That morning i woke up in Edwards arms, which isnt unusual but i didnt feel like i belonged there while i was keeping this secret from him, but i also couldnt bring myself to tell him, i dont want him to leave me because of this, its not like i planned this, its not like i did this on purpose, im not ready to be a mum, there is no way, well atleast i dont thinmk i am ready.
Thats it i HAVE to tell him, Edward has the right to no NOW i am goin to wake him up and i am going to tell him.
"Bella, love whats wrong?" Edward asked. ok scratch the waking up part he is already awake. "Bella tell me what you are thinking about please?" oh god help me i cant back out of this now can i? of course i can but i cant and i wont.
"Edward, we umm need to talk about something important, like the rest of our lives important." Ok i really dont know if i can do this now, he looks so sad and worried, "Oh Edwards its ok we aint breaking up but its still important."
"What is it then, can you please tell me, you have me worried and confussed here." He said impatiently.
"Ok Edward just promise you wont freak out too much please?" i asked knowing either way he would freak.
"I promise Bella now will you please just tell me already?" ok here goes nothing.
"Edward, umm well i found ou that umm well you see umm well i guess im pregnant." i said looking straight at the floor not wanting to see his reaction. He didnt say any thing for a while, i had to make sure he was still there. I Looked up at him and he was white like i have never ever seen him before. I felt soo bad maybe i shouldnt of said any thing to him just yet or at all...
"Edward are you ok?" knowing very well that he is not ok, "Edward please say something?" he looked at me with his eyes wide, like he was still trying to process this imformation.
"Bella i dont know what to say, but umm is it mine?" i felt like i had just been slapped in the face, how can he ask such a thing? he doesnt actually believe that does he, cos if he does once im through with him.
"Edward, HOW THE HELL CAN YOU ASK ME THAT YOU..... JERK?" i was yelling now boy was i piessed, he just looked at me with sad eyes, like he was sorry he had even openned his big mouth, well he said that which he should be....
"Im sorry, i just ... i dont know.. i dont think that im... just... SORRY. I know you would never do something like that to me, im just so shocked thats all... BUT this is GREAT we're having a baby" What no i didnt give him that impression did i, i what!!!!!
"Edward, I um dont know what im doing yet i mean, im not ready for this, we're not ready for this, we're still well sorting through every thing we have been through. How can WE be ready for this?" its the same question ive been asking myself since i found out.... what am i meant to do... OH Great... we have to tell Emmett.. oh worse DAD no even worse MUM and PHIL. great i forgot they would be here soon this is not good not good at all...

Edward and i had fought over the last few weeks, over having the baby or not, usually the guy isnt too keen on the idea and the chick was all for it but in our case it was the other way round which was weird and Edward had made the point of bringing it up as often as he could. I had my reasons, i mean im 17years old and pregnant and still in school, even though i graduate this year i wanted to go to collage and have every thing set up before i brought a life into this world, and of course there was the fact that Edward and I were still trying to get back on track, i trusted him most the time and he hasnt given me a reason not to but i wasnt sure if he would go back to his old ways once the baby was born and not want me any more when things got to hard and then there was Emmett he was what i was scared of most of all he would kill Edward and i didnt want him to i was truly scared of that and i brought these up but Edward would always try and convice me that every thing would be fine, one thing i wasnt worried about was money i know it sounds bad but when you have a dad as rich as mine that wasnt the first thing on my mind i could afford every thing i would want or need and i was happy about that but it still didnt mean i really wanted this to happen just yet i had mey whole life planned out and now it seemed like it was going to waste.

We hadnt told any one yet well because i wasnt sure but eventually i changed my mind while weeks went on, but i really changed my mind when i saw the baby on an ultra sound even though its not quite a baby yet and looks so wierd i couldnt help it but every thing changed i really realised that something was growing inside me and little life and when i told Edward this he was more then happy about my decision he felt like he had won but really he hadnt i just realised that i couldnt kill a life that didnt nothing wrong, and i just had to have the baby.

I am still scared about telling Emmett but not as scared as telling my mum and Phil now that was going to be hard, they were coming down this weekend and we had decided to tell every one then and i was hoping it would go well i didnt want to tell my mum in person but i also couldnt tell her over the phone that was just to childish and if we wanted them to see how serious we were about all this we had to be grown ups and tell every one in person, even Emmett, i was suprised he hadnt figured it out yet but i was thankful he hadnt, and it was kind of easy to hide it since i didnt have morning sickness i mean trying to hide chucking your guts up every day to your over protective brother was going to be hard but i didnt have to thank god.

For the rest of the week Edward and i were trying to go about our lives as normal as possible so no one would think any thing was wrong, though the week went too slow it was only Thursday and we had 2 days left until we told every one which i couldnt be more scared or happy for in my whole life, i just wanted it out of the way. Edward and I were in my, well our room talking about the baby as usual it was nothing different to what we have been doing since i had decided we would have it, well i would have it since i had to do all the hard work, i mean carrying the baby for 9 months and then labor and pushing it out i could already imagine how painful and exhusting it would be but i was sure it would be all worth it once i had my baby in my arms for the first time. I am 13 weeks yes i know it weird but i hadnt realised i was pregnant until 10 weeks but i didnt mind either way i was now just happy about every thing life seemed perfect well it would be until we tell Emmett.

"Edward, i think after this weekend we should start buying baby things like the cot and bassenett, change table, pick a room for the baby to be in and decorate it and all." Edward looked at me suprised i dont think he was expecting me to say something like that but i just really wanted this to be real. Edward leaned over and kissed me as well as placing his hand on my tiny baby bumb, yes i had a baby bumb and the doctor said it was normal for me because im skinny so i had to wear a bit looser clothing up until we told every one.

"Of course Love that would be great, but you still know how i feel about you spending all the money on it and me well you know i can only afford so much." Oh yeah i forgot to tell you Edward had a huge problem with me buying all the baby stuff, i just thought it would be easier that way he could put his money towards collage as i was making him still go even if i did or not.

"Edward i told you already, you are putting your savings towards collage, look think of my money as our money i mean we are going to be a family in a few months and i still want you to go to collage, as i keep saying its important as every thing else, and we arnt going to stop our dreams because we have a baby on the way." I kissed him so he didnt have time to reply to me i wasnt in the mood for a fight but at that moment Emmett stomped into our room glaring at us, i was just hoping that he hadnt heard our conversation i was really praying that he hadnt i dont think i would be able to do this yet.