The fact that they had left without their usual face nuzzle was indication enough to Chris that Darren wasn't okay when they had left each other. This caused the drive from the studios to Chris' place to be extremely tense and full of unexplained feelings for both of the boys.

Chris arrived an hour later and opened his door shakily not expecting Darren to be there.

But there he was, all curly haired and big hazel eyes. He was sat cross legged on the white furry rug by the fireplace which had been switched on his finger wound around a can of Diet Coke and what looked like a bunch of red pink and white roses. The taller boy's heart melted when Darren stood up and met him in the middle of the room with a half smile.

"For you." He smiled proud of himself holding out the gifts. Chris grinned before taking them, setting down the can on the side and smelling the flowers.

"How the hell can you always make an incredibly awkward situation so incredibly not awkward."

Darren just grinned. "Magic. I'm Harry Freaking Potter remember? Oh wait of course you do. Fan girl..."

Chris bopped his head with the flowers playful earning a giggle before sighing and pulling his best friend into a hug. Darren relaxed after a split second and hummed under his breath as the rubbed their cheeks together. He was better now.

"So the talk." Chris emphasised the last two words in classic big action movie voice over tone. Darren let out a loud laugh.

"And here was me trying to make it less scary."

Chris smiled sheepishly before taking his place on the couch.

"C'mon D we need to be serious. Just for this talk." Darren bit his lip looking lost and scared like a child.

"Chris... I don't wanna loose what we have now. Ever. I don't wanna loose you. We're best friends..."

"Exactly D. Best friends. Forever. I'll never let that go I promise." Chris reached his hand out toward the older man and Darren took it doing that crooked little smile that melted Chris everytime. The younger man pulled him onto the couch so they were facing each other their knees bumping and sending shocks down spines and their hands tangled together eyes locked.

"Darren... that scene was..."

"Interesting?" Chris chuckled.

"To say the least. Darren I... I don't know just seeing you like that. Seeing so open and vulnerable and striped back emotionally..." blue eyes found their tangled hands. "It was just pure ans simple you. It was so beautiful and I just..." Chris felt a tear roll down his cheek and he looked away avoiding Darren's eyes. He felt Darren's hands slip out of his and his body tensed, his head whipping round panicking.

"Shit D I'm sorry. I'm sorry if..."

He was cut off by Darren's index finger on his lips. He shivers when the other hand came up his neck to his face and wiped the tear away with his thumb.

"Chris... I felt that too." a breath he didn't even know he was holding was exhaled blowing warm air around the calloused digit. "Chris you lost control. For once in you're life you let everything go. Everything. You just let yourself feel without a thought of who was watching or what they would think. I just... the power of it blew me away. I made me truly realise how important you are me. And the way I think, I truly feel about you."

Chris' breath became heavier as Darren's fingers stroked his neck.

"And-And how do you f-feel about me."

Darren paused his stroking and a air of change hung over them.

"I'm-I'm not sure like exactly. I just know I want to be able to hold you, I want to lie in your arms at night. I know I think about you all the time while I'm away. Wondering, is he okay? Is he having fun without me? Is he doing something undoubtedly McGonagall?"

The laughed breathlessly together this time and Chris pulled Darren absent-mindedly into his chest, where the curly haired boy nuzzled playfully.

"Chris I want to wake up to your crankiness and you're bed head in the morning. I to make you feel special, I wanna welcome you home with candles and a bath . I want to kiss you..."

Chris froze as Darren lifted his head his eyes seeming ever bigger yet darker than usual.

"You want to..."

"You C. I wanna kiss you. Not Kurt, not any other character you've played. I wanna kiss you."

There was a long pause where they moved closer and closer together until there was just a whisper of breath between them. Darren tangled his fingers in the golden brown hair and stared into the widened sapphire blue eyes.

"Kay."

Their lips connected like the final piece of the jigsaw.

I finally found you my missing puzzle piece.

Chris giggled against the warm dry lips and Darren pulled back very slightly.

"Well that's worrying..."he mumbled. Chris smiled and shook his head.

"Not you. Weird parallel in my head."he murmured and pulled Darren down by the back of the head kissing him hard and passionately. The shorter boy whimpered and lay both of them down carefully on the cushions. The kiss grew hotter as Darren nipped at Chris' bottom lip before soothing it with his tongue and pushing said tongue into the hot and willing mouth. They twisted together in their mouths and then Darren did something magical with his mouth and Chris bucked his hips upwards on instinct. Both boys moaned as electricity shot up every nerve ending.

"Fuck." Darren gasped ripping his mouth away from Chris'. Chris smirked from below him.

"So gay then?"

Darren smiled bashfully back. "Bi I think." but there was something in his voice a subtle shake that troubled Chris. He shifted slightly and brought Darren's face back round to face his by the chin. His eyebrows were pulled together and his eyes were downcast.

"D..."

"I'm scared Chris." he whimpered.

Of course he was. Discovering something like that was nothing short of terrifying. Chris pulled his to lie on his chest his fingers carding the soft dark curls.

"I know..."

"You know what they'll say don't you? They'll say I was lying. They'll say I'm hypocrite, that I'm all good about being who you are until it comes to myself. They'll say I'm a coward..."

"Darren." Chris cut in stopping the boy from becoming too anguished. "I know. I know that it will be hard for people to understand. I know we'll need to explain in a calm thought out manner. But first things first. You have to get used to this...you have to wrap your mind around it."

Darren buried his face in Chris' shirt and nodded.

"You promise not to leave me? Promise you'll be there?"

"Always."