Hmm, Ok, it's late but I feel like writing, so if there are typos, sorry! Anyways, here's the update! Hopefully, it doesn't sound too rushed.

Chapter 12: To See Again

Italicized: thoughts

There were mutterings from the hallway, but they were incoherent to his ears. Her didn't know why he was in the hospital in the first place. Cid wouldn't let him see Sora, saying that it was a bad idea, but he didn't understand why it was a bad idea. Did something happen to Sora? Did he get hurt? All these questions were running through his head and it only made him want to see Sora more. There was a click at the door. Riku turned his attention towards the door and saw a girl with blond hair come in.

"I see you're here again," she said with a gentle smile.

Riku blinked twice, puzzled by what she meant. He titled his head to the side slightly and gave a confused smile.

"I"m sorry...do I know you?" he asked.

"Hm? Oh that's right...you don't remember me. Never mind what I said, how are you feeling?" she asked.

"I'm fine. No pain or anything, so I don't know why I'm here."

The girl gave a gentle laugh and then she pointed to her heart.

"Sometimes being in the hospital doesn't always mean it's physical pain. It can be an emotional pain as well," she said.

"Emotional?" asked Riku, "But I don't feel depress or anything."

"That's what you say, but right now, you're not yourself."

"...I don't understand..."

"You'll come around to realize it yourself. By the way, I'll introduce myself again, I'm Namine."

"Oh, nice to meet you Namine. I'm Riku...you know, you look a lot like a girl I know."

"Kairi?"

"Huh? Yeah...how do you know?"

"Let's just say...I've heard it somewhere before. Now, here's your lunch. Don't push yourself too hard. You should rest after you eat."

Riku nodded and thanked her. He watched her leave and looked down at his food. He didn't really like hospital food. He set the tray aside and looked out the window. Sora...where are you? I want to see you...he thought as he stared wishfully out the window.

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Roxas slipped on his shoes. He was wearing casual clothes, since he wanted Riku to see him as he was, not as an Organization XIII member.

"Axel! Are you ready yet?!" he called out.

There were some footsteps running down the stairs and then Axel appeared, his hair still a mess. He hurried into the kitchen to grab a piece of toast and then hurried back to where Roxas was.

"This is why I told you to sleep early," said Roxas.

Axel glared at him as he stuffed the toast into his mouth.

"Yeah, yeah, sorry," muttered Axel, "Now, let's go. I told Saix we were just going to hang out at the beach, since we're not doing much today."

"Okay...oh, and thanks again Axel," said Roxas as he smiled.

"Don't smile at me. It's hard to resist."

Roxas chuckled and they left the mansion, heading back to Destiny Island. Inside the car, Roxas stared out of the window, watching the buildings pass by. He felt anxious and he was a bit afraid to meet Riku. He was going to tell Riku everything, the truth, even if it meant that Riku was going to hate him, he didn't want to hide it from any longer, Riku deserved to know the truth. The drive felt short, and before he knew it, they had arrived at his home.

"Go on, I'll wait for you here," said Axel.

Roxas nodded and got out of the car. He walked on the path that led to Riku's front door. He was already nervous. He could feel his heart beating fast...yeah, his heart. He smiled at that thought and took a deep breath as he reached Riku's door. He waited for a bit before ringing the doorbell. There was no answer. Roxas frowned slightly and rung it again. This time there was a voice, a female voice, one that was very familiar. The door swung open and Kairi stood before Roxas. He stared at Kairi, wondering what she was doing there, but before he could ask, Kairi slapped him across the face. Roxas took a few steps back, his hand touching the cheek where he was slapped. He stared wide eyes at her.

"You...you jerk! Don't you dare come near Riku again! It's because of you why he's like he is now! Why did you have to come into his life?! He was doing perfectly fine, recovering from Sora's death and now look at him! He doesn't even remember a thing!" yelled Kairi as tears streamed down her sapphire eyes.

"Wha-what?" muttered Roxas, "He doesn't remember? I don't understand..."

"Tch, why should I explain it to you?! You don't deserve to know!"

Kairi was about to close the door on him, but Roxas jumped up and rushed to the door. He stopped her from closing it and got himself inside.

"Get out! You don't belong here!" screamed Kairi.

"Not until you tell me what happen to Riku!" yelled Roxas back, "You can hate me for all you want, but I want to know what happen to Riku!"

"Oh, looking at you now, it doesn't seem like you're a timid boy. Maybe you were playing with Riku's heart in the beginning! I never trusted you and I should have gone with that instinct the moment I saw you!"

"You're right...you shouldn't have trusted me...but I never played with Riku's heart!"

"Hah! You're telling this to me?! Please...none of us will ever believe you."

"Us?"

"That's right. Cid, Cloud, Leon and me! Now get out!"

"No. Tell me where Riku is."

"I'm not telling you."

Roxas scowled and grabbed Kairi by the arms. He was stronger than her. He push her down onto the floor and glared at her. He held onto her tiny wrists in one hand and stared into her eyes.

"Tell. Me. Where. Riku. Is," he stated firmly.

He wasn't a shy boy, he was a member of the Organization XII. He was a killer and he could easily kill Kairi, but he wasn't going to. She was Riku's friend...Sora's friend. Kairi looked up at Roxas with fear in her eyes. She never knew how much strength Roxas had until now. Even still, she kept her lips shut and turned her eyes away.

"Please...tell me where he is," asked Roxas again, desperately this time.

Kairi caught the desperation in his voice and looked back up at him.

"Let go of me first," she said.

