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January 1, 1940

Wow…..just wow.

I had the time of my life last night. The people here really know how to throw a party. Of coarse it helps when you're going to said party with someone you are starting to really care for. Phin took me to a dance hall last night as everyone counted time the time to the year. I heard prayers, resolutions, concerns, and everything else that people say right before the clock chimes the beginning of another year.

But I am getting a head of myself. I really want to talk about last night before I start in on all the other. And you know what? It's my diary, so I will. Phin asked me what I wanted to do for the New Year celebration and I told him nothing special. I have no idea how many miracles this man can do in a month, but I was sure he had reached is limit. Oh, foolish girl. When will you stop doubting him? He excused himself for about an hour before returning to collect me. He took me to a dress shop and had me pick out one suitable for dancing. When that was over and I was wearing that very dress, he took me down the road to a VERY high class restaurant. I was certain they had to have reservations a month ahead of time. But a whisper in the hostess ear got us a table in seconds. It was a ….heavenly dinner. The food was the best I have ever tasted.

Just after I finished, I noticed just how late it was. It was only an hour till the New Year. That is when he stood up, took my hand, and led me down a hall I had not noticed before. At the end was a set of doors. As we neared them, I could hear music. He pushed them open to reveal a ball room. We danced for the last hour of nineteen thirty nine. I had no idea he was such a good dancer. After the bell chimed, people shook each others hand. It was a sight to behold. Everyone was friendly and giving best wishes to everyone. Then people started to leave, as did we.

I thought we would return to our hotel after all that. Wrong. He took me out the back way and we found ourselves on the coastline. I had forgotten we where that close to the sea till then. I have no idea how long we walked along the coast and I really don't care. We talked and looked at stars. It was wonderful.

Although, I saw that there might be more reason to us being out there. He denied it, and still showed me every bit of attention I asked for. But every so often, when we where just walking and enjoying things, I would notice him looking around at certain places ahead or ones we had already pasted. What he saw didn't please him, as he would frown just after turning back around. Then he would look at me and smile again. I just know it has something to do with Ferb. He still wasn't back.

So let's back up now to just after my last entry. I noticed that Phin went out less after the day Ferb left. But we started receiving a lot of visitors and mail soon after that. Some would stay for hours on end, sometimes insisting on taking us out for a bite to eat for taking up so much of our time. Others would appear, say four words to Phin and leave. It was strange, but not hard to get used to. Phin said this was part of his business life and that things now required more of his attention since Ferb left. I thought they where both military. But they seem to be running some grand side business, because the amount of clients I have seen over the past few weeks is mind blowing.

He always introduced me as 'The Lady Shapiro'. I feel so dignified. But no one ever questioned my presence after he did that. Some people would talk about shipping routes and others political affairs. I was shocked to learn later that we had seen several Lords of the country. Phin spoke to each one like a dear friend. Offering aid, or advice, or just listening to their problems. At the end of it they would leave and he would open a notepad and scribble something down before there was another knock at the door.

I tried to excuse myself from these visits at first, as I really don't know how to act around these people. But Phin insisted that I was doing just fine and that me being there really helped to put peoples minds at ease. So to test that, I started watching people's facial expressions. And sure enough, people seemed to relax after I was introduced.

I was really surprised by what they talked about after I started listening to the conversations. No, I honestly wasn't listening for the first several days. I would day dream or read a book as Phin conducted his work. But one day I just happen to catch something about military forces and that pulled my entire attention away from the book I had been reading. Phin rarely addressed them and I guess that's what they wanted.. But the man he happened to be talking to seemed to be out of place in plane clothes. He shifted several times, adjusting his shirt or tie far too often for a man who wore them all the time. My guess was that he was a general, which Phin congratulated me for figuring out.

