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Gajeel: HOW DARE YOU! I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR COHOST! AND WHAT THE FUCK IS ALL THIS HURTING BUNNY GIRL! YOU JUST LIKE TO SEE US SUFFER!
aWWW DOES Gajeel like Lucy? i didn't know you cared
Gajeel: I am going to fucking kill you!
I DO NOT OWN FAIRY TAIL OR ITS CHARACTERS...JUST MY OC ALEX ...ENJOY THE CHAPTER YOU GUYS!* yells while runs away from a fuming Gajeel*
"Mavis! Are you sure about this?" Alex asked as she continued to stare at the blonde goddess currently unconscious on her bed. Once Lucy agreed to come with them she seemed to have a lot of weight lifted out of her shoulders, but she instantly fainted in Mavis's arms. "Why does she have to be in my house?"
"Oh stop whining! I already explained to you that she must stay here because you understand her better than I!" Mavis spoke as she put her porcelain hands on her hips. Alex looked at Mavis with a serious face.
"I don't know what you mean!" Alex said nonchalantly as she walked into her kitchen getting ready for tea for three knowing Lucy will wake up soon. Mavis looked at her in sadness as she followed the brunette.
"Alex! You know what I am talking about! You have almost been through the same situation as her. You can help her through all this. Maybe she won't…." Mavis stood silent looking at the ground trying to think of the right words.
"Won't what? Mavis say it!" Alex breathed out as she held on to the hot pot on her right hand tightly. Her knuckles already turning ready. Mavis shook her head no as she looked at Alex in sadness regretting her words. "SAY IT!" Alex snapped her head to Mavis. Tears coming down her tan soft cheeks. Her tears not normal tears. Her tears are blood red going down leaving a trail of red on her face.
"NO!"
"SAY IT MAVIS! SAY HOW YOU DON'T WANT HER TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AS ME! HOW CENTURIES AGO I HAD THE SAME CHOICE AS HER! TO GO BACK TO MY LOVER ON EARTH OR TO STAY HERE! AND I CHOSE TO STAY HERE BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT THE PEOPLE I LOVED! YOU WANT TO TELL HER THAT WHEN SHE GETS UP! TELL HER HOW THE GREAT ALEX HERE MADE A MISTAKE! AND I WILL HELP HER NOT DO THE SAME ONE!" Alex yelled as she sobbed her tears of blood.
"YOU KNOW I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT!...WE HAVE TO HELP HER GO BACK ALEX! YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN!" Mavis yelled back at the curly haired brunette.
"GET OUT!"
"ALEX YOU TAKING THIS OUT OF HAND!"
"I SAID GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!" Alex cried as she pointed at the door. "I told you to never bring that up. I never wanted to be remembered of that day."
"Send me a message once she is better to have visitors!" Mavis said as she walked out the door. The door closed with a soft thud leaving Alex to fall on the floor with blood tears streaming down her eyes nonstop.
"DAMN IT MAVIS! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME REMEMBER THAT HORRIBLE PAST!" Alex sobbed out as she slammed her fist to the ground breaking the tan tiles in half with her strength. The floor filled with drops of blood from her tears.
Once Alex felt herself calm down she quickly got up and cleaned the floor and her face. She didn't want the blonde goddess to know yet about herself.
"The goddess should be up soon!" Alex whispered as she walked into the room to see Lucy thrashing everywhere on the bed in pain. Tears spilling down her eyes as she cried out silently. Alex looked at the blonde with a pain expression as she walked up to her. Alex grabbed her cold hands holding it to hers.
"NO! NO! NATSU!" Lucy continued to scream as more tears came down her closed eyes. Alex held Lucy's hand to her's as she attempted to send calming aura magic to her.
"I know this pain all too well, goddess! I promise from this moment on I will help you with all my might! You won't make the same mistake as me! Now calm down and WAKE UP FROM YOUR NIGHTMARE!" Alex screamed as she snapped her eyes opened revealing blood red eyes staring at Lucy with determination. Blood tears came down her eyes as she sent some of her magic to Lucy to get her to calm and wake up. "Unlike me! You have someone with you!"
