A/B: I am so Happy to know so many of you like the story. I can't believe the amount of people adding it to their favorites and Alerts! Thank you so much! Sorry this update has been delayed. It's been a crazy week with over time at work and I had the Nickelback concert on thursday and the Shinedown concert on Saturday. I hope you all enjoy the updateI know it is rather short still but I'm kind of stuck with the ending of one dramatic thing and going into another .. or well the calm before another storm..

I'm lost without you

And there's nothing I can do

You're the one I can't go without

But by holding onto you

Then I'll be holding on forever

-Holding onto Heaven Nickelback

The room was silent expect for the small beeping noise that came from the corner of the room. My neck had a kink in it from laying in one position for so long. I couldn't move my right arm it was being held by something wrapped around it. My head was killing me along with my throat. I tried to remember where I was but the only thing that came to mind was finding Lily hiding under her bed. I couldn't even remember getting out of the house.

I tried desperately to move but someones hand touched mine and I froze.

"Bella? Bella? Can you hear me? I'm right here." Alice's voice cut in to my head. "Can you squeeze my hand?" I moved my fingers slightly around her hand. I could hear her sigh of relief. My eyes slowly opened to reviel the hospital room I was lying in. "Hey you. How ya feeling can I get you anything?"

"Where's, Lily." I managed to choke out coughing roughly afterwards.

"Shes here to but fine. You got her out just as the ceiling beam came down and hit you. The fireman got you out not long after. You had a lot of smoke in your lungs a few minor burns and a sprained wrist. Lily is being treated for smoke intake but that's it. You did great." Alice's hand was on my forehead brushing my hair back trying to help me sit up a little to take a drink of water.

"Is she going to be ok?"

"Yes, please take a drink of water, your throat sounds like sand paper." I gave in and let her raise the cup to my mouth.

"How long have I been out?"

"Couple hours. You passed out due to the amount of smoke. You got Lily out by putting her through one of the bedroom windows but didn't get yourself out fast enough."

"I'm glad she is ok. How's Edward doing? Did the guys even get back during the fire?" I asked a little panicked.

"Yea they got back not long after you ran in the house. Edward tried to follow but Jasper and Emmett stopped him. It was getting really bad. The fire trucks got there moments later so that calmed him down a little bit."

"Good I'm glad that they didn't let him get in there. It was my fault anyway."

"What was your fault? The fire?"

"No that Lily was in there. I shouldn't have let him stay in there by herself."

"We don't even know how the fire started yet so it is defiantly not your fault. How could you have known that would happen?" Alice tried to comfort me but I still felt bad that I had let Lily be exposed to the fire. "Seriously, stop. It wasn't your fault." I let out a deep breath.

"How is she really doing?"

"She's going to be fine. She is just scared and isn't talking much. She said she woke up because she was coughing and then got scared when the hallway was full of smoke and she couldn't see. So she closed her door and hid. That's all we have gotten out of her."

"And they have no idea how the fire started?"

"Well, kind of, but nothing is permanent yet. They know that it started in the living room but they know it wasn't an accident."

"How was it not an accident. No one else was there but us. The boys were gone and Lily was sleeping."

"They found tracks at the side of the house and outside of the fence. Someone got in." Neither of us had to say who our guess was because we knew what each other was thinking.

"Where is Rose and Emmett?"

"Still at the house with Jasper, trying to see what could be saved. A lot was destroyed in the fire."

"God, what are we going to do." I wasn't really asking. It was more of a whispered prayer. We had no where to live now. No clothes. The tears welled up in my eyes as Edward entered the room looking like he hadn't slept in days.

When he seen I was sitting up and awake he was by my side in seconds. He gently took me into his arms. "Please don't cry. What's wrong?"

"I'm so sorry." I blurted out.

"Stop. There is nothing to be sorry about."

"But if I would have just woken her up and brought her outside with me-"

"Stop. What happened wasn't your fault. I don't blame you." He kissed my forehead and pulled me back into his chest.

"Where's Lily?"

"She's asleep. Greg just showed up and he is sitting with her. My parents are probably coming too even though I told them there was no need and that we were all ok. And I talked to your parents. I think they are on there way as well only because I said I didn't know all the information on you yet because you weren't awake yet."

"I can't believe you called them." I smiled shaking my head. I knew my parents would be freaking out.

"I didn't call them." Edward said leaning back to look at me. When I looked confused he added on. "Everything that happened is all over the news. When they called the hospital to talk to you they connected them to Lily's room because they knew I would be able to explain things. Well some things."

"Wow." We all sat in silence for awhile until the doctors came in to give me yet another check. Edward went back to check on Lily who must have woken up because he had yet to come back.

"Hey how ya feeling?" Rose said walking in with Emmett and Jasper.

"Better. Hows the hunt for things to save?"

