Okay guys I thought the last two chapters sucked but I promise I'm trying to step it up a bit. I'm going to add more Faberry and more Britania. Hope you like it.
Disclaimer: Don't own characters or Glee I'm just borrowing them at the moment. I don't own any of the songs in this either
-Main POV-
Rachel woke up at 4 in the morning with a tart shooting out of Quinn's arms and crying. These nightmares where killing her but she didn't want to say anything to bother the others and make them leave her. She knew that she couldn't handle it if they did and she didn't know what she would do if Quinn left her. Well' she knew what she would do but she didn't want to think about it. It would tempt her too much to even think about it.
Quinn sat up after Rachel popped up. She knew that the girl probably had a bad dream and was going to need her to comfort her. Quinn sat up and pulled Rachel into her lap and stroked her back until the girl calmed down enough to talk to her.
"Rachel, what where you dreaming about?"
"Nothing…."
"Rachel, you need to talk to me? Look Rachel, I know that I haven't been the greatest person the before everything with the baby but I'm trying to help you baby. And if you don't talk about this it's just going to keep bottling up until you explode like you did when you went crazy with Mercedes."
"Quinn, I know that you feel that talking about this is going to help improve the situation that I am currently in but I don't share the same feelings as you do."
Rachel hoped that Quinn would by her lie. Well, it was only a partial lie. Part of Rachel just wanted to talk about everything and let all this anger and resentment go but the other part of her felt that if she said something nobody would care and things would go back to normal and she would have to end up with slushies in her face and bullies 24/7. Not to mention everything else that would happen to her if Brittney ended up having to hate her to protect her popularity.
"Rachel, I know you're lying. Stop trying to push me away and just talk to me."
"I can't Quinn. I don't want this to be some sick joke or a dream because I cannot handle that at the moment."
Rachel hopped out of the bed and started to pace at this point. She felt like she was suffocating. She felt like she couldn't breathe. She started to panic and hyperventilate. She wrapped her arms around her chest and tried to focus on her breathing. She didn't want to think about anything right now. She didn't want to handle all of this anymore. The part of her that wanted to talk about it started to fade away. She didn't want to open up anymore because she didn't want to crush what is left of her already damaged heart.
Rachel slid down the wall and started to rock herself back and forth thinking about all of this was too much for her. It was like the weight of everything that happened to her and how much her life had changed started to crash down on her and it all just hurt so much. She felt like she was falling down a hole hitting every sharp edge of the long hole on the way down.
Quinn walked over to Rachel and pulled her in her lap and started to stoke her hair. She hated seeing the girl like this. She didn't want her to hurt. She didn't know how she could help her. She knew Rachel didn't completely trust her and the fact that Rachel was still expecting all of this to be just another sick joke to break her hurt Quinn more than she would ever admit to Rachel. She didn't know if she could give Rachel the help she needed because Rachel didn't hurt her. She understood what Santana meant now when she said that they were moving too fast. She needed to slow things down and show Rachel that she was serious about their relationship.
"Rachel breathe. Focus on my breathing and follow me. Relax yourself and breathe baby." Quinn said to Rachel over and over again. She knew that tomorrow she was going to have to talk to Santana and Brittney about getting
Rachel the help that she really needed. She knew that Rachel couldn't open up to them so she was going to need someone she trusted to talk to because whatever they were doing now was obviously not working. Quinn lifted up Rachel into her arms and laid her down on the bed. She climbed in and snuggles closer to the girl and held on tight. She started to sing Rachel to sleep.
"I don't wear designer clothes
I don't go to the finest schools
But, I know I ain't no fool baby
I may not be a star
I'm not driving the sickest car
But, I know I can make you happy baby
I don't know what you been used to
Never been with a girl like you
But, I can give you a love that's true to
Your heart, not material things
I'll give you my song
These words to you
Sing you what I feel
My soul is true.
I don't have the world
Can't give it to you girl,
But all that I can do
Is give this song to you
Nah Nah
Nah Nah
Nah Nah
Yeah I know that you are blessed
But there's something you're missing yet
Your own melody... oh baby
I don't know what you been used to
Never been with a girl like you
But, I can give you a love that's true too
Your heart, not material things
I'll give you my song
These words to you
Sing you what I feel
My soul is true
I don't have the world
Can't give it to you girl
But all that I can do
Is give this song to you
I'll give you my heart, my song, my words baby
What I can say, I'll sing it.
Oh, Oooh, Oooooh
I'll give my song an the rest to you baby, baby
Sing you what I feel, my soul is true
I'll give you my song
These words to you
Sing you what I feel
My soul is true
I don't have the world
Can't give it to you girl
But all that I can do Is give this song to you"
Tomorrow was going to be a good day and Quinn knew that they were going to talk tomorrow and if she couldn't open up then drastic times called for drastic messures.