Hey Guys So sorry it took me so long to update. 2 weeks ago I had a compitition and last week was my birthday.

I plan to update every weekend now because I have a very busy schedual at school

Well I wont bother you any longer here is chapter 4

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Alice's POV

"Alice!" Bella sobbed. Her thin arms wrapping around my neck in a chock hold.

I let her pull herself close to me. I rubbed her back soothingly knowing she must be overwhelmed with emotion.

I smelt salty tears as Bella's eyes became watery. "Shh Bella everything's okay, shh" I tried to sooth her as she cried into my chest. Her fingers grasped my shirt until her knuckles became white, and even then her grip never diminished.

Edward can't you see what you've done to her? Poor Bella is basically falling apart before my eyes. She's probably missed you so much. I thought. Bella finally started to calm down and her red, puffy eyes looked up into mine.

"I've missed you so much Alice" she whispered. Her voice breaking twice.

I frowned it was obvious Bella has been beyond broken and that she has missed us. But I never expected her to be so lifeless, the broken girl I was staring at looked physically like Bella did. But everything else about her was wrong. Her eyes held no shine, no glint of happiness and love that once used to posses her. The excitement and infectious personality that used to come off of Bella in waves, was now replaced by sorrow and loss. The most troubling part though was that I knew she was better now, than she had been in months. My hand reached up and wiped away one of the tears on Bella's cheek.

"I've missed you to" I replied in a sad tone.

It hurt me to see her like this. However I knew that Edward was watching right now, and this would hurt him ten times more than it hurt me.

"How have you been? How's your family?" Bella asked awkwardly, her eyes looking down to the floor at the mention of the family she no doubt missed more than anything right now.

"We've been … fine" I said, deciding not to tell her the broken mess everyone had become.

"How have you been Bella?"Bella looked at her hands, a guilty expression on her face, like a kid who had just been caught taking a toy from their sibling.

Bella heaved a sigh "I … its been a rough few month's, I haven't been doing very well." She said.

I waited for her to expand but it was obvious she didn't want to talk much about this right now. So I simply nodded and rubbed her arm soothingly.

Bella shivered and I realised my skin was making her cold. There wasn't a blanket anywhere in sight so I pulled her into my arms and ran vampire speed upstairs to her room.

I gasped quietly so Bella wouldn't hear when I saw her room.

It was as dead as her eyes, no life lingering in it.

The CD player was still on her night table but no CD's sat next to it. Her desk was free of everything but a notebook, a pencil and her computer, the floor held only her bag and there wasn't a book in sight. Reading hadn't only been a pass time for Bella, she had lived in her books, it had been her life. Now all of that life was gone. There was nothing that hinted anyone let alone Bella lived here.

I set her on the rocking chair and pulled the quilt off of her bed and wrapped it around her.

Bella curled into the rocking chair as if she pretended she was sitting with someone, with Edward.

God dam it Edward she needs you so much! Come back to her! I yelled in my mind. But to no avail. As I cheeked the future it was clear Edward planned to continue to stay away from Bella. For the time being.

"You miss him, don't you?" I blurted out before I could think twice. Bella's eyes shot up and became as wide as saucers, and a tear fell.

"Yes" she whispered looking down to her hands. " I miss his presence. I miss how safe I felt when he held me at night. I miss the butterflies he gave me when his hand touched mine. I miss him singing me to sleep every night. I miss telling him I love you over and over again. I miss the crocked smile he saved only for me. I miss him. So, so much" She said. Tears now falling freely down her face.

My heart broke for her. "Come here Bella" I said as I pulled her into a hug.

I could tell she was exhausted. She was literally falling asleep in my arms. "Lets get you to bed" I whispered to her as I carried her to her bed.

I laid her on her bed and wrapped the blankets around her. I didn't bother changing her, she was in sweats and a tee. It would be comfortable enough for tonight.

"Edward" Bella cried.

She wasn't asleep yet, but she was so close that I knew she though she was dreaming. I went over and knelt beside her bed. Running my fingers gently threw her hair. "Shhh Bella he's on his way. He'll be here soon." I whispered quietly to her in order to calm her down.

"I want Edward. Please Alice." She asked me. I looked at her red puffy eyes and knew how much she was hurting.

Edward I know you've been listening the whole time. Get your ass in here now or else… I threatened my brother.

Edward was beside me in less than a quarter of a second. "I'll take your place for now Alice. Why don't you go call Jasper?" I took that as his polite way of asking me to leave.

I nodded and kissed Bella's forehead before jumping out the window.

Edward's POV

I took a deep breath and then knelt down where Alice had been beside Bella's bed. I lightly stroked Bella's cheek and traced her lips. Her eyes opened almost instantly.

"Edward, you're here" She breathed in relief. I gave a stiff nod and stood up planning to lie down beside her. However Bella panicked at my rising. Her hand gripped my shirt and pulled me down onto the bed next to her.

"Edward don't leave!" She cried.

I didn't answer her. I simply lied down beside her. I looked into her eyes and saw them filled with millions of questions. I couldn't help myself I had to know what she was thinking.

"What's on your mind Bella?" I asked her.

Bella sighed and her eyes changed.

I finally saw the hurt Bella had been hiding from me the last few days. It was very close to how I felt when I was away from her. Bella just wrapped her arms around me and pushed her face into my neck

"Oh Edward I'm so sorry. Please come back" she cried, her hot tears warmed my chest.

"I promise I'll be enough this time. I will do anything just please don't leave me. I need you! You're my best friend and so much more. Please come back I'm so sorry. I can change. Ill do anything just please come back Edward!" Bella cried in hysterics.

My heart broke and unsheadable tears pricked my eyes. What had I done to her?

I pushed Bella away slightly to look her in the eyes. They were red and puffy from crying. I wiped away a salty tear that sat on her lip and brushed her hair back.

"I will always be with you Bella. You don't need to change anything." I said rubbing her back. I hear Charlie's police cruiser coming. He was about 5 minutes away.

"Please Bella" I whispered attempting to calm her down before her father came home and came upstairs to cheek on her.

"Please what?" she asked in a small voice.

"Please tell me what you need" I pleaded with her.

Tears filled her eyes again. "I really need one of your hugs right now" she said as I pulled her as close to me as possible trying to comfort her.

"Shhh love everything's okay" I said rubbing her back.

Right when she nodded into my chest I heard the cruiser pull into the driveway. How was I going to tell her I had to leave. Even if only momentarily.

I took a deep breath as I planned my words that I knew was going to hurt her.

"Bella I…

Hehe I know Im mean :P

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