I'm sorry that took me a while...
Enjoy!
The next Monday at school, Quinn went straight to Rachel when she saw her trying to open her locker. Both of them seemed so happy they could die. A big smile on each of their faces, they hugged each other to say hi, and the cheerleader whispered in the brunette's ear:
"-You're beautiful.
-You are too, Quinn. I'm really surprised that you are actually showing affection to me in front of the whole school.."
Quinn ended the hug and smiled again.
"-I think I have to. But I'll still keep some things secret." Quinn winked.
"-Does that mean you have no regrets concerning what happened the other day?
-Absolutely none. You know it better than anyone Rachel, how... Awful I feel. I'm not a confident person at all but when you're with me I feel accepted, and... Special."
Rachel couldn't help but let the biggest smile show up on her face. She couldn't believe what was happening but she was loving it. It all just seemed like a dream, she had kissed Quinn Fabray and was sure it was going to happen again, without no awkwardness between them.
"-I'm sorry Rachel, if I was being a stupid bitch in denial. You make me happy and I like that, so I promise I will never hurt you again."
They hugged again when the bell rang and walked towards their respective classes.
A Few Months Later
The school year was coming to an end. Quinn was feeling much better, she would see Rachel at least 3 times a week outside of school and treat her as her secret girlfriend. They were in love, without a doubt, and even though their relationship had ups and downs they were working on being a strong and happy couple and it worked, even if they were not showing their love in public.
As Prom came closer, Quinn had to start focusing about being Prom Queen. It was more of an obligation towards her parents, and she knew she couldn't go with Rachel. First she would never win if she came out during Prom, then her family and friends would all hate her. This was only Junior Prom but was still a big deal to her and being Gay in public was not what Quinn had planned all her childhood.
She knew she would have to talk to Rachel about the whole Prom situation but she didn't feel ready to face the conversation. But it had to happen and it started on her bed while the secret love birds were enjoying a make out session.
"-I can't wait for Prom, you're going to be the most beautiful girl and I'm not doubting that you'll be the new McKinley Prom Queen.
-You're too nice.
-I'm just stating the truth. I'm going to go to Prom with the prettiest girl at school and she'll be all mine."
Rachel kissed Quinn on the neck, slowly moving to her lips. But before she could kiss her again, the blonde told her:
"-About that Rachel... I... I'm not sure I'm ready to go public. My mom has been waiting for Prom since I entered High School and I just can't ruin that for her.
-Are you ashamed of me Quinn?
-I'm not! I just don't want to come out at Prom. It's too early.
-We've been dating for a while now.
-I know but I just can't, okay?"
Rachel looked at her girlfriend with those big brown teary eyes that anybody would kill for, but the cheerleader turned her head to break the eye contact. She couldn't let those puppy eyes make her change her mind.
"-Who do you want to go with then?
-I asked Finn. I need a popular guy to be sure I get that crown."
Rachel sat down on the side of her bed, turning her back to Quinn who was still looking away.
"-You couldn't have chosen someone else? Why did you have to go with him?
-Because he's the only one who would have said yes. Sam doesn't want to go and Puck is going with Lauren. And they are going to be my competition."
Rachel slowly grabbed Quinn's hand and stayed quiet for a few seconds, trying to think about the situation and how jealous she felt. But she decided to let her girlfriend take her time to be able to embrace who she was.
"-I guess I understand Quinn, and I trust you. But I'm not going to hide that I am feeling quite jealous right now."
Quinn smiled, she felt so relieved that Rachel wasn't mad. She really had the best girlfriend anybody could ever ask for. She sat down on the bed as well and took the brunette in her arms.
"-I will kidnap you from the dance floor and make out with you in the bathroom. I will dance with you. I will tell you how beautiful you look and how lucky I am that I have you. And if you let me sleepover at the end of the night, I swear Rachel Berry, that I will make you spend the most amazing night of all your life...
-You want...
-Yes. Only if you feel ready though.
-Like you want to... Have sex with me?"
