HEY GUYS! Sorry I haven't updated in ages. Hopefully this chapter is satisfying.
Note: I honestly, don't know where I am going with this story. This officially my first fic. I'm pretty much inexperienced so if you have criticism... feel free to tell me what you think.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except for my imagination and creativity or lack of. (:
flashback
The two have been lying in bed for hours. They did that a lot lately. Neither wanted the other to step out of bed and into the real world.
"Do you love me?" mumbled a sleepy Logan.
"Logan, you know I do." whispered Veronica.
"You never tell me. You've only told me once since we've been together." said Logan. Now he was laying on his side facing Veronica so that he could look into her eyes.
"I really don't want to talk about it right now. Let's just enjoy our time together before I figure out what I'm going to do about the job offer." Veronica tried cuddling into his chest hoping to avoid any conversation that would end up in another argument like all the other times.
"I
don't get it, Veronica. I've done all I could to try and satisfy
you. I cleaned up my act. You tell me to jump. I ask you how high.
Why won't you just say it, those three little words." Logan's
frustration was beginning to show. Logan took every opportunity to tell her how much he loved her. He just wished she would try to also every once in a while.
"I just-- it's complicated." replied a very confused Veronica wondering how they got on the subject. How complicated it is? Just say it. It's easy. I. Love. You. See you said it in your head, Veronica. Just say it out loud.
"I get that you say you love me, but it shouldn't be that hard to actually say those words." Logan said flat out hoping to get his point out and in the open. Logan always tried to discuss his feelings with Veronica trusting that it would improve their relationship. All it seemed to do was push them further apart.
"I can't believe we are talking about this. It's stupid." mumbled Veronica.
"No, it's stupid that you won't tell me how you feel." Now Logan was getting up from his earlier position on the bed and now sitting at the edge of the bed.
"It's not easy. I just don't want to regret anything…. Wait that came out wrong!" said Veronica who was now feeling a pang of guilt.
"This is ridiculous. It's either you love me or you don't." yelled Logan. She could tell his heart was breaking by how his voice broke a little with each word he spoke out loud.
"That's
not the point." argued Veronica. "Shouldn't being with you be
enough?"
"I get it… you don't trust me, right? asked Logan.
"Logan…"
pleaded Veronica. She got up to the bed and tried to get closer to him attempting to close the space in between them.
Logan stepped back. "I've
tried, Veronica. I waited for you. I did all I could and I still
wasn't good enough for you. Do you even know how it felt all
through our relationship? I gave you all I could emotionally and
physically. I gave myself to you. You choose to give me bits and
pieces." He was now at the edge of tears.
Veronica just sat in silence speechless as the love of her life left the room. She had no idea how much Logan gave up during their relationship.
One week later.
Knock on the door
Veronica was now at the front door of Logan's apartment. She has no idea how she got there. All she knew was that she had to tell Logan how she felt.
'This is awkward at all' thought Veronica.
"Uh,
hey." answered Logan.
"Hi.
Look, I just came by to tell you that I've came to my decision." said Veronica.
She wasn't making eye contact with him which gave him the hunch that she obviously was going to stay. He knew what they had or at least could have had was too good to be true.
"You're
leaving, huh?" asked Logan who didn't act surprised at all.
"See, this is the reason I'm here."
"You came to tell me to my face just to see my reaction? Thanks for salting the wounds. Well, I hope you have a safe flight." replied Logan who was just about to close the door on her face.
"Do you want me to stay? I mean, if you want I could. We could give us a try again." asked Veronica who wasn't exactly sure what she was doing. She just hoped whatever came out of her mouth was enough to get him to take her back.
"Do you really want to try and end up like how we are again? Veronica, we aren't right for each other. What we have is unhealthy. We want more than what we can get from each other. Not to mention that even if you did stay you would resent me for not letting you take the job and let's not even talk about the whole long distant relationship."
"So what exactly are you trying to say?" asked Veronica.
"We're over."
For
the first time, Veronica was lost. She didn't know what just
happened. Logan was right though. She couldn't give him what he
needed and she wasn't about to open herself up to anyone. She's
been hurt by too many people to just let someone in.
a/n: I know. It's angst and corny. I just felt like spilling my emotions out into writing. I hoped everyone liked it.
