Hi. Um will I'm sorry work I'll try and work harder alright enough talk.

Fears grow

"Kaoru! Hey Kaoru wake up dumb ass." I rolled over mind still lost in the black abyss of sleep.

"Come on Kao-chan we need to go to school." I felt warm gently shook me to try and wake me. I did not want to move, not at all.

"Tired…leave…sleep…now." Hikaru chuckled. "Come on sleepy head."

I sighed and sat up, "Since when did you care about school." I mumbled dragging my body off the silk sheets.

Hikaru chuckled, "Since you said I would die alone without a good job." Hikaru grimaced and sighed. "I don't want to die alone." He said childishly.

Kaoru sighed, "Some times I wonder who the mature one is." I mumble slipping on my uniform. "Besides its early."

I felt his eyes on my back "The host club has a meeting." I tensed peering out of the side of my eyes. "And you're going Kaoru." Hikaru's voice had lost its cheerful tone.

I rubbed my neck where bite marks were still healing. "Why you don't need me you've got Haruhi. I looked down at the floor." I felt warm hands wrap around my waist.

He buried his nose in my hair and I felt the smirk from the night before stretch across his face. "I understand now-"He pulled me flush against his body; "You want her to die don't you. Hmm that can be arranged." My eyes widened I turned around in his arms. He growled but allowed me to turn.

"Hikaru what are you talking about." He smiled a real smile like when he was a little kid.

"Kao-chan do you remember when we were kids and you were picked on." Kaoru frowned and shook his head yes.

Hikaru's smile grew, "I decided as a child that I didn't like that they were being mean to you." That was the first time I shot the gun in my back pocket."

I froze the true realization raining down on me. My brother, my twin brother, my other half, the man I'd loved since from the very beginning, was a murder, a cold blood killer. "Oh kima-" I slipped to the floor and put my head in my hands. "Oh lord we are so screwed. We are so going to hell for the rest of eternity."

"Kaoru get ready we need to go." I stood and fumbled around the room getting ready. I turned.

"Hikaru one question." I said as I tied my shoes.

"Hai?" I looked up and stared Hikaru straight in the eye. "How many men have you killed." There it was the look from the night before right before he. I shuddered.

"23 in total, 14 men, 7 woman, and 2 children." I think I'm going to through up. I leaned against the wall, "I'm not the only one Kaoru."

"Children! You killed children!" Two tears slipped down my cheeks. I forced myself to stop. "Why?"

"It's not a perfect world Kaoru! People die everyday, in this world its kill, or be killed. Since that moment I picked up that gun and started fighting back against the world our lives changed I kill so that I wont die or I find you dead somewhere. If that means a couple innocent people die so I can get stronger or hell because I enjoy having power over them then who am I to judge. Who am I kidding I love it the way they think if they beg I'll give mercy. Or how it feels to know that in that moment you're at the top of the food chain I love it. I do it for you, people hate us Kaoru, how many people at school do you honestly think have some type of weapon on them. A gun, taser, knife, pepper spray everybody knows when the time comes down to it you need to be the one ending out on top. People want to kill us so I'll kill them first. I wont let anyone have you I'll kill them first. The host club, every single member excluding you is trained to kill. The host club has many missing guests how many of them do you think were killed? You cant back out as long as I live your mine no one else's you listen to me and I'll keep my act up you stray and I'll watch you kill my victims. However if you join me then the fun will really begin."

I nodded bleakly. Hikaru smiled "Lets go I'm sure Tamika will be thrilled your back."

"I just hope he doesn't strangle me." I said tiredly Hikaru laughed.

"Lets go."