Um, I wanted to apologize for ranting last chapter. I'm really really sorry. I was really frustrated... Anyways, I'll keep this short. Read, review, favorite, and enjoy. :)
Several moments of silence followed.
"Can I be honest with you?" I asked carefully in a low voice.
"Sure, why not," he replied.
"I love you. Not as a brother."
"What do you mean? Like a father-son love?"
"…Not quite like that. Like, boyfriend. I love you more than I should." I'd finally confessed it. Was this even the right way to do it?
"B-boyfriend… Like how Svi always calls Fin his 'wife?'" He was shocked. I couldn't tell if he was pleased or not. He simply sounded surprised.
"Ye—…" I paused for a moment. "Kind of. But not quite the same. And when I said 'I love you' earlier, that's what I meant. I don't think of you as a 'wife' but I still love you. As much as Svi loves Fin." Please, please… Let him love me back…
"I love you, too," he says.
My eyes light up.
"…As a brother. Sorry. No more, no less."
I looked down. What do I say now? My mind drew a blank. What happened to all of those rehearsed imaginary conversations? If only…
"I'm sorry."
"Why?" I said with a small smile. I didn't really expect it anyways. At least, that's what I told myself.
"For disappointing you. I actually fell for someone else. And come to think of it, they probably don't like me back."
"W-who?" I stuttered, immediately regretting it. Do I even want to know?
"Definitely someone you know."
"But you don't want to tell me?"
"It's probably for the best."
"Alright. If you say so." I decided to keep it at that. This would get even more complicated if I knew who stole my love… No matter. I looked up at the clock on the wall. It's only half past noon.
It's been a few hours since Denmark attacked me with a kiss. I hadn't seen him since then, nor Ice, for that matter. I was cooped up in my room, my mind filled with thousands of thoughts. That's when I came up with a plan. A sort of evil plan... I hope it works…
"Hey, Denmark!" I called to him from the hallway in front of my room.
"'Sup!" he says, running up the stairs as fast as possible, his hair flopping around wildly. He had his usual smile pasted on his face.
Knowing what happened last time when we tried to have a "private" conversation in a locked room, I decided that having the second floor to ourselves was enough privacy.
"Yes." I said with a low tone.
"'Yes' what?" He asked. Did he really not get it?
"I-I'm willing to… You know, um… G-go out with… You." Why was it so hard? This is only until Ice comes back to me… I think…
"You will?" His face lit up, even more than usual, and the stupid smile now a gigantic grin.
"It's only for temporary. If… Ice ever comes back to me… I'm choosing him over you at an instant. Got it?"
"W-why?"
"You can say that I'm simply 'settling' for you…"
"…" Damn your stupid smile. Make it come back. You're making me nervous.
"…Can I tell you a secret?"
He nods.
I bring my face closer to his ear, and whisper, "I want to make him jealous. I want to make him want me. Think of it this way. You're helping me be happy later. Don't you want to make me happy? You said you'll do anything if it meant we'll be together, right?" I felt awful. I felt like I'm blackmailing him... Because I was… But no matter. He probably won't notice. It won't get through his thick head.
"Yeah! I'll do anything for you!" There's the smile again. He didn't even realize that I never said "always"…
"So… It's official now, I guess?"
"Yup! You're my boyfriend and I'm your boyfriend!"
With that, Denmark happily skipped down the stairs.
"Wait!"
I was too late.
"Hey, you guys!"
No, Denmark, shut up. I ran down the stairs.
"Fine, don't answer me then! Hey, Icey!"
No, don't you dare…
"Guess what!"
Ignore him!
"What?"
Don't say it to him!
"Me and your bro's dating now!"
Dammit!
I made it just in time to have Ice stare at me.
"What the f—"
"Thanks, Denmark." I look down at my little brother on the chair, frozen. This is too much for one day.
"Good news!" No, Puffin, don't even— "Hey, Finny! Svi!" He takes off, flying to the basement where they were.
"Great." I sighed. This day couldn't get any worse…
"What's up, Icey?" Denmark asks the poor boy. Jeez, just leave him alone…
"N-nothing," he replies. That sounded familiar, his irregular breathing and soft, fragile voice…
Is he… crying?
"Hey, what's wrong?" I take the seat next to him.
"I-I'm… F-fine…"
"No, you're not. What's wrong? You can tell your big brother, right?" There I am, in the "big brother" mode than a "comforting boyfriend" mode. At this rate, I won't win his heart.
"M-make Denmark go away." Of course. Why didn't I figure?
"Denmark, go away. You said 'you'll do anything,' right? Go. Now. And not a word! And make sure Svi and Fin don't come here."
Denmark walks away, disappearing at the end of the hallway. A few moments later, Ice speaks up.
"Why?"
"'Why' what?"
"W-why are you and D-Denmark… dating?"
How am I going to say this? He'd probably hate me for being such a bad person. Who, in the right mind, would tell his lover how he's randomly dating someone else just to make them jealous?
"Because he asked me out," I replied after a few minutes. It wasn't a lie. I guess it wasn't completely truthful… I need to break the habit…
"W-when did it happen? You just confessed your love to me not t-too long ago. Did all that really happen in the last few hours?"
I awkwardly look down the hallway to avoid answering, "wondering if Denmark kept Svi and Fin busy" being the reason if Ice asked. Then I see Hanatamago running towards us. She usually stayed by either Fin's or Svi's side, so something must have happened. She jumps up onto Ice's lap and cuddles.
"W-what?" Ice says, his frown slightly turning into a tiny smile. She replies by barking, as if she knew what he had said. "I see, I see," he replies as he uses his sleeve to wipe away the tears. I never knew a fluffy little dog could cheer someone up so quickly. He then laughs as Hanatamago licks his cheek. I couldn't help but smile, seeing the love of my life being happy again.
"You alright now?" I ask, hoping he forgot about his last question.
"Mmm-hmm," he says as he nods. That's good.
Of course, it'd be a while longer before I knew the reason he was crying…
So what'd you think? When I wrote this, I was still half in a frustrated mood... But it'll get better! Haha... It was really hard for me to write "Me and your bro's dating now!"... SO MANY GRAMMATICAL ERRORS. But the thing was, it just didn't "sound right" if he spoke correctly... But that doesn't matter. So school's been really tough for me in the first 4 days of school so far. I forgot my homework for H. English, almost failed my AP World quiz... But that doesn't matter either. What matters is that I have more ideas for the story! Yay! (Usually around chapter 5 or 6 I start running out of ideas and then it sorta gets terminated.) So yeah. If I don't post on time, that'll explain it.
Muchos gracias, mi amigos! (Spanish teacher is also very intimidating... *wishes for a Spain-like teacher like a fangirl*)
And until next time, here's a little quote that I really like because it sorta describes my feelings.
"There are some people who deserve high fives all the time. In the face. With a brick."
