FEAR
Bella
Rated M
(warning)
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Fear can only manifest and grow, if you let it
Watching the yellow bus stop in front of the house, I slowly opened the blinds letting in the sunshine. Isabel came running down the stairs; I had her coat, book bag, and lunch in my hand waiting for her.
"Ready?" she smiled brightly taking my hand as we walked toward the big yellow bus. I bent down and hugged her while landing a kiss to her cheek.
"Love you Baby, be good" she smiled
"Love you too! Bye!" watching her disappear around the corner, I wrapped my arms around myself and looked at my surroundings, and it's been awhile since I actually stood outside by myself without being monitored. The air smelled clean, the wind was blowing slightly as the trees started to talk to me. I felt myself sit down on the porch swing and kicked my legs back and forth, closing my eyes, I found myself falling asleep…
"Close your eyes sweetheart" his deep voice rang through my ear, I did what I was told smiling the whole time. He had a surprise for me, he knew about my distain for surprises but he still assist on doing them every chance he got.
"What are you doing Michael?" I asked he laughed and guided me farther into the cold; I manage to figure out that we were out the car and walking on pavement.
"Remember you said that when we have kids that you want a home first…our own home to raise them and love them like the American dream?" I wasn't following but shrugged my shoulders anyway.
"Yeah I remember" he kissed my ear as my whole body shivered at the contact.
"Well…I found part of our dream" he moved his hands and there just a couple yards away, was the most beautiful house I have ever laid eyes on. It was huge, it was homey….it was ours.
"Michael" I whispered, he wrapped his arms around me and smiled
"Yes…" he smirked
"Is this what I think it is" I asked trying to wrap my head around it.
"Yup sweetheart, I brought it last week" damn! I knew he came from money but…this house was too much.
"Can I go in?" I asked dazed as he laughed and picked me up bridal style.
"Your home awakes you my lady" he walks us in and I couldn't stop the gasp that escape my lips.
"Oh my god! Michael" I ran into the kitchen, making my way out the kitchen and into the diner room, the living room was huge. I turned to Michael who was just standing there with the biggest grin on his face.
"You like?" I walked over to him and grabbed his face with both my hands.
"I love it…and I love you" he leaned down and crashed his lips to mine, hoisting me up as I wrapped my legs around his waist…I pulled back and smirked.
"Why don't we give the house a true Bella and Michael welcome" I bit his ear as I kissed down his neck. He was already running us down the hall and up the stairs to the master bedroom…
Just when I was getting relaxed and actually about to fall asleep, I felt someone kick the swing as it slammed into the porch. Quickly opening my eyes to curse out who ever it was, I felt my throat close in as I desperately tried to calm my heart.
"What are you doing outside?" there was nothing I could say, my chest and throat was closing in on me….making it very difficult to breath…letting alone talk.
"In the house" he said, like it was fire on my ass, I zoomed passed him and into the living room. What the hell was he doing here? Oh my god! He's going to tell Michael. I quickly made some coffee and sat the cup down with shaky hands.
"H…H…How you been Mr. General" I asked, he waved his hand signaling me to sit down with him, I slowly sat down and folded my hands.
"I thought my son had you trained well enough….but I guess not" I gulped
"I'll just have to tell him about that" the tears were already clouding up my vision as I lowered my head, not wanting him to see me cry.
"But on the other hand, I could just let you slide for this once" he said glaring, Michael had nothing on his father. Fredrick known as Fred but I call him Freddie because he reminds me of the scary monster who causes people pain and gets off on it.
"Not that I'm not happy to see you but-
"I came over here because, my wife is cooking a feast for a party tomorrow and she asked me to come over here and politely asked you if you want to help her…you know…do all that bonding crap" I felt a smile hit my face, even though Michael abuse isn't widely known, but his mother always tend to my aid when I need her. She saved me from some horrible abuses.
"I would love to"
"Alright, go get your coat" I froze and turned to him.
"Does Michael know about this" he waved me off, I took that as a yes and hurried up to our room to change and get presentable.
I was finally getting out of the house.
"So where is this party going to be at?" I asked coming back down the stairs, he turned to me after looking at some pictures of Isabel.
"She's getting bigger everyday….the party will be at the house actually" I frowned, Michael didn't tell me that.
"Awe. Okay" he walked out, I locked up, set the alarm and damn near skipped to the parked Range Rover and got in.
"You sure Michael knows about me doing this for his Mother?" I couldn't help but ask, I had this feeling in my stomach.
"Yes now shut up and enjoy the ride….I hear you don't get out much" he laughed as I felt the invisible foot kick me in my stomach, I was amusement to him and his son….always has been….always will be.
*Fear* *Fear* *Fear* *Fear*
Three hours of non-stop cooking, Francis was a great cook and a great person. I never blamed her for her Son's behavior because, he came from abuse, and his father was the same way with his mother as he is to me. Glancing at the clock, I saw that Isabel bus would be home in about an hour or so, I need to cook up a snack for her.
"Frances, Isabel should be on her way home….I'm going to go, it was nice cooking with you" she smiled while cutting up some cucumbers.
"It was good seeing you Bella, we never hang out much anymore" she put the knife down and hugged me, soon as her arms wrapped around me…the tears were falling.
