Our Beautiful Mistake

Chapter 4: Adoption & Jessica

"Edward," said Emmett calling his friend over. I looked away avoiding eye contact. I looked at my ice cream which at the moment didn't seem as good as it was before. "Bells," Alice whispered. I looked up avoiding eye contact. Emmett didn't know about Edward and mine one night stand. There are just some things you don't tell to your guy best friend. "You okay," she said lifting my face up. I shook my head no. I felt my stomach turn. "Bella," I heard Emmett's voice call out to me.

"Alice," I said as I covered my mouth heading to the bathroom. I heard Alice following me. As I knelt there throwing up my lungs my thoughts couldn't help but travel back to the father of my child. I sighed as I stopped throwing up. "God Alice when does this all stop," I said taking deep breath as she rubbed my back.

I looked up at her and smiled "I am sorry," I said feeling tears forming. She kneeled down next to me and kissed my forehead. "What are best friends for," she said helping me up. I washed my mouth really quick and walked out with Alice.

I heard laughter coming from our table. I wish I was back in that bathroom then here with Edward and Emmett. I looked at them and smiled. "Bells you okay," said Emmett. I looked at him and smiled. He smiled back.

"What's wrong Bella," said a voice. I looked up to the owner of the voice to be Edward's brother Jasper. He was nothing like Edward. He was nice, caring, and laid back. He was a year older then Edward. He was also in the army. I glazed over at Alice who was standing next to me having a staring contest with Jasper. I smiled to myself.

"I am fine. Just coming down with something. I think it was Alice's cooking." He let out a laugh making me laugh. I felt Alice glare at me and making us laugh harder. Jasper had a way to change people's mood. He was the perfect guy. Heck if Alice hadn't been dating him on the down low I would have.

I looked over to see Edward and Emmett having a deep convocation.

I sat down in a chair. I stayed quite as Alice and Jasper talked.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I looked at my phone. Jacob. I smiled. I stilled loved him but it was different.

"Hello," I said picking "can I call you back," I said. "Hey. Oh yah. Bye Bella I love you."

I looked at the phone and sighed.

This was going to be a while.

[Bella]

When I was younger my mother would hold my hand when I was scared. She would hold me in her arms and tell me everything would be alright. She would kiss my tears away and sing me a lullaby making the fear go away. Now sitting here in the doctor's office I wished I had my mom here to hold my hand.

I took a deep breath looking around me. There were women here with their boyfriends and husbands. I sat here next to my best friends. I sighed. Would my baby have a father in her life? Would I be able to give her that life?

"Ms. Swan," called the doctor. Alice and I got up leaving Emmett outside.

I looked around the office it was a shade of light blue. There was a desk two chairs, and a another door which probably lead to check up room. I looked at the doctor in front of me. She was beautiful woman. She had long brown hair and light brown eyes. She was pale with full pink lips and a beautiful smile. "Hello I presume you are Miss. Sawn," she said with a smile. I smiled back "yes doctor Mason." She smiled "please sit."

"Do you know how long you are," she asked. I shook my head "maybe two months." She smiled "that's alright. Let's check you out." I smiled following her to the room.

"Well Miss. Swan it seems you are about seven weeks," said the doctor looking at the screen in front. I felt a smile appear on my face. "My goddaughter is healthy right," asked Alice. The doctor raised her eyebrow and nodded "you baby seems to be doing prefect. A girl?" I squeezed Alice's hand. "Yes let's just say auntie's intuition.

Dr. Mason laughed. "Thanks a lot Dr. Mason." She smiled "call me Esme." Thank you Esme see you next week." She nodded "take your prenatal and eat healthy here is a list," she said handing me a list. I smiled.

I couldn't help but smile as we walked out the hospital. "Bella, Emmett, Alice," I heard a voice from behind us. I froze in terror. I turned around. "Jessica," I said looking at her. She had a smirk on her face. "What are you doing here Bells," she said looking at the paper in my hand. "I am… umm..-." "None of your business Jesse," said Alice glaring at her.

If only looks could kill Jessica would be dead. Jessica was downright evil. She was runner up "it" girl. Alice came first. Alice and Jessica were reveals. Meaning Jessica hated my guts,

"What are you doing here anyway Jess," said Emmett. She instantly looked at him. Her face light up. She moved closer to him smiling wide. "Well Emmy boo," she said with a sweet voice making me want to throw up again. "My father he's a doctor," she said playing with her hair. I wanted to laugh as Emmett made a face. "Miss. Sawn," we heard a voice from behind us.

We all turned around looking at a nurse from Esme office. I looked at her and then at Jessica if she found out the whole school would know within an hour. I looked at Alice and she looked at Emmett. I felt my hands start to sweat. "You forgot this," said the nurse handing me my phone. I smiled "thank you." She nodded turning around about to leave.

I let out a breath out I didn't know I was holding. "Oh yah," said the nurse turning around. "Congratulations on your pregnancy." I froze looking at Jessica. Oh shit some please shot me now.

[Bella]

When I was younger my father ones told me the world's a cruel place to live. It's a stone cold road out there. You must travel till the end. Don't stop and try to take a short cut. Don't fail under the pressure of the judgmental world. Walk up that road with you head held high proud of all your mistakes or as my mother called them life lessons.

It's their job to pull you down. To break you but never give up. Forget what people say. Do what you believe in. Do what's right.

I sighed sitting on my bed looking at the blank wall in front of me. My eyes moved away from the wall as I heard my phone ring for the 20th time. I looked at it. Mike Newton. I let out a irritated sigh. Ignore. People must already have heard about me. Edward must have heard. Would he think back to that night? Would he even consider he was Aliyah's father?

No I shook my head. Why would he? He had made it clear as day he didn't like me it wasn't possible. He wanted to put this behind him and move on. He just wanted things to go back to the way they were. We were just friends of friends. No talking just simple nods, smiles, and looks.

"Aliyah," I said talking to my baby "I promise to give the best I can."

How can I afford a baby? I already work a full time job to pay all the bills. Could I afford you baby? Adoption? I shook my head. "Adoption," I said out testing out the word. Could I? Should I?

I closed my eyes and laid back I didn't have to be at work till three. It was a reward from my boss. I sign and drifted off to sleep.

[Edward]

I opened my apartment door feeling someone tackle me instantly. I held in a laugh. I looked in two her big blue eyes and smiled. "Hey," I said picking her up. She giggled. "Hey," she said smiling at me. "I missed you," I said placing a soft kiss on her forehead. She smiled. "I missed you to Daddy," she said hugging me tight.

[Bella]

"Miss," I heard a voice calling me. I didn't look away from the computer screen. "Yes."

"I hope you can help me," said a woman. I stopped typing and turned around in my chair facing the mysterious woman. She was tall and well just downright beautiful. She had dirty blonde hair and blue eyes.

She looked dismayed. "Can I help you," I said gesturing for her to sit."