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Chapter 11: Don't Forget to Live

Italicized: thoughts

Bold: news

Italicized bold: memories

"Underlined": Sora's spirit talking

The dim light of the lamp was all that lit the lonely house. The only sound was soft breathing from sleeping people. Kairi slept silently on the cream colored sofa while Cloud and Leon sat in the other couch, head against one another, resting as well. Cid stood by the door of Riku's room, staring into the room as he watched the young boy sleeping quietly. He looked away to the others and then sighed as he walked away from the door. It was nearly four months already and Riku still hadn't recovered from the shock. He was so sure that the Roxas boy was the answer to their prayers of saving Riku from his last traumatic shock, but in the end, it only cause the scar in Riku's heart to reopen. He pulled out the chair in the dining room and sat in it, sighing as he ran his fingers through his hair. Riku was no longer independent. He constantly needed someone to be by his side or else he would do something to hurt himself. He wasn't the Riku that knew what he wanted to do, but a puppet controlled by the emotions that has caused him pain. He would wake up everyday with an emotionless face and would not talk. He walked normally, ate normally, and did things normally, but inside, he wasn't the same.

Cid could still remember the day when Sora first introduced Riku to him. He at first did not accept Riku as his lover since he looked like a playboy, but after seeing that Riku loved Sora with all his heart, he came to accept him. When Sora died, he didn't blame Riku for not being there with Sora. He didn't hate the boy as Riku had thought he did. He only came to realize that Riku thought he hated him when Riku accidentally blurted it out when they were in the middle of an argument. Cid could still the remember the face of relief when he assured Riku he didn't hate, but loved him like a son, just as how he loved Sora as a son. He sighed again. I'm getting to old for this…he thought. The sound of footstep surprised him. He looked up and saw Riku walking out from the hallway.

"Riku?" he muttered, staring confusingly as to what the boy was trying to do.

Riku took a couple of steps forward and then fell to his knees with a thud. The sound woke up Kairi, Cloud, and Leon. They stood up and hurried over to where Cid was kneeling down, asking Riku what was wrong.

"Riku? Riku, what's wrong?" asked Cid nervously.

"…Where's Sora?," mumbled Riku incoherently.

"What are you talking about?"

"Where is Sora? I thought you let him stay with me, Cid."

"…What? Riku…what day is it to you?"

"What? June 23rd…"

Cid stared in disbelief.

"What's wrong with him Cid?" asked Kairi worriedly.

"He thinks he's still living with Sora and that Sora is alive. Call the ambulance. We're taking Riku to the hospital…" said Cid as he helped Riku up to his feet.

Cloud hurried to the phone as Leon went to help Cid support Riku. Kairi cried silently as she watched the scene before her. Oh…Riku, why did this have to happen to you? She thought as she closed her eyes to look away.

They walked into the room where Riku rested. His eyes close, sleeping like usual. They watched as he slept and then turned to see the doctor walk in.

"So, did you find anything wrong?" asked Cid.

"It looks like he's suffering through a repressed memory," he said, "It seems all the memories from the day Sora died until now, he's unable to recall it. The memory is stored in a long term memory, but access to it is impaired because of psychological defense mechanisms."

"So, he'll be like this forever?" asked Leon.

"Well, he will still be able to attain new information from everyday life," replied the doctor.

"Is there any way for him to recover?" asked Cloud.

"There is a slight chance that he may be able to recover partial or complete recovery of the memory," said the doctor.

Cloud nodded solemnly. The doctor patted Cloud on the shoulder and then left the room. All was silent as the hours ticked by…

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From a far away town, a loud screech was heard and then the sirens of the police came around from the corner of the building. There were sounds of crying and footsteps rushing to scene. Dark shadows moved away from the crime scene and disappeared into the night.

Roxas sighed as they reached their new home and dropped the bad of money onto the floor. Ever since they got to the new town, all they have ever been doing down was robbing banks and dealing with underground mafia groups. He suddenly wished he hadn't remembered, that way he would still be living in Destiny Island, still going to school and…still with…Riku. He sat down on the sofa and turned on the television "Once again, another bank has been robbed. Police detectives suspect it's the infamous group, Organization XIII, which has struck in many other places. We'll be going to the crime scene to find out more…So why would you expect that even after a long time, we still haven't been able to capture Organization XIII? We don't have enough evident to prove that the Organization is behind this, but we will be doing more search on them…And so they say that two-" Roxas turned off the television and sighed as he leaned his head back. They were all over news and even on the internet. He was becoming tired of it by now. I miss him…but I know I can't go see him…thought Roxas as he closed his eyes. He gritted his teeth in frustration. Just then the door opened and Axel walked in.