Rachel was letting her head rest on Quinn's shoulder, as the blonde was playing with her hair. The brunette couldn't believe what her girlfriend had just said. But was she ready? Yes, she wanted to take that step with Quinn, she was in love and even though it never felt right going past second base with Finn, Puck, or even Jesse; she knew that Quinn was the one. And her thoughts were verified when the blonde whispered in her ears:
"-I don't want to have sex with you Rachel, I want to make love to you, I want to stare at your body for hours while I'm making you happy. I want to feel like we're just one. I love you Rachel, you should know it by now.
-I love you too Quinn, and yes I am ready. Prom will be perfect."
Quinn smiled, again, and cupped her girlfriend's face with her hands and kissed her. As their tongues began to dance together, Rachel slipped one hand under Quinn's shirt to draw circled on her stomach. She wanted to be able to feel it so bad and she was going to have it, just one more month and Quinn would be even more special than she already was. Or at least that's what she thought.
A few days later, Quinn Fabray was walking in the McKinley's hallways with a big smile on her face. The whole Prom preparations were making her confident. She was going to win this, she couldn't even think of a why she'd lose. When she was walking in front of her competition, she always kept her head high, just like when she walked in front of Lauren on that morning.
"-Hey Lucy!"
said Lauren as Quinn walked by. Her heart stopped beating. This name, and this past she was trying so hard to forget brutally came back in her mind. She couldn't even breathe, she was hoping, praying God, to make some kind of a miracle happen and save her...
"-What did you just called me?
-Well that certainly got your attention. Can we speak privately?"
Quinn was scared to death as she followed Lauren into an empty classroom.
"-You might wanna have a seat."
Said Lauren, which didn't make Quinn feel even a tiny bit better about the whole situation. She sat as Lauren told her all about what she had discovered. Quinn was trying really hard not to cry, she didn't want to show anybody but Rachel that side of her. She was not a confident person, deep inside of her she was still Lucy, the girl everybody used to make fun of, the fat girl with an ugly nose. Even Rachel had no idea about Lucy, this had to stay a secret. But now Lauren knew all about it...
Quinn had no choice but tell Lauren the truth, maybe if she could express all the pain Lucy had caused her, Lauren wouldn't tell anyone? She would just feel bad and have pity for the Quinn Fabray... And she ended her pitiful speech with:
"... I've been that girl, and I'm never going back. I was just a miserable little girl, and now I'm going to be Prom Queen.
-Yeah... See, I wouldn't be so sure about that." said Lauren.
Quinn's thoughts were fighting harder and harder in her mind as Lauren continued:
"-You think everyone is gonna vote for you cause they wanna be like you. Well I don't know if they'll wanna be like you once they find out that you're a complete fraud.
-What are you gonna do?"
Once she realized that Lauren was going to tell everybody, she ran out of the classroom to see Lucy's picture everywhere. People were laughing in slow motion, and when people laugh in slow motion it's not a good thing at all. Quinn started crying, running around to rip the posters and finally ran away to lock herself in her car.
Lucy Quinn Fabray was back, on the backseat of her car where she used to cut. She was crying every tears she ever had stocked in her body and was wishing to disappear. She never wanted to see that school again, everybody knew, so now she couldn't hide anymore. And she would never be Prom Queen...
A few knocks on her car's window caught Quinn's attention. Rachel was standing outside, waiting for her girlfriend to open the door, which she did. The first thing the brunette did is hug the miserable girl crying her heart out.
"-You're beautiful Quinn, inside and out. You always were and you always will be."
Rachel kissed Quinn on her forehead, whipping the tears away with one hand. She was so shocked by what had just happened. She was meeting Quinn for the first time and she now understood why her girlfriend was who she was. Why she was trying to be the center of attention at school, why she was hiding her insecure side behind a shield all the time, and why she was emotionally the strongest person she had ever met. She now knew she was always going to love Quinn. After all, she was probably the only person in this world who knew her that well.
"-Go away Rachel. I want to be alone. Please."
The brunette nodded and left her girlfriend alone in the car. She wanted to stay and make her feel better but all she had to do now is wait for Quinn to calm down and try to talk to her later on that day. So she headed to the next class she had on her schedule.