After that I started listening in, most people just wanted advice on technology being developed or what they might do to make something better. But some would ask person questions about sisters, wives, relations, or other things. I could see he preferred not to answer them, but he did his best anyway. Always staying positive. When he noticed that I was listening in more, he would ask me my opinion. You have no IDEA how great it felt to be involved with something again. I have been led around for so long I had almost forgotten how good it felt to be DOING something.

So we have been a team ever since. He would do what he could and felt confident with answering, then defer to me if he was unsure. The past week we have started bring in more and more women. He was a little taken aback when he received the list of appointments for one day last week and saw it booked with nothing but women. Oh, I guess I forgot to mention that some of the mail he gets is schedules for appointments and designs for new things. Most of them he lets me look over, but some he keeps to himself. Oops, I guess I forgot to mention that I also get to read some of the mail now.

I don't want to jinx it, but I think I am finally earning his trust. This is a big deal to me, especially after last night. He has had my trust ever since Ferb and he dragged me out of the church. Wow, that was four months ago. Only four months, seems like forever.

With that being said, I need to say that doesn't mean I love him, or does it? Love seems like such a strange thing to be thinking about, but all the same I can't help thinking I really might be. There is no reason for me not to be in love with him. I mean, look at all he has done for me. But what do I have to offer him? But he always tells me that he is happy just spending time with me. I am really starting to think that's the honest truth. Its weird how all this has came about. But it has.

Like I mentioned before, Ferb has not returned yet. Phin seems to be a little worried, although he does his best not to show it. We have been busy and that keeps us occupied most of the time. It's funny how well we do, even though we are still hoping from town to town. But everywhere we go, we only have to wait a few hours before the knocks start. I guess this is how he has been earning money all this time.

Phin told me today that he plans to stay in Esbjerg for a while, a while being at least a month. We will be going out tomorrow to look for an apartment. I questioned him about us living in the same place. He said he would get me my own if I wanted, which I refused so long as I have my own bedroom. I just feel safer when he is near by. Father would be furious if he heard that we would be living in the same apartment. But I really don't care right now. I hope that doesn't make me sound like a foolish child, but it's the truth.

January 20, 1940

Gosh it's hard to keep up my diary. But we have been so busy.

I have learned the Nazis are a better military force then some thought. They have been very effective in conquering several nations outside my own. More and more people have been captured and being put in the camps I mentioned some time ago. Knowledge of what these camps are has been sketchy at best. Russian forces have not been very effective in pushing back the advancing Nazi army in Poland and the two are at a standstill.

Oh, I think Phin is a spy. Either that or some kind of information broker, because information like this comes to us all the time. He has not denied or confirmed this. He keeps telling me there is only one way he could admit such a thing to me, but he won't tell me what it is.

I wonder if father would be proud that I am doing so well. I am not really on my own, but at the same time I seem to be a partner in a lucrative business. I like to think he would be. At least I'm not sitting around doing nothing.

Phin has started giving me my own money now and has assured me that it's alright to go out a little bit on my own. I'm glad and sad at the same time. Not that I ever thought I was a prisoner, or really confined to a building once we got out of Poland. But I have been scared to go out alone. Phin being there always made me feel safe and secure. I had thought about telling him I didn't want it, but that girlish impulse of freedom came to me. I also got a key to the apartment in case I was out and he was with a client. I never saw him lock the door behind them, but then again, I was never watching him that closely. I was always focused on our clients when they came in. Clever boy.

I have been out several times by myself now. It's a nice town on the coast. It's still very cold out, but just getting out for fun was enough to drive me on. I spent the entire day out and bought some new dresses the other day.. It has been such a wild ride the past few months that my clothes never really came to mind until now. Then I thought about the man I was courting and him seeing me in such rags, it just disgusted me!.

Oh, lord. I just read over what I just wrote. Oh, I can't believe I wrote that. Father would hate that I was thinking of him that way, me being so young. But I guess it's true. What would mother say? What would my brother say? I can't believe I am, but it's really true. I am courting an American solider and I love it.

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