Hey guys thanks for all the reviews of last chapter lol i wasn't sure if people will like it but i am glad you did...well again thanks to all my amazing reviewers and readers. i love you guys you guys make this story keep going
ok just a note ... the things in Italics are what Lucy is thinking as she looks over all these scenes and images. and remember in all this she is a spirit looking over her memories that were locked.
plz let me know what you think of this chapter ...hope you like it...not gonna lie i cried so you might want tissues near you
She is currently trapped inside her own personal nightmare with no way out. She saw sorrow, pain, and even death through her own honey brown eyes. Through her eyes she saw herself being comforted by Natsu as she stared in horror at her friends and guildmates dying. The Lucy who is currently in a coma is living in her own nightmares of her past memories as a spirit. She is trapped in it.
"What is going on?" She thought in horror as she witnessed Lisanna's fall and Mira's cries.
"Lisanna!" Mira choked out as she held Lisanna's cold bloody body to her. Her tears falling down on Lisanna's pale face. Lisanna fluttered her eyes open weakly. Her light blue eyes looked lifelessly to her older sister.
"Mira-nee…I …can't ..move!" Lisanna breathed out weakly as tears came down her face going slowly down her cheeks. "I think I am dying for real this time."
"No! Lisanna! No! You're not!" Mira breathed in a panic as she tried to search her sister's eyes while her tears continued to die. "I CAN'T LOSE YOU AGAIN!"
"Mira-nee…I…love…you!" Lisanna whispered as she stared past her sister's head to the sky. "Tell Elfman I love him too. Don't let them …take …Lucy…."
"Why would they take me? But Lisanna is she…" Lucy cried as she witnessed Mira's sobs in pain. Lucy turned back to face herself and Natsu to see Natsu holding her back as she cried loudly. Lucy then turned back to see Mira yells as she exploded herself leaving a crying Elfman holding Lisanna's body to him as he yelled their names. Fading tears went down Lucy's face as she stared at everyone struggling in their fight.
"NO, LUCY! YOU'RE NOT GOING!" Lucy turned to see Natsu holding her other self back. Lucy saw her other crying as her and Natsu yelled back and forth to each other.
"Why does Natsu care so much! Why am I staring at myself?Mira, Lisanna, Juvia are gone!" Lucy whispered in horror as she shook her head back and forth while crying excessively. The yells and screams of guild members pain echoing through her head as she also heard Natsu and herself fighting.
"And I can't lose my family." Lucy looked up wide eyed in shock to see herself and Natsu kissing as if it was their last time together. Lucy stared in shock at the scene in front of her. It's not like Lucy hasn't kissed Natsu before because she has, but it was forced. Even though it felt good to her she would never admit it though. Lucy saw how this kiss she initiated. Or that Lucy she is looking at. Which is actually her.
"what the fuck!"
"Natsu….I love you!...I'm sorry!" Lucy saw as she ran away from Natsu in tears.
Lucy just stood in shock as she stared wide eyed at what just happened. Not noticing her world go black yet again as another image of her past came up.
Lucy watched in utter horror as she watched herself come face to face with a demon. Lucy's eyes widened as she saw how she freed her spirits and decided to fight on her own.
"Lucy! I am Lucy of Fairy Tail!" Lucy watched angered at her stupidity as she started to fight the demon.
" Are you a fucking dumbass! Your going to get yourself killed!...wait? don't tell me did I die?" Lucy widened her eyes in shock as she stood frozen staring in horror at the scenes of her past playing in front of watched as the demon kicked her beat up body inside the guild and chased her inside the dark cold guild. Lucy's eyes shook as she tried to keep her tears and agony inside as she watched the horror. She watched as she screamed when the sword of the demon's hit her stomach weaking her more. She watched as Natsu quickly killed the demon then held her carefully in his arms removing the sword from her. Lucy cried silently as she heard the scream of hers echo through the guild. She continued to cry as she stared in horror at her final words with Natsu.
"NO! YOU'RE NOT GOING TO DIE! NOT HERE! NOT NOW! WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GROW OLD TOGETHER!" Natsu yelled at the blonde in his arms.
"No no! I can't die! Not like this!" Lucy said in horror as tears continued to fall none stop. Her heart beating faster in pain as her chest tightened.
"Na…..su….good…byeeee.." Lucy's eyes widened as she watched as in slow motion her hand fall to the ground with a thump. She is dead.
"NOOOOOOOO! I CAN'T BE DEAD! NOOO! HOW CAN I DIE! I DON'T WANT TO WATCH ANYMORE!" Lucy yelled as loud as she could as she cried. Her voice matching Natsu's fading yells as the image went back switching to another. But Lucy didn't want to open her eyes she is too afraid. She doesn't want to see anymore. She can't accept she died. She just continued to cry not want to look up until she heard his cry. Natsu's cry as he yelled at Gray. Lucy opened her swollen eyes weakly as she looked down to see she is in the sky facing the guild members down below. Everyone hurt with blood on their bodies as they cried their eyes out. But Lucy's chest clenched in pain as she saw Natsu .
