I will be posting ch. 6 on monday. Another big thanks to all the reviews and o everyone reading.
Chapter 5
The social worker decided to "lose" us in the system for awhile. She knew that if charges were filed against the 2 boys, then they would have to file charges against me as well. The shrink told her that although splitting up Laura and me might be good for me, it may have even more severe and devastating effects on Laura. He said it was best to keep us together for now.
She took us to Dodge City, Kansas, to Kevin and Karrie. I loved them. They took really good care of us. For the first time since mom was killed I felt like I was safe, home. Laura still just wanted to be with dad and the boys, but I think she was even happy there for awhile. I think the best part of living with them is that we didn't have to hide our letters from Dean. They even bought us some pretty stationary to use when we wrote him. They never told the social worker we were in contact with him. If they had, then the state would have taken Sam and Dean away from dad and Dean would have been devastated. Even though we weren't together, we still tried to take care of each other.
After about a month of us living there, Kevin and Karrie sat us down after school one day to talk to us. I got scared cause the social worker was there too. I was afraid we were gonna be taken away, or worse, split up. Kevin just spat it right out. They wanted to adopt us. They wanted Laura and me to be their daughters forever. I got so excited, I fell right out of my chair. It was the best idea I'd heard in my whole life, until Laura asked a question.
All she wanted to know is if we had to change our last name if they adopted us. I knew right then that it wasn't gonna happen. Karrie and Kevin could have gone right past us and done it anyway, but that's not the kind of people they were. Karrie told Laura that yes, our last name would be the same as theirs. That's when Laura said, no. That if they adopted us, we wouldn't be our dad's girls anymore. We wouldn't be Sam and Dean's sisters. I didn't really care about the first part, but I knew the second part of her argument was completely wrong. I would be Dean's sister no matter what my name was. First, middle, or last. I didn't say anything.
Kevin and Karrie then asked me what I wanted and I said I wanted whatever my sister wanted. I knew that if they adopted me and not her, that the system would probably take her away at some point and I wouldn't be able to protect her anymore. They looked very disappointed. I almost started yelling at Laura. I wanted to tell her that dad didn't care about us. That we didn't exist to him. Tell her that Sammy didn't even know he had sisters. I wanted to tell her everything Dean and I had been keeping from her, but I knew it wouldn't have done any good. She would have been upset for awhile, but it wouldn't have changed her mind. She was gonna wait for dad to come until the day she died.
I started getting into fights at school after that. Usually about 1 a week. Nothing like what happened in Topeka. I could remember doing it. Any time some kid did something to annoy me, or said something I even thought was mean to Laura. I just pounded them. The fight was usually over in 1 or 2 punches. I almost always made sure a teacher was close by to see this. It made it more fun for me, at least that's what I told the teacher's and the principle. Truth was, that I was making sure I got caught so I could be punished for it. I knew I was doing a bad thing, but I was so mad at my sister for what she'd made me do to Kevin and Karrie, I had to get it out somehow.
It was a good thing Kevin and Karrie figured it out after about a month. They decided I should go to karate classes after school. Laura went too. I stopped getting into fights and my grades came back up to their normal straight A's. The bad thing was that they told Laura. She kinda looked at me different after that. Like I was being unloyal to dad and the boys cause I didn't wanna be a Winchester anymore. I kinda felt that way too, as far as Dean was concerned anyway, but I knew things she didn't so I just let it go. I think that hope of dad coming is why she lasted as long as she did.