"I know it's hard but you have to be strong" she whispered in my ear, one part of me wants to yell at her, that it's her Son that's hurting me….juicing me out of my strength but another part of me feels pity. She went through the same shit I'm going through with Michael, she knew how I felt….she knew how much a woman can take before she's says "I'm tired".
"I've been strong for too long Francis…I can't be any stronger" I said quietly as she nodded.
"I know but you have Isabel to think about" I nodded and pulled away.
"Always" she smiled and kissed my forehead.
"Everything will work out for you…you have to be smart and patient" she gave me a knowing look.
"I know my Son, he's smart…too smart and he has eyes and ears all over this place, so please Bella be careful. I can help but there's so much I can do" I nodded somewhat happy but still felt beaten.
"Well I just have to outsmart him and catch him off guard" she signed.
"Lord knows I love my son but, do everything and anything you need to Bella to keep you and that baby safe"
Holy shit! Was she really giving me the okay to possible kill her son?
I looked into her eyes and saw hurt, sadness, and failure. I grabbed her hands.
"It's not your fault that he turned out this way, he's following in his father's footsteps" she shook her head.
"And that's my fault! I should've gotten him away from all that violence and abuse" we both held each other for a little while longer until I absolutely had to leave. Saying goodbye one last time, I finally make it back home after taking the bus because Freddie went to sleep and didn't want to drop me back off. I quickly walked up just when the yellow bus came turning the corner, she hops out happy and excited.
"How was your day sweetie?" I asked, she went on to talk my ear off about math and drawing class. I love hearing her talk, the innocent laughter, the smiles just warms my heart.
"And after we drew our favorite animal, we had to stand up to the class and talk about why it was our favorite animal" she took a long breath and smiled, I laughed and kissed her nose.
"Now that you caught your breath….your hungry?" she nodded eagerly as I prepared myself to fix her one of my best grilled cheese sandwich ever.
"Alright, go get clean up and do your homework, I'll call you when it's done" she nodded and zoomed out of the kitchen. Whipping up the grilled cheese and cutting them into four squares, I made my way to her home. We stayed there laughing, doing homework until we both found ourselves falling asleep on her Cinderella bed.
Not long, until I felt someone pushing me, I opened my eyes and saw Michael staring down at me. I quickly jumped out the bed and spoke.
"She…We..I-
"Downstairs" he said, I couldn't do nothing but what he ordered, I looked back and saw him bending down giving Isabel a kiss on the forehead as he whispered in her ear. When I got downstairs, immediately knew what was wrong.
There was no food cooked.
Double shit!
Hearing his footstep on the stairs were like nails into my heart, every pound of his foot hitting the wooden step gave me goose bumps.
"Which one you want to start with first, you disobeying me, or not doing your wifely duties?" he sat down on one of the stool and crossed his muscular arms, I felt like an ass…Freddie set me up.
"Michael your father told me that you knew I was going over there to help your mother cook" I said desperate, he shook his head
"He told me….but that's not what I'm talking about Bella" I looked at him confused until I thought about it.
"Look I was taking Isabel to the bus and I wan-
My sentence was cut short by his large hand coming fast towards my face, the impact was like waves to the shore. I fell at the dizziness my head was swimming through, he grabbed me by my hair and dragged me to one of the guest rooms.
"Undress" I tried to open my mouth but my cheek was flaming hot with pain as I whimpered, pulling my clothes off I suddenly saw him unbuckled his belt and pulling it out of the loops.
"Wait! Michael I'm sorry please!" I yelled falling to my knees grabbing a hold of his pants leg, begging him to not hit me with the belt.
"How many time have I told you about going outside?" I shook my head
"Please Michael do-
"Answer my question" I swallowed
"Three times" he nodded and tighten his hold on the belt.
"And how many time have you broken it?" I started to cry harder and squeezed his leg with all my might
"Four times" I whispered, he pulled me off him and dragged me toward the bed.
"Bend over the bed" I stood there, I didn't like the belt….it was painful….too painful and I knew I wouldn't heal as fast like I did the last time.
"Michael baby ple-
"You should've of thought about that before you broke rule number three" I wasn't prepared for it, as the leather belt whip across my naked back, the sting was like no other as a loud scream ripped from my throat.
SWACK!...
SWACK!...
SWACK!...
SWACK!...
After the tenth whip to my back, I curled into a ball and screamed as he went on and on, I can feel my flesh ripping open as blood spilled out of the raw wounds. It felt like years until he finally stopped, he was out of breath. He sat on the bed as I laid there in a ball bleeding and sobbing.
"Go get clean up and have dinner on the table when I get back" he threw his bloody belt by my face and walked out. I slowly stretched out and arched my back as a loud scream left my lips when my back hit the carpet. It took multiple tries to get to my feet but I did it and manage to clean my self up. Just when I was about to limp out the bathroom I suddenly took a glimpse in the mirror.
"Your so fucking ugly, I see why he beats you everyday…your hideous" I whispered to the girl looking back at me, I saw that he manage to hit me a couple of time in my face with the tip of the belt, the whips were scattered across my face like lines on a notebook paper.
"Stay strong and be smart" after repeating that over and over, I finally made it downstairs and started on dinner.
A/N: Fucked up. Freddie, his snitching ass :/
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