"SHE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU! SHE WAS ALWAYS HELPING WITH A SMILE ON HER FACE! SHE ALWAYS HAD FAITH IN US! WHY CAN'T YOU HAVE FAITH THAT SHE IS STILL ALIVE! WHY DON'T YOU BELIEVE SHE IS! THIS IS BULLSHIT!" She saw Natsu yell at the top of his lungs as he tried to break free from guild members grip to get Gray.
"Natsu!" Lucy cried as she put her hand over her mouth crying into.
"NATSU! STOP IT PLEASE!" Lucy saw Lisanna cry out loud. "ACCEPT THAT SHE IS GONE! LUCY WOULDN'T WANT THIS!" Lucy's eyes widen in sadness as she watched all the guild members cry for her. Then as if that triggered something at that moment Lucy remember. She remembered everything from the days when she was young to this day to only the day of her death. She stood there not believing it as the scene immediately disappeared leaving Lucy by herself crying in the dark.
"AHHHHHH!" Lucy bent down in pain as she clutched her chest and head going into a fetal position on the dark black barren ground. "Why does it hurt so much? I saved them! I came back! But why does it hurt? I didn't die! I didn't DIE! I FOUND SOME OTHER WAY TO SAVE THEM! I DIDN'T DIE! I COULDN'T HAVE! I AM STILL HERE! I AM STILL HERE! I WAS WITH THEM THE WHOLE TIME! THIS IS A LIE!" Lucy screamed and cried in the dark as she refused to accept any of this. She didn't accept this. As time went longer her heart continued to hurt more until it got to the point of it feeling as if it will explode in her chest. Heat built up in her body causing more pain than ever imaged causing her to cry and scream even louder.
A bright light open in the darkness over the blonde wind blowing as the light brightened the room. Two figures stepped out from the light looking at the blonde in sympathy as they saw her in a fetal position crying her eyes out for the pain she is feeling and the sadness. It is overwhelming her and eating her alive. One of the figures bent down in front of Lucy removing her blonde hair from her face the figure gasped in shock to see Lucy's eyes no longer a beautiful honey brown color, but jet black from the pain and sorrow.
"Mavis, What's wrong!" The other figure spoke in worry as she ran to the blonde woman. Mavis looked up at her friend in sadness her emerald eyes having tears going down her face. "What's wrong!" The girl continued to freak as she yelled over Lucy's screams and sobbing.
"Alex, She is experiencing hell currently in her body. Just looking into her eyes I just felt all her pain and saw everything she has went through." Mavis spoke her voice sounding angelic in a childish whisper. But Alex heard her loud and clear.
"What do you suggest we do!" Alex asked as she looked at Mavis as the blonde girl stood up slowly still staring Lucy's figure.
"Cease your scream, Celestial Goddess! Your pain will subside once you have calmed down." Mavis spoke as a white mist came out of her mouth surrounding Lucy's body. Alex watched wide eyed as Lucy's screaming stopped to just a silent cries and sniffs. Lucy got up and looked at Mavis with Jet Black dead eyes. "Do you wish to end your suffering and pain?"
Lucy looked up at the blonde girl just staring at her with an expressionless face. Alex's brown eyes softened in pity as she stared at the blonde woman on the ground.
"So this is the infamous Goddess of ours." Alex whispered as she sighed loudly running a hand through her curly untamed hair.
"Celestial Goddess, do you wish to go back to where you belong in the clouds. In the spirit world with us. We will help you repair your soul back together and accept what has happened to you. When we get to the day you can decide if you want to stay here or go back. Which will it be Lucy?" Mavis spoke as she held her hand towards Lucy smiling sweetly.
Lucy looked at both of the bright girls then at Mavis hand. "I don't want any more pain! I don't want to go back! It would be better if I disappear from earth so I don't remind everyone I love about that horrible pain…." Lucy thought to herself as she lifted a weak hand towards Mavis.
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"Natsu, come out of the infirmary already and eat! It's been 6 months already! Please everyone is worried about you!" Mira said knocking on the infirmary door, but no answer came. Mira sighed as she walked back to the bar shaking her head no to the guild members as they looked at her with hopeful eyes that the dragonslayer will come out. The guild members sighed in sadness as they went back to their routine.
Inside the infirmary, Natsu opened his eyes softly from sleeping. His upper body resting next to Lucy on mattress as his lower body still sat on the chair next to the bed. Natsu heard the birds chirping outside making him awake more. He immediately sat up and stretched cracking his muscles. His eyes closed as he sighed heavily. He looked up at the ceiling getting himself ready to look at Lucy's body. This became a daily routine every morning. After a while he bent down to stare at the blonde only to have his eyes widen in shock and horror.
"LOKI! CAPRICORN!" Natsu yelled as he ran out the infirmary in panic. His heart beating fast as tears came down his eyes.
Didn't run because Lucy woke up! No just the opposite. Because on that infirmary bed where the blonde goddess rested all this time while she was in a comma. Lucy's feet are starting to disappear.
And soon if time runs out the rest of her body.