"Not so good. Most of the stuff was lost. But they did find blood on the fence where the tracks led. So that is a good sign. I know they were going to look for finger prints as well."

"Does Edward know all this?"

"The police are with him now. Which he told us to tell you he would be back soon. Lily should be released soon since she is doing well. Did they say anything about you getting to go?" Emmett said.

"No, nothing yet at least."

I ended up staying the night to keep an eye on my oxygen levels. Edward, Lily, Jasper, and Alice stayed with Emmett and Rose. I joined them the next afternoon after being released.

The police told Edward that it would take 72 hours for the DNA testing to come back. Everywhere we went for the next couple days there was camera's following. I saw our face plastered on every news station as the speculation of what happened grew. Edward never publicly blamed Jessica for the fire because in the slight chance we all may have been wrong it would look horrible.

After waiting the excruciating 3 days to pass to learn the results of the DNA tests we were not left in disappointment. Further search of the grounds had led police to find a pair of gloves that had gasoline on them. Finger prints from the fence showed to be Jessica's and the blood was that of a mans.

"Have you received any information on how the fire started yet?" A woman in a horrible pant suit shouted out. I sat next to Edward at the press confrence his lawyer said was necessary.

"Yes, we have evidence that shows who may be at fault but that is all I can say right now." That was how he answered most of the questions. The police informed us not to give out information but even though the many people from the press that had showed up for this thing, that was all they seemed to ask out. You would think they would have gotten the hint by now.

"We see that Bella is here with you today and doing well. How is your daughter doing?"

"Thank you for the concern, and she is doing good."

"Where is she?"

"I'm not releasing that information right now but she is staying with friends of the family." In reality she was in Forks with his parents. They had flown down to see what they could do to help when the press started getting worse. Edward just wanted Lily out of the public eye. Especially when the news came out that it was her mother that started the fire that could have killed her.

"Ms. Swan?" I was startled to hear me being addressed and searched for the voice that rang out.

"Yes?"

"What was going through your head when you realized what was happening? How did you decide to put your own life at risk?"

"It wasn't really how could I do that. It's more how could I not. I love Lily and Edward. Anyone would have done the same thing I did in that situation."

"You say you love Edward?"

"Yes."

"Is it true about your affair?" I was shocked at the question and Edward moved forward to the mic to save me when I stopped him. I was sick of the rumors and the accusations that were being said about the two of us.

"No they certainly are not. Before I took the position to be Lily's nanny I hadn't seen Edward in years. I myself would never go after a happily married man. And I know Edward would never betray someone like that. And if he would then I wouldn't be sitting by him today." A hush fell over the crowd for a few moments and Edward took my hand. He smiled at me and I blushed at my bluntness.

"What about Jessica?"

"What about her?" Edward said probably a little to harshly.

"Where is she in all this? Does she see Lily?"

"You all know well enough the happenings of a year ago. And so no she does not see my daughter. I was awarded sole custody and our divorce is final and I wish to move that chapter of my life to the past."

"Alright that will be it for the questions today." A man from his office stepped forward and announced. I was relieved to know we could go but was rather confused on what the whole point of this was.

"Thank god." Edward said slumping down into the seat of the limo that waited for us.

"What was all that?" I asked finally.

"Its to keep myself in the public eye. Let them know that things are good with my life and the company. So really no point. Its just so the press can be nosy."

"Oh. So why was I there?"

"Because you are a part of my life. Romantically. So it looks good if you stand by me."

"Oh ok." I laid my held on his shoulder as the car finally took off. "So what is next with the whole investigation?"

"I don't know really. I know they are searching for Jessica now." We pulled up to the hotel we had been staying at meeting Alice and Jasper inside.

We had lunch with them at the overly fancy restaurant that was located at the top of the hotel. I was still getting use to this amount of attention as people approached Edward and Jasper asking for pictures. I knew they were famous because of the site but I didn't know that was interrupt a meal famous.

"So our house will be ready next week." Alice said as the final person walked away. "We were thinking you guys should stay with us as well. Jasper has hired more extensive security so it would be safe for Lily too." The place where the house was built wasn't as exclusive as Edwards. They had chosen an already gated community but the houses did at least have some space between them.

"Thank you that would be great but I think I am going to have Lily stay gone for a little bit longer. I really don't want her to have to be in the middle of all this and as soon as they find her mother the press will have a field day."

"So there is no word to where she is yet?"

"No. I talked to her parents yesterday though. They said they hadn't heard from her since before the hearing. I guess she asked them to help her get custody but they refused."

"Well at least they aren't trusting her." Jasper added.

"True. I just wish I knew where she was. I am so worried she is going to find Lily."

"No one knows where she is." I reassured him.

Edwards phone went off and though he would normally not answer it in the middle of a meal he quickly got up leaving all of us at the table very confused.