Roxas did and they both stood back up. Kairi pushed away the wrinkles in her dress and stared at Roxas. The look in his eyes, she knew, he was being serious. She sighed and shook her head.

"Even if I told you...even if you went to visit him...he wouldn't remember you..." said Kairi softly and sadly.

"What?" asked Roxas, "Won't remember me?"

"When you left him, Riku had a mental break down. Before long, he forgot...he woke up one day...and thought he still lived with Sora. He thought Sora was still alive. It's sad to see him like this. Not knowing about the death. Living in a past that he longs for..."

Roxas was in shock. He couldn't believe it. Riku didn't remember Sora's death, he thought Sora was still alive.

"Then you mean...he won't remember...he won't remember me?" asked Roxas, his voice trembling.

Kairi shook her head and whispered solemnly, "The doctor says he's suffering through a repressed memory. Everything from the day Sora died until now...he doesn't remember. That means...Roxas, you're not apart of his memory anymore..."

Roxas swallowed and he could feel a lump forming at his throat. He won't remember me...It can't be true...he thought as a tear fell from his eye. He looked back to Kairi who watched him silently.

"Where is he?" asked Roxas.

"At the hospital. Room 203," replied Kairi, "Who knows...maybe you might be the one to bring back his memory."

Roxas left the house in a rush and got back inside the care. Axel stared him as he entered the car.

"What's wrong? You're crying? Did he say he hate you?!" asked Axel.

Roxas shook his head vigorously and said, "No...no...he's not there. He's at the hospital. Take me there Axel."

"Yes sir."

Axel stepped on the pedal and they were off. They arrived at the hospital in a few minutes. Roxas got out of the car and ran inside. He was running through the hall, but was stopped by a nurse, scolding him for running. He had to speed walk instead. 203...203...203, he thought as he looked at the numbers. He finally came across the room and was about to enter but a nurse stopped him.

"I'm sorry, but you're not allow to enter unless you state your relationship with him," said the nurse.

"I'm...I'm...I'm his friend," said Roxas.

"Do you have proof?"

"Look, I have to see him."

"I'm sorry, but-"

"Oh!" yelled out a voice from across the hall.

Namine walked over to them and smiled at the nurse. She gave the nurse a pat on the back.

"It's okay. He can see him," she said.

The nurse nodded and left. Roxas stared at Namine and frowned.

"Why? Why did you help me? You're working with Ansem aren't you?" he asked.

"Ansem told me that you would probably visit Riku if you found out about his condition. Believe me, me and Ansem are on your side. We're not your enemy," she replied, "Now go on inside. You may be able to help him."

Roxas gave a small nod. He took another deep breath and entered. He walked inside the white room and found Riku awake. He was sitting up, staring out the window. It was a beautiful day today and the birds were chirping. Riku heard his footsteps and turned around. His eyes widened.

"Sora? No...you're not Sora," he said with disappointment.

That hurt Roxas, to hear the disappointment in Riku's voice that he wasn't Sora.

"No, I'm not Sora...sorry to disappoint you," said Roxas.

"Who are you?" ask Riku, "I don't...know you..."

Roxas gave a sad smile as he walked towards Riku. His smile disappeared and sorrow was plastered on his face. Riku looked at him with a blank expression.

"Why the long face?" asked Riku happily.

Roxas couldn't help but laugh at that but it wasn't a long laugh. He sat down in a chair next to the bed and looked at Riku.

"You really don't remember me?" asked Roxas.

"Sorry, nope...am I suppose to?" asked Riku.

"Heh...no...I'm Roxas."

"Roxas? Hmmm, sounds familiar...but I can't seem to recall. I'm-"

"Riku."

"Uh, yeah...funny. I don't know you, but you know me. Are you my stalker?"

Riku was joking around and that made Roxas laugh again. Roxas leaned towards Riku, surprising him.

"Umm...no way. Are you really my stalker? I already have someone I love, you know..." mumbled Riku as he inched away form Roxas.

"I know...Sora, right? But Riku...please remember me," begged Roxas as he leaned in closer.

He placed a kiss on Riku's warm lips. It brought back the memory of when they were at the beach. Roxas pulled back, his hands placed on Riku's cheeks. He stared at Riku, hoping he would remember. Riku stared blankly back at him and then he gave a puzzled smile.

"If you're trying to get me to remember something...sorry, I still don't know you..." said Riku apologetically.

Roxas dropped his hands and smiled.

"Oh...then, I guess I'll leave then. Sorry to disturb you," said Roxas, his voice shaking as he tried to suppress a cry.

Roxas turned around and ran out of the room. Riku tried to stop him, but Roxas was already gone. Riku touched his lips and blushed.

"What the? Why am I blushing? I love Sora...I shouldn't tell him I kissed another guy...well, actually, that another guy kissed me," muttered Riku.

Roxas kept running until he was outside of the hospital. Tears streamed down his face as he walked towards the car. People stared at him as cried. He got back inside the care where Axel became worried.

"What's wrong Roxas? What happened?" asked Axel.

Roxas let it all out. He cried, covering his face with his hands as he sobbed loudly, his body shaking slightly as he cried. Axel tried to calm him down, but it wasn't working.

"He...he...he doesn't...remember...me!" cried out Roxas as he leaned in to hug Axel, "He's...suffering...through...a repressed...memory! He doesn't...remember me!"

Roxas continued to cry as Axel wrapped his arms around him. Axel decided he was best to let Roxas cry and ask about the problem later. He was silent as Roxas sobbed in his arms...