Bonjur! Yeah, i kinda did update this the same day i posted the third chapter. I feel so accomplished!

On to the fic!

Yogi stirred in his sleep. He was floating. In his dream that is. On a big fluffy the cloud floated along with the wind. Yogi blinked sleepily. "Where am i?" he asked, his voice laced with sleep and tiredness. "Yogi!" Yogi sat up in alarm. That voice! "yogi!" The voice was coming closer. "N-no! Yogi scrambled to his feet. In doing so, he tripped and lost his balance. Gravity took it's effect and Yogi fell from the cloud; his violet eyes wide as his long thin arms reached up in a weak attempt to grab the cloud.

Yogi closed his eyes as he fell. He didn't care at the moment that he was falling from so high up, or even how he had been on a cloud in the first place. what mattered to him, was that he would be away from the voice. It brought back to much pain. Pain of what he did. "Yogi." Yogi opened his eyes. He was surrounded by belue. A dark royal blue color. His favorite color. "Yogi." That was his voice. Yogi gulped before sitting up and looking to his right. Yogi's violet eyes widened and suddenly he could no longer breathe. He was there, and not a day older than seven. "E-Eito!" He whispered. It felt as if here was a huge weight on his chest, crushing his heart and lungs. He couldn't breathe. His brother...his twin brother was standing in front of him. Looking like he had before-

"Idiot." Eito muttered, looking at Yogi with a smirk on his face. "Your back!" Yogi launched himself at the older twin, his mind not registering that he was seven years old again. Or rather, he looked seven years old again. Tears were flowing down seven year old Yogi's face, yet nonetheless, he grinned happily at his twin. "Your such a cry baby." Eito said with a soft smile on his face. Yogi grinned even wider, showing that he was missing a front tooth, making a bit of color show on his cheeks. "Hey, wheres Aiko?" Yogi asked, looking around for their little sister. "Over here!" A little voice yelled happily as a three year old girl attached herself to both of the twin boys. "Your both so loud." Eito complained lightly. The little girl pouted "Am not!" The little girl, Aiko, protested. Yogi laughed happily as he patted her head. Immediately, she leaned into his touch. Yogi had always had a way with kids. Aiko and Yogi had golden yellow hair like their mother had before she had died giving birth to Aiko. Aiko also had their father's ice blue eyes. While Yogi and had their mother's violet eyes. One of the few thing they had in common, despite the fact Eito's eyes were a shade lighter. Eito also had their father's natural silver hair color.

"What are you doing over there? I thought we where gonna play!" Yogi's eyes flew open, he spun around, shoving his siblings behind him in an attempt to hide them. "Ah, you brought friends who also want to play too?" The voice asked. "Leave them alone!" Yogi yelled. It felt like the cold icy hand of the grim reaper himself had caught his heart, and his heart was beating so fast that it was like it was trying to fly away. Yogi felt so scared. That man...he was back! And he wanted to hurt his family! Yogi wouldn't let him, he didn't want to let him, but he already had.

He heard himself scream 'NO!'. His eyes, if even possible, widened even more. Eito wasn't behind him anymore, instead he was on the ground bleeding to death, the man towering over him. "Yogi? ...You..alright?" He had asked Yogi...if he wa alright. He had been a protective/worrying older brother even as he died.

"N-no." Yogi whispered. Eito's blood was all over. On the ground, his body, the man and the man's weapon. Yogi gulped and looked down, before gasping in shock. The blood was on his too~ Not just his own blood, but his twin's and fathers!

"You're nothing but a screw up." The man cooed. "You deserve the pain." Yogi gulped. He was right. Yogi was nothing but a screw up.

First, he had gotten sick, and had given that sickness to his father causing his death. At least, that's what Yogi thought. It couldn't have just been a coincidence. Him getting really sick before dying. It couldn't be a coincidence! It couldn't be!

Second, he was so weak! After his father died Eito took charge. Being the oldest. Looking around for any money or work to get money he could find. Luckily, the house had been paid off. Electricity and running water had been taken care of by close family friends. At least, that's what Eito said. Yet Yogi knew that Eito was still pushing himself. He had been right.

