A/N: Hey all, here is the latest chapter for ya, hope you enjoy!
Katie sat in the living room of Bobby's house. She couldn't take it any longer. She couldn't take seeing Sam locked in that room begging for them to let it out. It was heart breaking, because it seemed as if everything was falling apart. She sat their fiddling with her hands, her mind trying it's hardest not to go back to that moment. The moment her and Dean witnessed the secret Sam had been so hard to hide. The part of his life he promised Katie that he'd stopped. But she knew, deep down inside she knew , she just didn't want to accept that Sam, the one's who's always had his head on his shoulders, sane one out of their crazy trio. But the worst part was seeing Dean's face. He looked so broken, she knew that this was hurting him. To see his baby brother who he was supposed to protect, fall so far. She wanted to be there for him, but she told him about finding out earlier, and he was to say the least pissed off at her.
She couldn't say she blamed him. She knew the consequences of her actions and yet she did it anyway. But she wanted whole heartily to believe in Sam's words, that he was done, and that it was over. Maybe she was just foolish to think the thirst would be that easy for him to leave. She let her heart win out over her head in this situation and maybe that was a mistake. She should've known that something like this would happen. She should've seen it coming, hell she's seen everything else coming but this. These were the times she hated having these powers because at least without them she wouldn't feel the guilt that she was supposed to do something. That she had the power to do something but didn't. She couldn't help remember the first conversation she had with Dean after what happened.
"Dean, wait" Katie said. "Just let me explain" She moved in front of him and looked him right in the eyes.
"There is no explanation you can give me that I want to hear" Dean snapped. "You kept something from me, this important"
"I know" Katie held up her hands. "I knew how this would hurt you..."
"Don't" Dean snapped. "Don't you dare say you did this for me!"
"No, I did this for Sam" Katie replied. "Because no matter how much he messes up, he still only wants one this, for you to be proud of him"
"I guess that all went to hell" Dean snapped before walking past Katie into Bobby's house.
"Hey" Bobby said startling Katie a bit. "You ok?"
"I'm fine" Katie replied before hearing footsteps. Dean soon appears in the doorway. He glanced over at her then at Bobby before turning and going into the kitchen. "He's gonna hate me forever"
"He doesn't hate you" Bobby replied. "He's just going through something"
"I know, and I want to be there for him, but he just won't let me" Katie said looking up at the man.
"You just got to give him time" Bobby said.
"This is going to get worse before it gets better" Katie sighed.
"Who you telling?" Bobby replied before going into the kitchen to check on Dean.
"He just needed time" Katie thought. Something she wasn't sure she had much of. Not according to the light. Her days were numbered, and soon she was going to have to leave her life behind to fulfill her destiny. Katie laid her head back against the couch and closed her eyes. She tried not to think about that part of the deal too much. Even though it was something major, she thought if she focused on it too much that she'd go into a fit of nonstop crying. She still hadn't thought of how she was going to do it. How she was going to just walk away from her life. It wouldn't be easy, she knew but it had to be done because the alternative was impossible. Her mind went back to the time before Dean died. How the waiting was sometime unbearable. How the only thing she had to hold onto was hope that dwindle every day his time neared.
This time it seemed crueler if that's even possible. Dean was given date, one that he could prepare for. Something he knew was coming. She was just told that it will happen when it happens. She had to spend the rest of her days praying that each one weren't her last with Dean. There was something Dean wasn't given that she doesn't know if she has or not but she like to think she does. Her sort of silver lining. What if she has the chance to come back? It's a thought Katie had, just something to keep her from bawling but it's possible. But right now there were more pressing matters to deal with. They needed to help Sam, and none of them were very knowledgeable in the whole demon blood detoxing thing. She wondered why her new found powers didn't open up any information on the subject, but she found herself drawing a blank. She knew she wouldn't just be given all the answers to everything, but she assumed that maybe she'd be given the answers to the important stuff.
"Stop... Stop!" She heard Sam yell and she quickly lifted her head. It was starting. The withdrawal effects from the demon blood were starting. She couldn't listen to this. She couldn't hear Sam crying out for help and not being able to do anything about. Because in the end he was still her brother in law, no he was her brother and knowing that he was hurting was hurting her. Katie stood and walked into the kitchen. Bobby looked over at her before nodding and leaving to give them some privacy.