With that Lucy immediately opened her eyes as she gasped in shock from the overwhelming flow of magic currently going through her. Her eyes looking around the room lifelessly as she got up softly. She looked at a worn out Alex curiously as she moved her hands close to her and away from the curly haired brunette. Alex looked at Lucy and smiled faintly at the lifeless blonde.
"Looks like it is going to take a while for you to get back to your old self. Your eyes are no longer sparkling honey brown color but now jet black with pain and sorrow. That's how I started out!" Alex sighed as she got up and walked to the kitchen. She heard Lucy get up slowly from the bed and slowly following behind her. "Would you like some tea, Lucy?" Lucy snapped her head up and stared at Alex curiously with her black sorrowful eyes.
"How do you know my name?" She asked in barely a whisper, but Alex heard her loud and clear.
"Everyone knows your name here! You are the celestial goddess and you are in the celestial realm right now! So it is natural I know your name!" Alex said as she handed a cup of tea to Lucy. Alex watched with curious eyes as she witness Lucy sniff her tea then carefully take a small sip from it. Lucy continued to drink her tea somewhat happy from its warmth. Alex smiled as she witnessed Lucy's pale skin come back to life with each sip from the warm tea.
"Is your face alright?" Lucy asked after much silence between her and Alex. Alex looked at her confused.
"My face?"
"Yes! When I woke up your eyes were red while you were crying blood!"
"Oh! That is just what happens when I use my power and when I am sad my tears are blood due to a mistake a long time ago!" Alex chuckled nervously as she scratched the back of her head in nervousness. She then looked at Lucy serious. "Lucy you do know you have to make a decision soon!"
"Decision of what?" Lucy asked as she set down the tea mug on the table and sat down on the couch. She looked at Alex curiously her jet black eyes holding no sparkle of life in them at all.
"Lucy, you have to make a decision once times runs out whether you would like to stay here or go back to the people you love on earth. For now your soul is here as a spirit while your body is on earth waiting for it to come back, but the longer you stay here your body will disappear little by little. Once your body disappears on earth there is no other way to go back even if you're the celestial goddess. Trust me there is no other way and you would be forced to stay here and live with the consequences of your mistake." Alex spoke sorrowfully as she looked at Lucy with a serious expression.
"How long do I have to make this decision?" Lucy asked still confused on the matter.
"I would say about 3 weeks!"
"What would happen if I didn't make a decision by then?"
"Your body on earth would disappear completely and you would be forced to stay here. It would be as if you chose to stay here! You will forever remember and regret it!"
"I rather stay here instead of going back!" Lucy spoke as she stared intently at the table which contained her mug. The pain of the past going through her heart as her throat held the lump of tears.
"You don't mean that!" Alex hissed getting angered as she remembered herself saying those exact same words long ago. Her teeth gritted together in force as the memory came back to her. She clenched her fist in anger as she tried to hold it in.
"I mean it! Why would I got back when I would just sadden the people I love! It is better that I just stay here and never go back." And with that line Alex snapped. Lucy yelped in shock as Alex immediately grabbed her by the collar of her shirt and pulled her close to her. Lucy's eyes widen in shock and horror as Alex's eyes turned red with anger as she stared down at Lucy.
"YOU DON'T MEAN THAT! DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE YOU WILL SADDEN WITH YOU JUST STAYING HERE! IF YOU STAY HERE YOU WILL SUFFER SO MUCH THAT YOU WOULD WANT YOUR VERY EXISTANCE TO DISAPPEAR. THE WORST PAIN IS THAT YOU HAVE TO WATCH YOUR LOVED ONES SUFFER BECAUSE OF YOUR IDIOTIC CHOICE. DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AS I DID! DON'T GO THROUGH THE SAME PAIN I GO THROUGH EVERYDAY! I HAVEN'T FELT MY HEART BEAT FOR CENTURIES! MY EYES LOST ITS COLOR AND STAYED JET BLACK WITH SORROW LIKE YOURS ARE NOW! I DON'T EVEN CRY REAL TEARS! I CRY BLOOD! BECAUSE THAT IS MY PUNISHMENT THAT IS WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH EVERYDAY OF THIS SO CALLED DEAD LIFE!" Alex yelled in Lucy's face as blood tears came down her eyes continuously.
