I know this is a really short chapter, but I have overworked chapter 5 which you should read once more. It´s now longer and I changed some things.

Time passes

Seth:

I thought if he needs time to think, to find himself, to get over Bella, I have to accept it. I Thought when he´ll come back everything would be as normal, we would be friends and I will be near him again – something I could life with.

The days were okay, I went to school, made my homework perfectly, ran my patrols around the borderline and spent the rest of my time with the pack or at the Cullen´s – which now also includes Bella.

The nights were horrible. I had too much to think when I lie on my bed, when I was alone with no one around who distract me, to ease my mind.

I wouldn´t sleep because I dreamed about him every single night now and when I awoke from theses dreams still with the feeling of his lips or his gentle touches I missed him even more.

Time passed by; days become weeks and weeks turned into month and Jacob didn´t call again.

His only sign of life was a short letter addressed to his dad in which he told him that he found a job in a little diner and that he´ll come back when he´s ready to.

I lost the hope to see him again soon, I wished nothing more than Jacob back home, but my faith in his homecoming faded.

I stopped visiting my friends; I stopped doing my homework – which was obvious because I skipped school at most days. I never wanted to stop patrolling, I loved to run through the forest faster than I was with my motorcycle, and I loved the strength that I feel in my wolf form but then worst case scenario. One night I found out that me couldn´t phase, I tried again and again but my wolf didn´t come out.

A few days later I got high fever – totally untypical for wolves because our bodytemperatur is naturally on a higher level than on regular people – I wasn´t even strong enough to leave my bed.

Many people were worried about me and someone was with me all the time, I felt dead-sick and as Dr. Cullen said I really was, I wasn´t too shocked by it. I would welcome death if it would take away the pain, the desperation and feeling of being incomplete.

I try to update more frequently again, but real live is really stressful at the moment.