"Dean…"
"Don't, just don't" Dean snapped taking another swig of his beer. "I really am not in the mood to hear anything you gotta say"
"How about I'm sorry" Katie replied. "I really am"
"That's just it you're always sorry" Dean snapped slapping the bottle on the table causing Katie to jump a bit. "You, talk on about honesty and not keeping secrets, but you seem to can't help yourself"
"You have to see where I was coming from" Katie said. "He promised me, he promised that he would stop, that he was done, and the only thing he asked was that I didn't tell you, he didn't want to see that look in your eyes, that disappointment"
"Well how did that work out for the both of you?" Dean said. "He's my brother and if something is going on, you tell me, not take upon yourself to deal with it"
"He's my brother too" Katie said. "Don't act as if you're the only one who cares about him"
"No, your behavior has really helped Sam" Dean replied. "I mean just look where he is" Katie's eyes went wide at Dean's words.
"You blame me for this?" she asked and Dean didn't reply just took another swig from his beer. "Well so do I" Katie looked down before shaking her head and Dean looked up at her. "I'm sorry, if you never believe a word that comes out of my mouth please believe that" She turned and walked out of the kitchen and looked over at Bobby. "Call me if there is any change"
"Where the hell you going?" Bobby asked.
"I'm…" Katie shook her head. "I'm going to make this better" With that she turned and disappeared. Bobby stalked into the kitchen.
"What the hell you do to her boy?" Bobby snapped. "Why'd she leave?"
"Leave?" Dean said. "Where'd she go?"
"Hell if I know" Bobby replied.
"Damnit!" Dean yelled standing to his feet. He knew this wasn't her fault. He just needed someone to yell at, someone to blame and she was right there.
Katie shook her head as she looked up at the familiar building. She had to fix this. She walked up the stairs and couldn't help the sense of déjà vu that struck as she walked through the doors of the church. She remembered walking through the doors years earlier and meeting Richie. She walked down the aisle and stopped in the dead center. She was supposed to be here, something brought her here, but she didn't know what?
"Yes you do" A voice said from behind Katie. The witch quickly turned and was shocked at who was looking right at her. "You know why you're here"
"Richie?" Katie said. "How… why…what are you doing here?"
"You need me" Richie replied. "And as always I come running"
"You're dead" Katie said.
"Have you forgotten what line of profession you're in have you?" Richie replied with a smile before walking over to her. "I'm here to help you"
"Help me how?" Katie asked.
"It's time you focus on what's been happening" Richie replied before placing a finger to Katie's forehead. Soon the image of dead animals flashed in her mind and she felt a sharp pain in her gut. She than was standing on a ship, where it seemed all the men where struck blind. There was another sharp pain her gut. Suddenly the room began spinning and Katie was standing in a classroom. She watched as the teacher locks the door, walks over to his desk and pulls out a gun and begins shooting the student. Katie falls to her knees at the sight. Soon she's back in the aisle of the church and Richie kneels in front of her. "You know what they are?"
"Seals" Katie breathes. "Breaking, fast" She looks him in the eyes. "Why does it hurt?"
"Because you're tapping into every man, woman, child and animal is in there" Richie placed a finger above Katie's heart. "And when they're in pain, so are you"
"How do I stop this?" Katie asked.
"Why do you keep asking questions, when you already have the answers?" Richie asked. "You know what it is you have to do" Richie stood to his feet and turned and walked away. He turned once more to Katie. "Hey, I know I may be a little late but I'm sorry about, well about everything, trust me I truly thought I was doing his work"
"I know" Katie replied. "I forgive you" Katie stood to her feet and when she looked back up he was gone. "Ok, so I have the answers" Katie closed her eyes and tried to dig deep within herself for something. Katie felt a breeze and opened her eyes and found herself standing in Bobby's salvage yard. "What is going on?" she thought as she turned to see Dean talking to Castiel.
"Consuming the amount of blood it would take to kill Lilith would change your brother forever. Most likely, he would become the next creature that you would feel compelled to kill." Castiel said and Katie took a couple of steps toward them. "There's no reason this would have to come to pass, Dean. We believe it's you, Dean, not your brother. The only question for us is whether you're willing to accept it. Stand up and accept your role. You are the one who will stop it." Katie turned to look at Dean. Accept his role? Something she'd been against in the past and still was. She couldn't explain it, but with this new found embracing of the light, she should be all for everyone excepting their part in this little dance but she wasn't. There was still something inside of her fighting that.
"If I do this, Sammy doesn't have to?" Dean asked. She didn't want him to do this. She took another step forward, but something was holding her back at the same time.
"If it gives you comfort to see it that way." Castiel replied.
"God, you're a dick these days." Dean says before turning toward Katie. He looked right at her, but didn't at the same time. He didn't acknowledge her presence. He couldn't see her. "Fine, I'm in." Dean says.
