Penny stared at the ceiling, for the past hour. She had been super excited about being able to be home in her own bed, and now she couldn't get to sleep. It was just to quiet.
At the hospital there was always machines beeping and people wondering in and out of her room at all hours of the night. Here all that was heard was the sound of Sheldon's breathing. Earlier, she could hear the muffled sound of the TV, but it seemed that even Amy was asleep.
Shutting her eyes to try to fall asleep yet again, is when she heard Sheldon's breathing quicken.
"No! Don't!" he said, thrashing around in the bed.
"Same time every night." Penny said to herself, while shaking him a bit. "Sheldon, sweetie. Time to wake up."
"No! Not my fault!" was the only reply that she got.
"Sheldon!" she said, a little louder. This time causing him to shoot up in the bed.
"P-penny, are you alright?" Sheldon asked, still glancing around the room a bit. He didn't look completely awake.
"Yes, sweetie. I'm fine. Are you okay?" You seemed to been having another nightmare again." Penny said, pulling herself into the sitting position.
"Y..yeah. I'm fine. Sorry for wake you up, again." Sheldon said, running a hand through his hair.
"I'm really starting to worry about you, Sheldon. Are you sure you don't want to talk about it?"
"No, Penny! I told you, I'm fine! Will you just drop it." he snapped, before getting out of bed and leaving the room. Penny could hear her front door open.
"Come on, Sheldon." Penny said, attempting to pull herself out of the bed and balancing on one leg.
"Ok Penny. Slow and steady to the couch." Penny said to here self as she hopped on one leg towards the couch. Finally after a few minutes she finally made it to her destination.
"Who would ever think that getting to my couch by myself would be a huge accomplishment." Penny said to herself, glancing down to see that Amy was still sound asleep.
"Her front door was still wide open and she could catch a glimpse of Sheldon pacing back and forth in the hallway.
"Sheldon, can we please talk about his." Penny said, hobbling towards the door.
"Penny, was in the world are you doing out of bed by yourself? What would you do if you had fallen?" Sheldon asked, placing an arm around her waist to steady her a bit.
"I was worried and you just stormed out of the apartment. Will you please just talk about it?" Penny said, causing Sheldon to let go of her.
"Penny, I told you I didn't want to talk it." Sheldon said, storming up the stairs.
"Sheldon! Sheldon, please come back down here!" Penny shouted up the stairs. Not caring it was almost midnight.
"What's going on?" came a sleepy voice from behind her. Penny turned around to see a bed-headed Amy. Apparently all the noise had woken her up.
"Will you please go up there and talk to him? He had another nightmare and when I wanted him to talk about it, he stormed up to the roof."
"Sure thing, bestie. Do you need any help before I head up there?"
"No, I got out here on my own."
Penny waited until Amy turned the corner on the stairs, before heading back inside. Finally about twenty minutes later, Penny flopped down on her bed. All this had made her exhausted.
Amy had found Sheldon on the roof, Penny said he would be.
"Sheldon, you okay?" Amy asked making her way to where he stood on the other side of the room.
"I'm fine, Amy. Will you please leave me alone." Sheldon said, turning around to face her. Amy could see a few tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Sheldon, will you please talk to me? You're making Penny worry about you and you're making me worry about you as well."
"I feel like all of this is somehow all my fault."
"What's your fault?" Amy asked, as Sheldon started to pace again.
"All of this! The accident, Leonard dying, and all the pain everyone is going through. I feel responsible for all of it."
"Sheldon, you had nothing to do with that. It was Leonard's fault that he ran that red light, not you."
"The night of the accident, Leonard told me that he was going to propose. For some reason I got it in my head that if I told Penny…something, that would of changed the outcome. But when Penny got home from work. She asked me if we could talk to me later and I knew I missed my chance. That whole night I kept trying to come up with a solution to make things different."
"Sheldon, you know as well as I do that you're not any form of responsible for what happened."
"I know. But these dreams that I keep having of Leonard yelling at me, is what keeps me up each night. He says that me loving Penny is what killed him." Sheldon said, walking back inside.
"Sheldon, you need to tell her how you feel. It might surprise you on what she says." Amy said, stopping Sheldon on the fifth floor.
"I can't tell her."
"Sheldon, we were together for two years and the whole time I've always felt second best to you. I knew that if you had to choose between Penny and me you would of always picked her. She's my best friend and I don't want to see her get hurt. So if I thought you would hurt her, I wouldn't be encouraging this." With that Amy left Sheldon standing in the hallways of the fifth floor.
When Sheldon finally go back to Penny's apartment, Amy was already asleep on the couch again. He knew that was she said was true, he just didn't think he was ready to tell her yet.
"Crawling back into Penny's bed, glanced over at Penny who was sound asleep.
"I love you, Penny." Sheldon whispered to her and for the fist time in a month, he got a full nights rest.
A/N: Sorry for such a long wait for an update, been super busy! Tell me what ya think of the new chapter! :) Danielle