"What's up Roxas?" asked Axel in a cheery tone.

Roxas was in no mood to talk to anyone. He only made a grunt in reply. Axel arched a brow and sat down next to him.

"What's up with you? Having a bad day? We did well out there though," said Axel.

"I don't give a damn…" muttered Roxas as he leaned forward.

"Hey, hey…you can't say that. This is all a part of being in the organization. Of course if you want to leave…that would mean that's the end of your life…And I don't want you to get killed because you don't want to be apart of all of this anymore."

"Then what the hell am I suppose to do?! I'm tired of robbing banks, killing innocent people, kidnapping children for ransom, dealing with underground mafias! I'm tired of…tired of…"

Roxas cracked and he began to cry softly. Axel frowned slightly and placed a hand behind Roxas's back. He could feel Roxas's body trembling as he continued to cry quietly.

"Hey, it's not that BAD is it?" asked Axel, trying to cheer Roxas up.

"Not bad?! Ugh, Axel, do you HAVE any idea what you are saying?! We're murderers! We kill people for money and…I don't want this anymore…all I ever wanted was a normal life, but even I wasn't given that as a child, no…I was abandoned because of my weak heart that would mean more money to spend to fix it! Everything in life is about money…but when…when I was with Riku…it wasn't about money. All I ever wanted…was to be normal…but even I wasn't given that chance!" cried out Roxas as he stood up and ran to his room.

He slammed the door with a loud thud, making Axel flinch. He sighed as he ran his fingers through his red hair. He walked toward Roxas's room and stood in front of the door.

"Roxas…hey, come on, let me in. I'm not going to do anything to you," said Axel gently, "I want to be there for you…"

There was a soft click and then the door open. Axel smile slightly and entered the room. He shut the door light a soft thud and locked it. He walked over to the bed where Roxas was lying. He sat on the edge of the bed, his hands resting on Roxas's back.

"I miss him…it hurts to even think about it…but I know. I can't see him anymore, I know that if I do, our organization would be in trouble, I know that he will hate me…for being the murderer of Sora," muttered Roxas, "But even still…I miss him…"

"Roxas…look at me," said Axel as he made Roxas sit up and made Roxas face him, "Didn't you say that these feelings weren't yours? Didn't you say that these were just Sora's feelings left behind? So, why don't you just cut it out? The feelings…block everything…or for an easier resolution…fall in love…with me."

Roxas's eyes widened at Axel's words. He pulled back away from Axel's touch, afraid to look him in the eyes. Axel pulled Roxas close to him and hugged him. He leaned down and pushed Roxas onto the bed so that they were both lying. He gave a soft kiss on Roxas's cheek and then traveled down to Roxas's neck, giving him more soft kisses. Roxas whimpered slightly. No…it feels wrong…his lips are cold. They're not warm like Riku's…he thought and then pushed Axel away.

"No…I can't do it," muttered Roxas.

Axel sighed and then got up. He walked over to the door and unlocked it. He opened it quietly and then turned around slightly.

"Then…think about it," said Axel before he left roxas's room.

Roxas sighed and rolled over onto his stomach. I don't know what to do anymore…He closed his and silently fell into a deep slumber.

"Riku! Look, I made a cake for your birthday!" said Sora.

"Ehh…then I'm going to prepare some medicine for stomachaches," replied Riku.

"Huh? What for?"

"Because I have to be prepare myself to eat YOUR food."

"Riku! Meanie!"

"Ahaha, I'm kidding, ah! Wait!"

Sora threw a pillow at him. Riku caught it and then grabbed Sora, pinning him to the wall.

"Okay, okay, I was just kidding, thanks for making the cake…but where's my present?" asked Riku in a seductive voice.

Sora giggled and gave him a kiss, "Right…here."

Riku smirked and leaned in to kiss him passionately. He slipped his hand underneath Sora's shirt, earning a small moan from him. He chuckled and then pulled back.

"How about I skip the cake and open my gift first?" asked Riku in a low voice.

Sora giggled and agreed, letting Riku lead him to his bedroom.