"No" Katie whispers shaking her head.
"You give yourself over wholly to the service of God and his angels?" Castiel asked.
"No" Katie says louder, but they can't hear her.
"Yeah, exactly." Dean replies turning to face the angel.
"Say it." Castiel says and this time Katie tries moving but her feet seems stuck to the ground.
"I give myself over wholly to serve God and you guys." Dean repeats.
"No, Don't!" Katie yells. "Castiel don't!" She could've sworn she saw the angel twitch at words but he continued looking at Dean.
"You swear to follow his will and his word as swiftly and obediently as you did your own father's?" Castiel asked.
"Yes, I swear. Now what?" Dean asked.
"Now you wait, and we call on you when it's time." Castiel replied before glancing over at Katie, and for a moment their eyes met before he was gone. Katie found herself standing in the aisle of the church. She ran her fingers through her hair.
"Why am I so lost?" Katie asked before turning to the statue of Christ hanging above the altar. "Why doesn't anything make sense?" Katie could feel some sort of battle inside of herself. She didn't know what was right and what was wrong. She thought embracing the light would make things easier, clearer, but it just made things more complicated.
"Aw honey you really need to take a chill pill" Katie turned to see Pamela looking back at her. She couldn't help noticed the absence of the sunglass, were replaced by the woman's brown eyes. "You're making this harder than it really is"
"What is this, all the people I've seen die has to come and put their two cents in?" Katie asked and Pamela smiled.
"No, we're here to help you" Pamela replied walking over to her friend. "You seem to need a little guidance, and so here I am"
"What are you supposed to help me with huh?" Katie snapped.
"Hey, now" Pamela replied. "You're the one who's calling us"
"What?" Katie asked. "How?"
"Those sparkly powers of yours aren't a joke" Pamela replied. "You can do far more than you know"
"Like bring spirits back, just by thinking it?" Katie asked.
"Not, exactly" Pamela replied. "This was sort of a special situation, you do have your limits"
"What kind of limits?" Katie asked.
"Well this is the afterlife we're talking about" Pamela replied. "There are forces who will be upset with you for messing around with it, but as longs as it has purpose than you have nothing to worry about"
"So is this why you're here?" Katie asked. "To give me a crash course on my new powers?"
"No, I'm here to answer your question?" Pamela replied. "You wanted to know why you were so lost" Pamela said. "Right?" Katie nodded a yes. "You're lost because you're afraid of being found" Katie stared at the woman for a long moment before speaking.
"Wow" Katie said. "How, enlightening, where did you hear that, a fortune cookie?" Katie held up her hand. "No, wait written on the wall of a bathroom stall, that's where all the greats find their material"
"Laugh all you want sugar tush" Pamela replied. "You know I'm right. You don't know which way is up because you're covering your eyes" Pamela walked over to Katie. "Open your eyes, and finally see the truth" Pamela was then gone as soon as she came.
Katie turned and closed her eyes this time when she opened them she was standing in Bobby's panic room. Bobby's empty panic room. She looked around the room and noticed the unclasped handcuffs that hung from the bed.
"How did he even get out!" she heard Dean yell as he entered the room. This time his eyes met hers and she knew he was looking right at her. "Did you let him out?"
"No" Katie said before closing her eyes and taking another deep breath.
"Princess?" Dean said noticing that something wasn't right with her. "What's happening?" Katie opened her eyes and a tear fell.
"I'm not sure" Katie replied. Dean took a step toward her, but then she was gone. He turned to Bobby.
"What the hell is going on here?" He snapped and Bobby just shrugged. Dean turned back to the empty room.
"Katie!" he yelled hoping she'd come back. They stood there for a moment but she never came.
Katie was suddenly standing at a river front just in time to see Anna along with two other angels disappear. She looked over to see Castiel.
"What is going on?" Katie asked walking over to the angel. "Why did you release Sam?"
"Because, it must be" Castiel said before turning to face her. "You know this"
"No, I don't know this" Katie replied. "Why did you let him go, Dean was trying to help him and you may have just messed that up, what are you playing at?" Castiel was silent. "You heard me before didn't you, when you were talking to Dean, you heard me as clear as day, but you ignored me"
"You still don't understand what is going on" Castiel replied. "Time is running out, which means certain things must happen"
"Certain things must happen?" Katie asked. "Wait, letting Sam go, making Dean promise his loyalty, what is happening, who gave you these orders"
"My Father!" Castiel replied. Katie glared at the man and took a step toward him.
"Castiel I have no idea who you think gave you those orders but they definitely weren't from your father" Katie replied.
