A/N: So... this chapter took me a little bit and I didn't know how I wanted it to play out at first.. so here we go lol...

Well, I know the feeling
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge
And there ain't no healing
From cutting yourself with the jagged edge
I'm telling you that, it's never that bad
Take it from someone who's been where you're at
Laid out on the floor
And you're not sure you can take this anymore

-Lullaby, Nickelback

"Did you have a good day?" I asked Kaylee as I pulled her blankets up to cover her. She gave me a small smile and shrugged her shoulders.

"I guess."

"Whats wrong?"

"My birthday wishes didn't come true."

"What did you wish for?" I was a little afraid to ask. We hadn't fully talked about what she really wanted. She would always tell me she didn't know if I asked.

"I made two. Is that ok? Or is that why they didn't come true?"

"I'm sure that's not why they didn't, plus its your birthday, having two wishes is totally acceptable." She smiled and sighed.

"I wished that Uncle Eddie could be at my party and I wished for you to be happy." She didn't look at me when she spoke the last part. My chest tightened.

"Sweetie, don't worry about me. And I am happy. I love you." I kissed her forehead.

"But you always look sad." She finally looked at me and I tried to smile. "Mom always said you have to cry so you can feel better."

"Like I said, you don't have to worry. I will be just fine." I gave her a wink and she nodded in acceptance. I told her goodnight and left her room. Rose and Emmett were still downstairs and I couldn't face them right now. I had held everything together in front of everyone this far and I couldn't break down. Kaylee needed me to be strong.

I made my way down the steps and walked straight to the front door.

"Hey, where are you going? Whats wrong?" Rose said standing up.

I barely stopped to look at her. I couldn't speak without the tears spilling over. Didn't really matter anyway. They ran freely down my face as I pushed through the door.

I barely made it half way across the yard towards the overly large garage before the ground was met with my knees. I covered my mouth to hide the sobs.

It felt like my world was falling from under me again. Or maybe for the first time. I held so much in that it was finally coming out. So I let it all go. Everything.

Anger built up in me. Anger at the world, at myself, at anything. I didn't want to be weak but I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't want to admit it. None of this was right. None of this was fair.

Why them. Why all of them.

I stood up and picked up a rock and threw it as hard as possible towards the garage, letting out a scream. I kept throwing. And throwing.

I heard voices coming near me. Someone saying stop but I don't think it was meant to me. It was a voice I didn't know, but then again I did.

My arm was almost numb as the last rock left my fingers and I fell to my knees once again but the ground didn't come as hard as I thought it would.

Strong arms encased me.