Alex sobbed out as she lowered her head down resting it on Lucy's shoulder. Lucy held Alex carefully in her arms afraid to break her. Alex continued to cry as she remembered her own pain of the past. Her chest felt as if it was on fire. Lucy's eyes flickered softly with color in and out as she continued to hold Alex's crying figure.
"Will you tell me your story someday?" Lucy asked in a hushed whispered once Alex stopped sobbing. Alex sniffed one last time and sat up softly looking at the blonde curiously. Alex stared at Lucy with jet black lifeless eyes. Her cheeks stained by the blood tears. Alex looked to see Lucy's shirt also stained by the blood from her tears.
Both girls looked at each other curiously. They are so different, but they have one thing in common and that is the lifeless jet black eyes. The eyes that reveal of their pain and sorrow and how they are on the point to giving up. But there is one difference while one girl gave up a long time ago the other can still be saved. Alex looked at Lucy and smiled weakly. She will save her no matter what because even though Alex decided a long time ago not to save herself. She already made her mistake and she is not about to let someone else make the same mistake also.
"I will tell you everything starting today! But I am going to warn it is not a happy story and you will change your mind and maybe even question yourself a lot. Just think while I tell you everything about your decision and why I say it's a mistake to stay here. I am not going to hold anything back while I tell you so you will see lots of terrible things through my eyes. Are you prepared to go through someone else's memories and experience their pain?" Alex asked seriously as she stared at Lucy sternly. Alex smiled as she witnessed the goddess's eyes slowly come back to life as if her determination is slowly coming back. The determination to stay alive still lives within her.
"Yes!" Lucy chocked out as she looked at the proud brunette seriously. Alex chuckled to herself softly as she got up and moved in front of the blonde. She lifted her hand close to Lucy's forehead, but careful not to touch it yet.
"You must not let this get to you, Lucy! I am sharing with you my most painful memories that not even I want to remember. These were my last days on earth. Don't let this sadden you and don't feel pity for me! I am only showing you this because I don't want you to make the same mistake as I did! I don't want you to get more depressed by this and decide to stay because if you do I will kick your ass!"
"I understand!" Lucy spoke and just as she said those words Alex touched her forehead. Alex grunted in pain as her eyes turned red while she passed her memories to the blonde. Lucy gasped in shock by the sudden magic her eyes widen in shock as did Alex's. Both girls immediately fell down unconscious as they lived the nightmare of Alex in their heads. Both girls even Alex.
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"How long Loki?" Natsu asked franticly. Everyone stood around Lucy's bed in panic and worry to see her feet slowly little by little disappearing.
"I would say about 3 weeks!" Loki answered sullenly as he refused to look at the pink haired man. Natsu's eyes widen in shock as the whole guild murmured their concern behind him. "That is how much time she has left to accept her death and everything that has happened. If she doesn't she would be forced to stay in the celestial realm for centuries suffering by herself with no help. The guilt will eat her alive and she would attempt to kill herself as many times as she can, but it would be no use."
"How do you know that?" Mira asked as looked at Loki curiously her eyes already dried from all the tears she cried. Mira held her girls close to her as they cried for Lucy as well as all the kids. Even though the kids only knew he for a while they really liked her.
"I knew a friend who went through the same exact thing. To this day if anyone even recalls that event she breaks down. I will hate the day for when she has to relive it again who knows what she might do!"
"Who was she?" Erza spoke out asking the question that everyone was wondering. Loki looked at them with the saddest expression as he thought about his best friend that he is talking about.
"She was my best friend I knew her from when she was alive. Her name was Alex!"
Everyone in the guild stood in silence as they stared at Lucy in sadness.
"You think the same that happened to her will happen to Lucy?" Gray asked as his hold on Juvia only tightened for comfort.
"NO! It won't!" Natsu hissed angrily as he glared at everyone. "She will make it! I believe in her! You guys should to!"
"Is it me of the fire trash has been believing in Lucy more than us!" Gray smirked sadly as he scoffed at the dragonslayer.