"Don't assume just because you've been taken in by my father that means you know him" Castiel replied.
"Don't assume that just because you think that I can't hurt you that I won't" Katie snapped. "You don't know what I'm capable of Castiel so if I were you I'd be careful" Katie felt a sharp pain in her gut as she stumbled backwards. "More seals are breaking" she looked up Cas who didn't seem upset. "Why can't I stop them?"
"Because you weren't meant to" Castiel replied. With that he was gone.
"The hell I wasn't" Katie said top herself. In a flash Katie found herself standing in the church again. "Hey!" she yelled. "I know you're there!" She looked around the church. "Why am I here?" Katie kept spinning around. "If I wasn't supposed to change anything!" She stopped and found herself facing the statue again. "Why am I here?" Soon everything shined bright and Katie could barely see as she held up an arm to shield her eyes.
Katie found herself standing in the middle of a diner she looked to see herself sitting in a booth, across from Sam and Dean. She looked over to see Dean's eyes lingering on her for a moment before glancing back down at his menu.
The next thing she knows she's standing in a hospital room as Sam and Dean sit on either side of her.
"After the amnesia" Katie thinks.
"She's gonna wake up Dean" Sam said looking over at him brother, who's eyes never turned from Katie.
"I know" Dean replied. "She's strong, of course she's gonna wake up"
"Dean, about what she said…" Sam said and Dean's eyes looked up at him. "She did, you know, I could see it every time she looked at you" Dean turned back to Katie. "And I could see every time you looked at her"
"I guess no matter how much I tried to hide it, I just couldn't huh?" Dean asked looking over at his brother.
"Not really" Sam replied with a slight smile.
The scene began spinning until she then was standing back in Bobby's salvage yard, it was day light outside and Bobby was working on one of his cars. She remembered this moment.
"You Singer?" Katie asked.
"Depends on who's asking?" Bobby said bringing his head from under the hood of the car. He grabbed a towel and began wiping the oil from his hands. "Who are you?" Katie smiled and held out her hand for him to shake.
"Katherine Carlson, sir" She said with a smile. "Call me Katie, This may sound a little strange, but I hear you're kind of good at this hunting thing, and well me not so much, so how would you feel about showing me the ropes" Bobby looked down at her hands and then back up at her before laughing and shaking his head. He walked past her. "Wait, hear me out first" Katie said before walking after the man.
Suddenly the scene changed and she was staring at a teenage Abby Sciuto with the teenage version of herself on a swing set in New Orleans.
"So, how did you do that?" Abby asked looking over at Katie. "I mean that was totally awesome"
"I'm still not sure how I do these things" Katie replied before looking back up at the raven haired girl. "I can't even really control it"
"But those guys were gonna hurt us, and you just totally kicked butt" Abby said. "I mean you had to have sent them flying a couple of feet, what are you like a witch?"
"I think so" Katie replied. "You probably think I'm a freak" Katie turned away from Abby. Abby jumped off the swing and went over Katie and grabbed her hand. Katie looked up at her friend.
"You say that like it's a bad thing" Abby said with a smile. Katie couldn't help the smile on her face.
Suddenly the scene changed again and Katie was standing in an apartment she'd never seen before. The door opened and in walked Anthony Dinozzo carrying a paper bag of groceries. Katie followed him into the kitchen where he sat the groceries on the table before walking over to the window that sat above the kitchen sink. He brought his face close to the window sill before reaching and grabbing a box of salt and pouring a straight line along it.
Katie smiled before the scene was change and this time Katie was standing on a roof that seemed to overlook Las Vegas. She turned to see Danny McCoy standing looking at the scene below him. He reached into his pocket before pulling out a small flask and Katie could make out the cross that was on it. He shook his head at the small flask of holy water before stuffing it back into his pocket.
Katie found herself being pulled into a seat. She looked around to see that she was sitting in JT's truck. She turned to see JT driving along the road and his gaze shifted to the dancing hula girl that sat on his dash. Katie quirked an eyebrow at the toy. She remembered giving it to him for a birthday, but she didn't remember seeing it the last time she was in his truck. She figured he hid it. She looked back up at him to see him smiling.
"I get it!" Katie yelled and she was back in the church. She didn't realize how many lives she'd touched, how many people's lives she'd changed in the past. "I've changed a lot of things" Katie walked up to the statue and looked up at it. "But, what am I supposed to change now?"
"Oh, sweetheart" Katie turned to see yet another familiar face, that she hadn't seen in a long time. "Why do you keep asking the questions you have the answers to?"
"Pop" Katie said walking over to the old man. "Why are you here?"
