Chapter 12

Elena P.O.V

"Damon, what are you doing here?"

"Well, my brother does live here" Damon said simply tightening his grip on me.

"Since when have you started visiting" Giuseppe asked confused.

"So not the usual disapproving look then, what a change" Damon sneered.

"Damon, calm down" I said squeezing his arm, causing him to look down at me and I could see him calm instantly. " For you and you only" he replied simply.

"Can't stay and chat got places to be" Damon said as he walked towards the door as Giuseppe stood in his way.

"Thought you'd want me to leave, I mean you hate me right"

"No, how could I hate you your my son"

"Since when have you ever cared"

"I never stopped caring, the death of your mother changed me into a man, I wish I wasn't, I regret everyday that I blamed you, it was never your fault"

"Do you want me to go, i'll go help Lexi with the kids if you want" I asked.

"No stay, I need you here" Damon said. I just nodded my head and gripped his hand.

"You could have fooled me, if you stopped blaming me then why haven't I had a visit from you or better yet a phone call"

"Because everytime I try to call it gets ignored"

"Do you blame me after the way you treated me"

"I know and you don't understand how much it hurts me to know that I hurt you and it hurts to think you think I hate you, I don't I want to be in your life, i've already missed out on so much. I missed my own sons wedding day because I was in to deep in my own despair and anger, I missed the birth of my own grandchildren and I want to make that up to the both of you, I want to see you get married Damon and have kids and Stefan I know i've already told you this but I want to know my grandchildren and watch them grow up" he said as a tear leaked from his eye.

Damon was clearly shocked and confused by what his father had just said, I gripped his hand tighter.

"Why now, why the sudden change of heart" Damon whispered.

"I just want your forgiveness, I don't want to be alone anymore, I want to know my sons" he whispered.

"I can't give you forgiveness...at least nit yet" Damon said.

"So I haven't lost you forever then"

"Not yet at least"

"You've changed so much Damon. I like this man you have become you remind me so much of your mother"

"Well, thank this one for that without her i'd still be an a class asshole" he nudged me wrapping his arm around me. "We have to go we actually do have plans, but if you want a chance i'll be round tommorrow, we'll talk then" Damon said as his father stepped out of his way.

"Of course, anything. I'll be here"

"Alright then...See you Stef, say thanks for Lexi for the great meal" Damon called back as we walked out the door and too his car. Tonight was eventful to say the least, I still felt very queasy and I new that any sudden jolt and I would be throwing up yet again, I was worried about what this was.

As we got in the car, Damon was very quiet and I could tell he was thinking over the night events.

"You ok, baby" I asked as we drove into town.

"I'm fine just thinking" he replied simply

"You still gonna go out tonight with Ric"

"I don't think so, it's only his work collegues they annoy me and i'm not in the mood for them tonight. I think i'll just spend the night with my girlfriend and look after her"

"Well, I was thinking maybe we could have the conversation you've been wanting to have" I said weakly.

"You sure, you don't look up to it" he asked worried.

And he was right it was asif it all hit me at once, I felt feverish, weak and dehydrated, put I tried to power through it.

"I'll be fine"

"You really don't look to good"

"Its nothing, I'm fine just this stupid bug" I said as he placed a hand on my head.

"You seem a little hot, do you want me to take you back to the house and we'll talk or some where else"

"Well, I don't really want to have this conversation at the house so how we go down to the quarry?"

"Ok, but as soon as were done were back at the house an your in bed. Just ring Ric and make up an excuse why i'm not going to be back in time to go out"

"Yeah if you can even look at me again" I whispered.

.

After ringing Ric it took us a matter of minutes to get to the Quarry. I got out of the car and waitied for him to get out as we made are way to the spot I always used to go to as a kid to think.

"So guess I better get started then" I say trying to prepare myself to what i'm about to tell him.

"Well like I said before I was nineteen and I met this older guy he was called or rather is called Elijah, we started dating and everything was great for the first couple of months, he was a great guyy, sure he had his secrets but didn't everyone. At the time I admit I was very naïve, I didn't reliase what a bad guy he actually was. He was a big drug dealer, I let it slip a couple times and just ignored it, I was in love with him. I didn;t care about what he did to the people that owned money to him, I always thought its there own fault for being stupid enough to buy drugs in the first place, and that's when the favours started he used to ask me if I would do him a favour and go do a job for his older brother Klaus, I usual had to just do some dealing for him and that's that, but one time I got curious whilst I was at a party with them, Elijah was a big user, something I found out later on, but I wasn't bothered he wasn't asif he was harming any one. One night whilst I was out doing a 'favour' the girl that I was giving the coke too, was absolutlely petrified she refused to take the drugs saying she never asked for them, I said I was sorry and went back too Elijah telling him that Klaus had sent me to the wrong girl, Elijah just said just go tell him, so that's what I did, he simply told me they were mine to keep them, at first I didn't want them" I breathed it was getting to the hard bit and it took everything I had to keep it together.

