AN: Welcome to the dramatic chapter. I'm sure you'll enjoy it at least a little. The next chapter should be more of them getting to know each other better. They'll talk and discover new things that they never knew…
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Jess stared at Rory. He knew in his heart that this question would come one day, but he didn't think it would be so soon. Was she tired of him already? She was ready to go back to that crazy ass town with her mother that hated him? He slowly got up out of the bed and went to the foot of the bed where he picked up his jeans and began to put them back on.
"Jess? What are you doing?" Rory asked suddenly. She couldn't believe that he would just ignore her question, so what was he doing? Was he leaving? She looked at him with worried eyes.
"We're not discussing your mother in bed." He stated it quietly and seriously. He sounded almost angry for reasons that Rory didn't understand. Jess pulled his shirt on and leaned up against the wall that faced the bed.
"Who said anything about my mother?" Rory questioned testily. She was on the verge on getting angry.
"I know you've been calling her." Jess spoke in the same tone he had before. It was low and rough. He sounded as if he was angry at her, but trying to hide it. Maybe he was.
"Okay, yes I called her a couple times to let her know I was safe. But so what?" Rory asked, trying to get him to release his real problem with the situation.
"So, you're ready to go home. You're ready to leave me behind." Jess tried to keep his voice level, but he felt it quiver on his last word. He didn't want his voice to break but he was afraid it would eventually. It was only a matter of time.
"I never said that!" Rory yelled getting angry. Jess' hand immediately flew to his head in pain from his headache, but Rory ignored it and continued. "I asked if we were ever going back to Stars Hollow! You don't exactly have a plan for us!"
"I didn't make you leave, Rory. You wanted to come, it was your choice. You came and if you want to go back then go!" He felt himself get angry with himself more than her. "Just go, if that's what you want, then go!" He finally felt his voice crack. It made him sound as if he were about to cry, which he hated. But at this point, he wondered if maybe he would shed a tear. Seemed like this would be the time to do it.
"I chose you! God knows why but I did! I wanted to come but I thought that in the end, you had some sort of plan." Rory yelled heatedly. She didn't want to; she just wanted to take it back. She wanted to take back asking that question and start over.
"I am thinking of one. At first, my only plan was to be with you, but now…" Jess had calmed down and spoke softly this time. Rory stopped arguing with him. Partly because she had nothing to say, but partly because he was so sad…so broken.
Jess grabbed his jacket and turned towards the door. "I've got to clear my head…" He shot her the lame excuse but this time it was true. He needed to work things out for himself. He needed to be able to think…
"Jess," She said his name warningly, causing him to freeze, still facing the door. "Will you be back or are you going to bolt again?" The words came out harsher than she meant them too and Jess looked down with hurt eyes that he hid from Rory. He sighed and without looking at her he turned the knob.
"I'll be back…" He spoke softly and sadly as he disappeared behind the door. As soon as the door closed behind him, Rory felt the hot tears run down her face. She put her face in her hands and cried.
Jess walked down near the motel pool. He leaned up against the fencing and pulled a cigarette from his pocket. He stuck it in his mouth with the full intention of smoking it, but then he saw her face. He saw Rory like a perfect picture in his head and he reluctantly pulled the cigarette out of his mouth and returned it unsmoked into his pocket. His mind began to race is the crisp air. Maybe Rory is right. Maybe he should take her back…she belongs in Stars Hollow. But then he's right back where he started…alone and without her. And then what would he do…?
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Jess was frozen where he was even an hour later. His mind was racing with thoughts of Rory. He stared at his shoes, but didn't really see them. So he didn't notice when someone walked up to him.
"Jess?" Rory spoke softly. She made his name sound angelic. Jess was abruptly brought out of his daze. As soon as he looked up at her, he realized that at some point he must have been crying. He wiped his face with his sleeve, making him feel more childish than he thought it would.
"Jess, I'm sorry…" Rory said softly. She realized that he had been crying and that made her feel worse. She had built it up in her head that the entire fight was her fault. The tears she had shed were nothing compared to the ones Jess had shed. She had never seen a single tear roll down Jess Mariano's face, so when he cried, you know he was in a bad place.
"You didn't do anything…" Jess spoke quietly, his voice raw from not speaking for so long. He shook his head as he remembered the last time he had said that to her. It had been the last time he was upset. He had just discovered that he wasn't going to graduate, and at the party he had tried to channel his anger. He ended up hurting Rory and she ran off crying "I don't know what I did…" He had said it then but she hadn't heard it. Tonight he said it again and prayed that she'd believe him. All he had were those four words…
A tear rolled down Rory's face and Jess wiped it away with his thumb. She nodded at Jess's statement. He put his arm out and pulled her into him. She cried quietly into his shoulder and he felt a few lone tears run down his face as well.
"You didn't do anything." He repeated more confidently. His voice had broken and he smiled softly at her. She pulled away to look at him. This time she wiped a tear from his face. Jess laughed lightly and cupped her face in his hands. He pulled her in and kissed her slowly and gently. When the kiss ended, Jess rested his forehead on Rory's.
"I'm sorry Ror. I over-reacted because I thought you wanted to leave me…" Jess spoke carefully and slowly, trying to keep himself from breaking down again. Rory's hands found his and held them tight.
"When I mentioned going home, I meant us, you and me, together." Rory spoke in the same manner. She kissed him delicately to reassure him of how she felt. "I love you…" She said amorously. Jess smiled.
"I love you too. I always will." Jess spoke quietly but lovingly. He raised his right hand up and stroked her cheek soothingly. Rory Gilmore was the only girl he ever chased. She was the only girl he ever wanted. She was the only girl he ever loved. Rory Gilmore was the one and at that moment he knew it…
