Next chapter, wow i am on a role. It's another shorty but i honestly felt it was the right place to end it. I apologise that it is a bit like a monologue but it needs to be heard. Thanks again to everyone who has added me or reviewed your the reason i am updating so fast.
I woke up, yet again. I had been tossing and turning all night. I had tried to read at one point but the story no longer held any interest for me.
I let out a deep breath and looked over at the alarm clock. 5 am. It was dark outside still but already I could hear the traffic below. I gave up on the idea of sleep and got out of bed. I put my robe on and headed toward the kitchen. Jake was lying on the rug infront of the couch and his head lifted has I entered the room. He gave me a confused head cock before trotting over to me. Clearly he wasn't used to me being up this early in the morning. I gave him a tickle behind the ears before continuing toward the kitchen. I clicked on the coffee machine and sat down on one of the stools at the counter and dropped my head in my hands.
I knew what had me feeling so down. It was the idea of Edward getting married, or to be more precise the knowledge of it. It had been so much simpler not knowing, at least then I could create it all myself, pretend he was miserable or thinking of me but now…
Argh, why? Why did I care? Why was I bothered? It had been 3 years for crying out loud!
NO! It's late I hadn't had much sleep, that was it. I was just so tired my head wasn't working right. I would be fine.
There was no way I loved Edward!
He was getting married, and I would make nice with her and I would let her be part of Jamie's life and that would be that.
I was so completely lost in my thoughts that I was completely oblivious to Jamie, I wasn't aware of his presence until he called me from across the room.
"Hey little man! What are you doing awake at this time?" I asked him as I hurried toward him.
"I couldn't fall back to sleep." He told me, his voice sounded sad and tired and it broke my heart.
"Ok, well, what do you say, we curl up on the couch, and watch a movie? Whatever movie you like." I told him, hopefully then he would fall asleep whilst watching like he used to.
"Yeah, ok. Can we watch Star Wars?"
"Yeah of course we can. Now come on lets get comfy." I said has I picked him up and sat him down on the couch. The DVD was easy enough to find in his bag so it took me no time at all to get it in the TV and playing. I sat down next to him and he curled up into my side. I pulled the blanket off the back of the sofa and we began to watch.
Today was my worry free day with Jamie and I was determined to not let Edward Cullen into my head until it was absolutely necessary.
I think you will be happy to know that that time will be very very soon, however the next chapter will be Bella and Jamie's day together and it will be very cute. It should be up in the next couple of days, so please review and give me ideas of what they can do.
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