Breaking a promise

Edward:

I couldn´t watch him dying inside any longer – if he won´t talk to someone then I´ll do it for him.

I was grateful that I had the permission to visit Seth whenever I wanted to so I was able to cross the invisible line without breaking the contract with the tribe when I decided to visit Sam. He wasn´t pretty happy to see me standing in front of his house, he still didn´t like that much.

"Sam, could we talk" I asked in a low voice. He raised an eyebrow, nodded and invited me in, he sat down on one of the chairs in the kitchen and looked at me curios "So, what do you want?"

"It´s because of Seth" I said "I think, no, I know what his problem is, what´s the cause of his pain!"

"Me too, I guess" he replied "I think he´s imprinted and his soul mate rejected him, am I right? I think about this since he found out that he can´t shift no more."

I shook my head "Not exactly" I noted "his soul mate doesn´t even know about it, that´s the real problem!"

Sam was astounded "You know who it is?" This wasn´t a question and I wasn´t willing to answer but I had to. I nodded once "Yes, but I can´t tell you, I promised. Nevertheless I´ll find his imprint and bring him back home!" I said there was only one person that left at this time. I was sure Sam will understand and I kept my promise – at least I haven´t told him.

Sam's eyes widened when he realized the truth "Jacob" he whispered "it is Jake!" What a surprise, he had a crush on him before I heard in Sam's thoughts.

I knew he would figure it out instantly I nodded again "Would you help me to find him, Seth needs him so much and I know you want him healthy and happy again, just like I do!"

Sam didn´t need time to overthink the situation he just called Emily to tell her where he´s going and that he´ll be back when we find Jake.

We get into my car and headed to Seattle, we were sure that we will find him and we´ll have to find him soon. Seth fever wouldn´t sink and he got more and more depressed.

Jacob:

I could go home I reminded myself!

Today I lost my job! I´ve only lost the control of my body for a brief moment. How could I know, that the damned cupboard will fall over when I would hold on it? It´s not my fault that nearly all the plates are broken now. That´s just not fair. It used to be solid I thought, but now it´s too late, my former boss sent me away.

I wanted to go home, to be with my family again, to let my wolf free, to be in the woods with my pack, to tell Bella that her decision for Edward was right and what I wanted most – to see Seth again! But that was the impossible, the one point why I have left and why I have to stay away now.

He´s just a kid, he was like a little brother to me but when I think about him now, there´s so much sexual intense in it. I tried not to think that way, but it doesn´t work well – so now I try not to think at him at all.

Bella was no longer a problem, I hope she´ll be fine with Edward – like Seth had said "You´ll find another one" but why had fate decided it must be he?

I hated to be here in this stupid city, I hated not to be in wolf form for such a long time but with all the people around – how could I phase when there´s always someone watching you?

I could go home I thought again but I wouldn´t. I have to stay away. He´s better without me. He´ll find a cute girlfriend, marry her someday and have beautiful, perfect kids. I won´t make him mine, that will be so unfair to him.

Why had he looked in my eyes at that damned vampire wedding? The one moment I was focused on Bella and desperate that I´ve lost her and the next moment she was forgotten – there was only Seth, smiling at me.

I had to leave. I couldn´t look into his eyes again – never. I wanted to feel him, to claim him, to make him mine, I wanted that he´ll love me but he won´t feel the same way and I couldn´t only be his friend – maybe I can, someday.

I wouldn´t hurt his feelings; I wanted him to be happy. I had to leave and now I have to stay away but I´m not sure how much longer I can bear the separation.