Roxas merely looked away as the scene before him changed when Sora and Riku entered the room together. He had enough of watching them together every night. Sora's memories were starting to annoy him as they replayed over and over his mind night after night as though it was there to haunt him of his sin. He turned his whole body to face the wall as Riku and Sora began kissing once again. He covered his ears with his hands and cried silently. He was tired of this, watching them be in love and his heart was breaking...but why? This heart belonged to Sora, it should be breaking, since it was him and Riku together, but still, it hurt to watch and hear. Just then, everything became silent. Roxas dropped his hands to his sides and turned around. There was nothing but pure white. He look around, but no one was around, not Riku, not Sora.

"You know, if you don't want to see, you can make yourself stop, after all, I'm not making you see it as much as you're making yourself see it," said a familiar voice.

Roxas turned around and his heart nearly stopped for a brief second. He stared at the small figure before him, the brown spiky hair and sapphire eyes.

"So-Sora?" muttered out Roxas.

"Bingo! Nice to meet you, boy-who-has-my-heart-but-doesn't-want-to-accept-his-feelings-for-Riku-as-his-own-and-is-in-denial! That would be, Roxas," said Sora in a cheery tone.

"What?"

"Oh, don't act like an idiot! So what if you were given my heart! It doesn't mean that I'm going to give you MY feelings I have cherished with Riku. Sure, you have my memories, but when you saw them, didn't you ever...I don't know, feel jealous? Envy me that I got to be with Riku? Felt sad because he was in love with me? Want to make him fall for you?"

"Um...yeah..."

"Then isn't that enough to answer your question."

"I don't understand..."

"Do I have to explain everything? Roxas...what you feel for Riku is your own. That is your OWN heart, not mine."

"But, this heart was-"

Sora shook his head and then sighed. He walked over to Roxas and grabbed him by the arm and then gave him a very gentle smile.

"Roxas...I am no longer a part of this world and I know that those feelings truly belong to you because I am here and I still love him...so how can it be that my feelings are in two different places at once? Everything that you felt from what you saw, you felt from your heart that YOU have created,"said Sora tenderly, "But you have realize yourself that those feelings are your own and no one else's, so don't let them take it away, those precious feelings that belongs ONLY to you."

Roxas lowered his gaze and clenched his hands into fists. He looked back into Sora's gentle gaze.

"But what if I can't? What if I just become a living puppet?" asked Roxas desperately searching for an answer in Sora's eyes.

Sora embraced Roxas softly, a warmth that comforted Roxas's confusing heart.

"Then don't forget to live..." whispered Sora as he began to fade away.

"Sora!" yelled out Roxas as Sora was beginning to disappear more quickly.

"What does your heart tell you to do?" asked Sora as he pointed to Roxas's heart, smiling softly, "If you listen, you will find your answer...Roxas, I give Riku to you, so please take care of him..."

With his last words fading away, Sora disappeared and Roxas was left alone. He groaned quietly and opened his eyes to the brightness of his room. He stared at the white ceiling with a blank expression. That was just a dream, right? He thought. He placed his hand over his heart and felt it beating and then a small smile spread across his face. My own heart I created...He sat up, feeling a lot better. He got up from his bed and opened the curtains of his room, letting in the sunlight. There was a knock at his door and he called out for them to come in. He turned around and saw Axel with a plate of food. He stared at it and then arched a brow.

"Breakfast," said Axel as he placed it on the desk.

"Thanks," muttered Roxas.

He walked over to where Axel was standing and smiled.

"What? You're smiling, did something good happen?" asked Axel.

"I'm sorry Axel, but I know now, I can't return your feelings, because what I feel for Riku...is definitely my own...do you hate me?" asked Roxas.

"...Oh...I can't ever hate Roxas...because you were...how do I say...my first friend, even if you don't return my feelings, I would probably do anything for you, as long as it's not about leaving the organization."

"Hmm...then can I ask for a favor now?"

"Sure."

"I want to go see Riku."

"...I just said that I-"

"I'm not going to run away from the organization, I'll come back. I just...want to explain everything to Riku."

"...Mmm..."

"Please?"

Roxas gave a puppy eyed look to Axel, making Axel succumb to his will.

"Ahhh," moaned out Axel and he ran his fingers through his hair, "Fine! Making a face like that...that's so unfair."

Roxas laughed and took a bite of the omelet. He looked over to Axel as he scooped up another spoonful and then fed it to him. Axel blinked a couple of times before eating it.

"My thanks to you for helping," said Roxas happily, "I shall feed you."

"I'll take the offer! I don't want to miss the chance I'll never get anymore," replied Axel as he ate another bite.

Roxas smiled and continued to feed Axel. I'm going to see Riku finally...I wonder what he'll say...Well, as long as I get to see him, I don't care what he has to say...