"I was curious, so I tried it and I felt good sure but I didn't see what was special about it, but before I knew it i'd asked for another bag of Klaus, Elijah didn't know that I had started using, he just thought that when I was going out it was with Caroline or some friends from college, when the majority of the time it was actually to go see Klaus to get my next high. One day when I went Klaus told me no, he wasn't giving me any more, i'd have to pay. I didn't having any money I did the only thing I could think of. I slept with him. The next day I realized what I had done and I decided I had to get clean, so I split up with Elijah and separated myself away from them. But Klaus wouldn't leave me alone, at first it wasn't so bad after a while he left, but he always came back. I hadn't spoke to Elijah, he was still broken up about the split and he was angry at my sudden change of heart. It was one night when I was walking home from a friends house that I was grabbed and pulled into a car. I was terrified. I didn't know who it was, I had been kidnapped. I wasn't till I regnozied the voices around me that I reliazed it was some on Klaus's guys. I screamed at them to let me go, but they just laughed at me and put tape over my mouth. They took me too Klaus's and Elijah and Klaus were there, I begged Elijah to let me go but he just looked at me. They locked me in a room, a few hours later they came and got me and explained that I had to work for them as they had dirt on me, as I was a ex-user, they said if I didnt then they would be forced to go to the dean at the college I was at and get me dropped of all my courses and they'd hurt my family I agreed, T-they forced me to have sex with them, saying the same as before. They'd say I was a whore as I had slept with both of them, I was so hurt Elijah always said he loved me and he was never anything like his brother cold, he proved me wrong that day as they abused and beat me" Tears were already streaming down my face I felt Damon grip my hand and try to comfort me .

"I was going down a very dark path, it continued on like that for 2 months before I decided I couldn't go on anymore, I had to some how get away from them. So one day when they were having one of there parties where it was full of druggies and them selling there stuff, I set up I hidden camera, I got all the footage I needed to get away from them. I blackmailed them telling them to let me go and live my life, they were shocked at first but that soon turned to anger, reluctantly they let me go I had all the footage of them dealing and them abusing not only me but some other girls. I told them if they came anywhere near me I would release the footage to the police, so they left me alone. I got conselling, Aunt Jenna helped a lot after that time when I finally told her about what had happened she made me go to the police and Klaus and Elijah got locked up, for not as long as I hoped but long enough. Unforntunatley for me they still had people on the outside who watched me, but I reminded them that I didn't go to the police with everything that soon stopped, but couple of months ago Elijah was let out for good behaviour, he found me telling me how much he loved me and how sorry he was. At the time I was dating someone, Elijah found out and the guy ended up in hospital because he was mugged whilst walking home one night. I instantly blamed Elijah and he denied it saying he was at home the whole night and he had an alibi so he couldn't be framed for it, ever since then the last time I saw him he acted as if we were just old friends, but as far as i'm aware Klaus is still locked up"

"Wow"

"Well, now you know" I said sobbing.

"Hey, you know that doesn't change the way I feel about you right" he asked

"Why wouldn't it I was an idiot, I used drugs for gods sake. You should look at me like scum"

"Hey you were manipulated in to it"

"Doesn't change the fact that I was the reason that some poor guy got beaten up and that there's a possibility you might" I scream standing up.

"I don't care about your past, this woman here now is the woman I want and have fallen for"

"B-but I did so many bad things...W-wait you've fallen for me"

"Completely and deeply fallen"

"I-i have too" I whispered. He pulled me into a kiss.

I swayed on my feet, causing him to pull away.

"Come on we better get you home"

"Probably the best idea" I said weakly I could feel myself fading. " I don;t feel so good" I whispered, as I slumped forward into Damon I would have fallen to the ground if he hadn't caught me.

I felt him patting my cheek as everything went back.

"Elena, baby...Elena wake up" Were the last word I heard him shout as my conciousness slipped away.

A/N: hope you liked It will update asap

Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes

Review and tell me what you think. Thanks for all the reviews I feel sooo loved right now.

Love you all. Ashleigh

Disclaimer- I own nothing.