Yogi found out that his older bother had been working at a construction sight. At night when he and Aiko had been sleeping. Yogi had felt so weak. And pathetic. here he was and Yogi didn't do a thing to help his brother. When Eito was working at night, he didn't do anything helpful. Sure, Eito wasn't doing any big jobs or anything, he was just helping around. Running errands, but he was still working so late at night. For him and Aiko.

Third, he let...Yogi lowered his head. He had been raped, multiple times. And he let it happen. Because he was to afraid, to scared to reach out to tell his family. To scared to yell for help. That lead to his brother's death.

Fourth, his twin brother's death. He had been pulled into the alley that day by his raper, and after being breath and raped a few times. Eito had found them. Yogi's screams and pleads for the pain to to stop, for the man to go away, had lead his brother there. Straight to his death.

Yogi had watched helplessly as Eito had been murdered in front of him. Watched as his twin had been beat and stabbed to death. Watched helplessly as the man fucked his twin's dead body.

All that blood, and screaming. Yogi had been useless and weak. Even if he couldn't' have moved because of how much blood he lost, he still should have done more to stop his twin's death. Yet he didn't. Yogi had caused such trouble for his sister. Sure, she hadn't known what rape was, but she would a few years later, after looking it up. Her knowing wouldn't help make talking about what had happened that day any easier. in fact, it would make it worse. Impossible to talk about it. Even if she knew what rape was and that it had happened to Yogi, she wouldn't know about his other problems. and neither would he. A few years later, he would join circus because of his 'super human' strength, and that be had severe allergies that needed to be taken care of carefully. By wearing that band aid on his face every day, replacing it with a new one everyday.

The list could go on in Yogi's mind. Of all the times he was a pain. All the times he had been a problem to everyone around him.

The most recent times. The newest times he was a bother was added to his list. First off,he couldn't save Gareki's friend. (he had been right there! He should have been able to do something!) He let Tsukumo, Nai and Gareki get hurt. (What kind of friend was he? to let them get hurt so easily!) And when he had collapse, both times. ( He was in circus. He shouldn't have collapsed so easily! He shouldn't be so weak!)

Yogi gasped in shock as the blood from his twin brother began to slide towards him. He looked around frantically. Aiko was gone. "good bye Yogi." Yogi's head shoot to the left. His sister didn't glance at him as she turned her back to him. "No! Don't go! Please!" Yogi yelled helplessly as she disappeared. The blood on him began to bubble and burn him. And Yogi fell to his knees. he deserved worse than this.

"Yogi!" Yogi shot up, wide awake, when he heard a voice yell his name and his face get slapped. Yogi gasped, grasping a hand over his frantically beating heart. He looked up surprised.

"G-Gareki?" Yogi asked "What happened?" Yogi asked looking up at Gareki. They where in a medic room. It was night and Nai was asleep in the bed across from where he and Gareki where. "Wheres Tsukumo?" Yogi asked, glancing at Nai, before looking back at Gareki.

"S-shes not here." "What?" Yogi asked alarmed. "Be quiet!" Gareki snapped. He sighed. "She got kidnapped. Me and Nai are going withe someone else." Gareki looked away. "Oh." I let Tsukumo get kidnapped. Yogi thought, looking down at his lap. "How are you and Nai?" Yogi asked, looking back up at Gareki.

Gareki blinked, his face black. "Fine." He said shortly. Yogi grinned, trying to push his depressing thoughts away. "S-shut up and go to sleep. Your such a pain." Gareki said looking away as he walked back to his own bed. Yogi's eyes widened at the out burst, but or was true. "Yeah." Yogi whispered softly. "I am, huh?" "G'night." He said a little louder, feigning happiness. Just like always. Yogi laid back down and closed his eyes tightly. Trying to keep his tears in. Trying to hide his pain.

T_T It had been longer on paper! Oh well. Maaan! I feel bad for putting Yogi threw so much. He and Nai are my favorite characters. Sorry if I made Gareki seem a bit like an ass. Why he acted that way will be explained in the next chapter. which will be up soon. I already have ideas! :D

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