POV~
I wrung my hands nervously. I had been here long enough to be able to tell her, but what if she didn't remember me? What if she had moved on? What if she didn't care?
There was only one way to find out... I grasped the golden door knob and turned it...
~Isabella POV~
I heard a creaking sound and a soft click and whirled around.
A door was there, wide open, and I was sure it hadn't been there before. A tall figure stepped out of it. It was a man, at least 18 years old, he wore an orange and white striped shirt and jeans. His hair was a fiery red and stuck out in all different directions. His eyes were the deepest, yet softest, blue I had ever seen. A feeling of sadness washed over me and I knew he was familiar.
He walked, slowly, towards me; making sure every step counted for something. It wasn't so much walking, he wasn't flying, but he seemed to float maybe an inch off of the ground. Light radiated around him.
He was inches away from me when he took my hand in his. A force drew me to him, as if he was the most important thing to ever exist. His eyes seemed to read by soul. "Isabella..." his voice faltered. He looked down to our hands, intertwined together, and took a shaky breath. He looked up at me and I gasped, I knew that face! I had only seen the sadness in his eyes from one person, in rare moments that he did show it.
Phineas... how could I have forgotten him? He was the love of my life, my other half, he was my soul mate.
He squeezed my hand and his lips were pressed tightly together. Phineas only did that when something was wrong.
"Phineas...?" I asked, trying to confirm it was really him. A sharp intake of breath from him was heard, "Phineas..." O repeated, "What's wrong?"
"I-I'm sorry I left you... I should have been there..." he gulped in to breathe.
"You were there, Phin." I brushed the one tear that had fallen from his eye and rested on his cheek.
"Isabella, open up your eyes." he told me, firmly.
"What?" I pulled away, shocked, that was the exact thing the voice had told me.
"You need to go back, the world is amazing! Just leave your sorrow, I'm fine here, Isabella. Leave your pain, I'll be waiting for you, but you need to let me go, greet the next day of your life; welcome it. I love you, but you need to do this. Just open up your eyes..."
Mist swirled around us, and everything was blurry. When things came into view, I saw a room, it was white with a small bed in it. The blanket was decorated with white lilies. Everything was just so... simple.
"Phineas... am I... dead?" I grasped his hand, afraid of the answer.
"Yes." he answered me, as if it was the simplest thing.
But it wasn't.
Death, to me, was the most complex thing ever to happen to a human being.
I suddenly felt extremely tired. My knees collapsed and I nearly fell into the floor. Luckily, Phineas caught me.
He held me to his chest and hummed a familiar song to me...
"Sleep calmly
Close your eyes
Hear me
Softly singing
Close your eyes
And when you awake
I'll be there, waiting for you
Just sleep, dreamily
And close your eyes
I'll be here..."
I leaned closer to him, smelling the motor oil and fresh grass. Which, surprisingly, wasn't a bad combination.
He picked me up bridle-style and carried me to the bed, which was as soft as a cloud. He lay me down, on the other side of the world that I used to be so close to, I was safe on the other side; with no tears left to cry. What reason was there? I was with the one person who could make me feel any emotion.
Mainly one: happiness.
He sat at the bast of the bad and sang to me quietly...
"For the first time you can open your eyes
And see the world without your sorrow
Where no one knows the pain you left behind
All the peace you could never find
Is waiting here to hold and keep you
Welcome to the first day of your life
Just open up your eyes..."
As I listened to the sweet sound of his voice, I closed my eyes.
A/N: Tada! Finished! And I used the song lyrics for a reason, they're very inspiring and I wanted everyone to see the real lyrics.
The lullaby that Phineas and Isabella sang is owned by me, I made it up (In about a minute, not very impressive).
cmcrox11, I hope you liked it! It was very difficult to write!
Also, vote on the poll on my profile for the song that the next chapter will be based on. In the meantime, I'll work on another.
Like it? Love it? Hated it because I went against my promise that I wouldn't kill them? Tell me what you think: review! (And I'm not begging)
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