The What If Factor
Chapter 7: Longing
Rating: PG-13Disclaimer: If I said I owned them, I lied.
Author's Note: This is a short on, but I think you'll like it…
1 year later…
Buffy's POV:
Ever since Angel came back, I had felt empty all over again. I know it sounds selfish, but I almost wanted Angel to pine for me forever, never move on.
And then he married Nina. I liked her, and she was good with the girls. She seemed to genuenly love the girls, and Angel, which made me happy. And I had Ben, whom I loved. But my mind was always drifting back to Angel. Like I said, he was my one and only. And I loved him. But, I couldn't just up and leave Ben. And, I couldn't just abandon Andy. I felt like he was mine, too.
They always say you never forget your first love. I happened to marry mine. I had never forgotten him. After I killed him, after he left, I never forgot him; never stopped loving him.
Then, after Nina had Dylan, it got much much harder. He was happy again. I didn't want to screw that up. And then, my mind would drift. I would imagine what my life would be if he hadn't died; if I hadn't been remarried when he came back.
And then, it happened. Ben was out of town on business, Andy was with his Grandmother, and Willow took the girls to her place for the night to give me some peace and quiet. Of course, I had forgot to tell Angel that. So, when he showed up at the house, I had to tell him that I had forgotten to tell him. I felt bad, so I asked him to stay for dinner. He agreed.
It was nice, we talked. Like we used to. He told me that Nina had taken Dylan to her sister's for the weekend. He stayed until about ten that night, then I walked him out.
A minuet after I shut the door, someone knocked. It was Angel.
"I don't want to leave." I sighed.
"I don't want you to leave, either."
He came back inside.