Wow, this is interesting. I wanted to speed things along a bit, so I went into a bit more detail to make things longer so I could. It was..as I said, interesting to write. I've never really written anything like this before, so please review!
As I expected, I got a punishment from Father. He had gone to a boarding school, knowing the 'proper' way to punish a boy. Even of my age, I was still stripped down to bare bottom and given the whip. You think he would've even recognized the fact I didn't have a dick, though he didn't. It wasn't unusual.
Afterwards, Father sent me to bed without supper. I didn't mind, though it made me feel a bit empty when I thought about things. I kept a special notebook, hidden away from anyone, in my safe that was located in my nightstand drawer.
The notebook was filled with all sorts of personal thoughts. I suppose you could say it was a diary of some sorts, though I thought of it as a confession journal. All of my deepest thoughts and questions were in there.
My questions about my sexuality, my questions about Edward. Even the questions I had about why I was truly acting as a male. I never let anyone see it. Ever. If I did, I didn't know how badly I would be punished. My Mother would be terrified of my Father, my Father would beat me, probably Mother as well.
Though, I was smart to not let anyone see it, people were still finding out I was female. At least Edward knew. He had always known, since we were cousins, of course. Though, I didn't want him to know.
Edward was the type of person to abuse any sort of power he had. He was respectful enough to get away with it, as well. I felt bad for the woman that he would end up being betrothed to. Especially if they ever knew of what he had been doing to me.
Of course I had to hide my sexuality from even my new butler. As long as I could, anyway. What else would become of me?
I packed up my things to go to the Phantomhive manor. My family was coming along and so I packed their belongings as well. Not that there was much packing to be done. Lord Phantomhive even told us that they would provide things for the children, seeming as we couldn't do so for now.
Cecilia and I dressed the children in their best outfits. A pink frilly dress for Lucy, and a baby blue suit for Leonard. Everyone was ready to go to the Phantomhives, and Cecilia even said that after the children grew a bit older, she would become a maid for their kindness.
I thought that would be the best way to repay the Phantomhives. Of course, we would be at their service, always. Even though our children would grow as servants, they would still have better than they would before.
Besides, they were still blue bloods after all, they would be well. When Cecilia would get a bit older, as well as the children, she promised to take them to meet their grandfather. That way they can have the choice to stay with him or them.
As Cecilia and I arrived to the Phantomhives, we held hands. Each of us had a baby in our arms as we were lead to the room we would be boarding with. Lord Phantomhive explained to me that I would bring breakfast to my Young Master in the mornings, brush his teeth, do his hair, dress him, bathe thim, deliver his scheduale, and keep him in good health.
I was alright with all of the orders I was given, though Leonard was hungry before Lord Phantomhive left.
"I remember those days." he chuckled. I was quite shocked he would be so casual about this.
"Those days?" I asked.
"When my son was an infant. It's quite amusing to think upon those times once again. Don't worry, when they're my son's age, you'll get to sleep at night." He gave another chuckle. Now I was curious.
"How old is the Young Master again, sir?" I asked. I wanted to be sure.
"Fourteen. My son is fourteen. My condolences that you must wait that long until you get some proper rest at night. My wife and I took turns, she would feed him and I would change him." I didn't know then, but it was a lie. He was lying right through his teeth.
"Forgive my intrusion as a servant shouldn't ask such things, but have you and Lady Phantomhive ever thought of having a daughter one day?" I was genuinely curious. After all, I was very happy with a son and a daughter.
"Well, we would, though we can't. After young Ciel was born, we were told Rachel couldn't have anymore children, it was biologically impossible. She was so tiny back then and our genes just didn't match up that well." he told me. I nodded.
"I apologize for asking. It was an intrusion of me and I give my condolences on not being able to have anymore children." I told him. He nodded and left the room as I bowed, Cecilia taking Leonard to feed him.
"You should go do your duties as a butler. I'm sure that the Young Master will need to have a morning bath to settle things down." Cecilia said. Sebastian chuckled, gave his family kisses and left to Ciel's room.
I was sleeping in the morning. Of course, I half expected Tanaka to come awake me, or even my own Mother. Though, no one did. At least not at the scheduled time, anyway. I began to dress myself, getting my undershirt buttoned up and my shorts on before someone came to my room.
I didn't know who it was, so of course I spun around in a shocked manner. It was the man. Sebastian Michaelis, the new butler that would be caring for me. My Father had told me that I wouldn't have to dress myself anymore or do anything.
Though, I didn't want someone to do everything for me. Especially a male. Besides, whenever I looked at him I couldn't help but feel attracted to him.
You're crazy! I thought to myself. He's married!
I watched him quietly.
"What do you want?" I asked him. His eyes were such a beautiful dark red.
"It's time for your morning bath, Young Master." he told me. My eyes widened.
"No!" I shouted without thinking.
"I'm sure you're aware that I know everyone must have a morning bath. That includes you, Young Master." Sebastian said simply. He reached to undress me and I quickly shoved him away.
"Stop!" I shouted. Even though he wasn't giving up, he stopped with a sigh.
"I will get the bath prepared before I undress you, though you will be taking your morning bath." he told me. And with that, he walked away. I was relieved that at least now I would have some sort of time. If I couldn't stop him, I could be prepared.
I wondered what the Young Master was so upset about. He did seem upset. Of course, maybe I wasn't playing with his emotions correctly. Maybe he was used to bathing himself. Of course, I was given explicit orders to bathe him and take care of him in every way.
I made the bath as I figured he would like. Any boy his age would. It was a warm temperature, and I was aware he was prone to diziness, so I opened the window a bit to let some of the hot air out.
When I walked back to the Young Master, I found him sitting on his bed. I wondered what he was thinking about. Maybe if I was lucky, he would tell me one day.
"Young Master, I have prepared your bath. I also scented it for you, and since you get dizzy, I opened the window." I told him. He nodded slightly, though seemed a bit out of it. I figured he was in shock of being taken care of.
He walked with me to the bathroom, though the door was located in his room. We left his bedroom to the bathroom and I began to unbutton the undershirt that he was wearing. I wondered why a boy his age would wear such a shirt.
Usually boys his age didn't wear undershirts since they hadn't completed puberty just yet. And since they hadn't completed puberty just yet, they didn't have to wear undershirts. The undershirts were designed to make them seem a bit more bulkier with muscles.
As I finished unbuttoning the Young Master's shirt, I noticed something. He wasn't chubby, though it seemed as though some fat contained in his breast area. His nipples slightly perked at the cold air, they must have been sensitive. Though, this wasn't like any male boy's chest I had ever seen.
My eyes widened and I was quick to unfasten his shorts and pull them down, along with his underwear. He wasn't a he. Ciel was a she. I wasn't caring for a Young Master, I was caring for a young mistress. Something that was incredibly shocking to me.
Why was she dressed as male? Why was she Ciel? Why were the Phantomhives hiding this secret?
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