"Because apparently that priest fellow didn't get through to you" Grandpa Ned replied. "Maybe I can have a whack at it"
"I'm confused pop, nothing is making any sense" Katie replied.
"You know what the key is to understanding confusion?" Ned asked and Katie shook her head no. "The key is that there is no key, when things don't make sense the only thing you can hold onto is the truth" he walked over to her a placed a strong hand on her shoulder. "And you hold onto that truth, with all your might"
"I don't know what's true and what isn't" Katie replied.
"You wanna know why I think you're the one for this job?" Ned asked and Katie nodded. "I remember when you were just a little girl, and your mother tried her hardest to get assimilate you into the girl she thought you should be and believe and treat others the way she wanted you to, you never did" Ned smiled down at her. "He knows you, and he know your heart, he also knows that you have a mind of your own that he is trusting"
"What are you saying Pop?" Katie asked.
"I'm saying that embracing this light doesn't turn you into some bible thumping Jesus freak, who will do as she's told without question" Ned smiled down at her. "That's just not you. You have the reigns sweetheart, it's up to you with what you do with them" With those words Ned was gone, leaving Katie alone to think over his words.
Katie closed her eyes and the sight of Dean and Sam fighting flashed before her eyes. She soon standing in the room, her eyes immediately went to Dean who was badly beaten on the floor she looked up to see Sam walking toward him as if to get some more shots in. Katie's hand raised and sent Sam to the wall.
"Let me go!" Sam yelled as Katie walked over to him. She could smell the blood on him. The Sam she knew was gone at this moment. "Katie let me go, or…"
"Or what?" Katie replied and she looked up at him. "What are you going to do to me?" Sam was silent. Out the corner of her eye she saw movement. "Ruby, don't move" The demon complied looking between Katie and Sam.
"I can stop her!" Sam yelled. "You can't and neither can Dean, but I can!" Sam struggled to get free from the wall but he couldn't.
"Sam, you can't even beat me" Katie replied. "How do you plan on beating Lilith" Katie saw movement out the corner of her eye again and turned to Ruby. "You will have my attention soon, just wait" Ruby froze staring back at Katie. "Look at you Sam, this isn't you"
"You don't know me!" Sam yelled. "Neither one of you do, that's been the problem this whole time, the two of you looking at me as if I were some kind of freak"
"I've never looked at you as anything other than family Sam" Katie replied. "But I guess you'd never know that without your demon bitch in your ear"
"Katie!" she heard Dean call from behind her. "Let him go" Katie looked over her shoulder at Dean. "Just let him go" Katie turned back to Sam, whose eyes were dark.
"The next time you get juiced and decide to use my husband for a punching bag, you better believe you will be the one lying on the floor" Katie dropped her hand and turned and walked over to Dean. She knelt down to make sure he was ok. Sam straightened out his jacket before glancing over at Katie and Dean before walking toward the door.
"Sam!" Dean called. "You walk out that door, don't ever come back" Katie looked over at Sam who turned and met her gaze. The man turned back around and walked out of the room. Katie looked down to see a stray tear fall from his eyes.
"I'm sorry" Katie said. She grabbed Dean's hand and helped him to his feet.
"Not your fault" Dean replied looking over at her. "None of it was, sometimes things just go to hell"
"Yeah, but for us that seems to happen a lot" Katie replied. "No, but I'm sorry for keeping all of this from you, you were right if we're gonna have honesty, it's gonna have to go both ways "Katie sighed. "Which is why you're not gonna like what I have to tell you"
"Wait" Dean said holding up his hand. "Not, yet." Katie nodded in understanding. Maybe now wasn't the time to tell Dean about the conditions of embracing the light.
"Ok, let's get out of here" Katie replied. Dean brought an arm around her and she wrapped her arm around his back and leaned into his side as they left the room.
The car ride was silent as Katie glanced between the road ahead and her husband. She stared at him for a while. That's when it hit her. What she was supposed to do. She was put in this little story not to go along for the ride but to change the course. Suddenly the sight of Sam and Dean killing Lilith flashed in her mind. She turned back to the road. She knew what she had to do. She reached over and grabbed Dean's hand and he glanced over at her before giving her hand a gentle squeeze. She knew what she had to do.
She had to change the ending.
A/N: Oh what a cliffy! So, the ending you saw on the show, won't be the ending you see in my next chapter. That's right, my dear readers the end of Three Blind Mice is near, with just one last chapter left. And I think I'll finally reveal Katie's role in this whole shebang. Don't fret because there will be another sequel, I'm already brainstorming ideas for the next chapter. Well until next time...