"Well a man never doubts his lover no matter what!" Elfman as he squeezed Evergreen to him. Evergreen in turn smiled at her lover with much affection in her eyes. "If we were men we would smile and prepare for the woman to come back! If we were men we would believe! IF WE WERE MEN…"
"OK! We get it Elfman! We don't need you to go on another man speech!" Gajeel growled as he glared at the whited haired takeover man. "Alright! We shouldn't get depressed anymore for bunny girl we should all believe she will make the right choice. …Flamebrain! That means you to!" Natsu looked at Gajeel confused as he pointed to himself. "Yeah you! dumbass! Everytime you do the whole let me be depressed everyone gets worried. You getting upset and depressed isn't going to help Lucy! You can't really tell us to believe in bunny girl when you yourself don't believe!"
"I do believe in her!" Natsu spoke feeling as if he has to defend his honor.
"NO YOU DON'T! When you get upset, depressed, and overly worried means you don't believe in her! It just means you're afraid she might disappear!"
"And what's wrong with that? What's wrong with being afraid of losing her!"
"A man shouldn't be afraid of losing a woman if he truly believes she will come back!" Elfman yelled out loud serious to his own words.
"Both idiots are right, Natsu! You tell us to believe in her and wait. Why not wait with us! Why not believe with us! Why not smile with us as we wait for her! You know she wouldn't want us to be sad about her!" Gray spoke as he and the rest of the guild members smiled at the fire dragonslayer. The kids sniffed happily as they heard their elders words. They ran to Natsu grabbing his hands as they smiled at him.
"I just don't want to lose her! I have waited too long for us to be together already. I don't want to wait anymore! I am already ready to start our life together!" Natsu spoke softly as tears went down his face. "I don't get why of all people it has to be her to suffer so much?"
"It's because she is the celestial goddess! She has to suffer in order for her to discover herself. Now your moping and crying is starting to annoy me lover boy! I have known Lucy since she was little and I know that brat won't give up that easily! She will be fine so stop worrying about her! She is not as weak as you all think!" Aquarius spoke as she scolded Natsu and the guild at the same time. Everyone stared at the ex-spirit in fear knowing her power if you get on her bad side. "Now I want a drink!"
"Coming!" Mira spoke happily as she walked out with half the guild with her to resume their daily habits. They resumed to living their lives as happily as they can with the blonde goddess still in their hearts. Living their lives for her waiting for her to come back.
"I guess their right! Luce! I'll wait happily for you to come back. I beli….." Natsu couldn't finish his own sentence because he smelled something familiar through his dragon senses.
A scent that he prayed for years he could smell again. A scent from the dragon he searched for. Natsu immediately smiled widely as he ran to the front of the guild. Everyone stared at the red haired man that just walked through the doors. His Onyx eyes ever familiar as his red hair he stared at Natsu and smiled happily.
"IGNEEL!" Natsu yelled as he jumped on the middle aged man. Everyone in the guild gasped in shock as they saw the supposed dragon father play fight with his adopted son. They smiled and laughed happily as they tackled each other catching up on old times. "Why are you a human!" Natsu said out of breath as he stay seated on the group in front of the worn out man. Gajeel and Wendy immediately near them with curiosity in their eyes.
"Natsu! This is Igneel? Your dragon?" Wendy asked confused as she looked at Igneel clearly noticing that he is not a dragon, but a human. A man around his thirties with tan skin perfect teeth and silky hair. He has a heartthrob of course his muscles made him even hotter to the women's eyes.
"Why are you human?" Gajeel demanded as he stared down at Igneel.
"I'll answer your questions later! Now where is Lucy?" Igneel asked happily as he looked around Natsu towards the inside the guild. And with that everyone stood quiet with guilt written on their face. Natsu sighed knowing there is no avoiding this. "Where is Lucy?" Igneel growled out his eyes turning yellow with black slits in the middle. Red scales appeared on his skin as he stared them down his overprotective nature coming out. Natsu sighed sadly getting up.
"Come on, I'll show you!" Natsu said leading Igneel to the back of the guild.
"Natsu what's going on? Where is Lucy?" Igneel asked getting impatient and angered at the same time. Everyone in the guild stayed out knowing Igneel and Natsu need this time to themselves.
"Nothing good!" Natsu replied as he opened the infirmary door revealing to the wide eyed red haired man the unconscious blonde. Igneel stared at Lucy in panic as his eyes widen in pain staring at her disappearing feet.
"What happened here!"