Disclaimer: I own nothing. I wish I did (if I did there would be more than 3 seasons) But I don't. :( Also, I have decided to change Veronica's thoughts in to Italicized text, so it will be easier to tell when she's thinking and when she's talking.

VERONICA'S POV

5 o'clock... Come on Veronica you can do this!

Just roll over and get out of the bed.

That's all you have to do.

I sighed and got up.

Atta girl. I told myself

Time to get ready for school.

I hopped in the shower and scrubbed myself.

It's been 3 days and I still feel dirty.

Of course, I knew I would.

Because of being previously raped.

I just didn't remember the dirty feeling being quite this bad.

Maybe it was better not knowing who raped me back then rather than knowing who did rape me now.

I wish I didn't know...

GOD! People suck! People suck bad... I hate my life.

Later at school

"Ronnie!" Logan said as he grabbed my shoulder and pulled me backwards.

"Ahh! please! don't! No no no" I said as a ran into the girl's bathroom.

I wonder if it's safe to go out now.

I really should tell Logan sorry for over reacting or he might figure something out...

Wait, Me? apologize to Logan? Oh my God I must be going crazy!

Ok time to go to math class.

Logan gave me a really weird look when I walked in but I chose to act like I hadn't seen it.

"Miss Mars, So nice of you to chose to finally join us."

"Sorry Mr. Chowsky, it won't happen again"

"I doubt it. Class, open your books to page 312 and let's continue."

Well, thank God that's over.

By that, I mean school.

"Ronnica, wait up!"

Ronnica.. no one has called me that since Lilly died.

" Ronnie! I'm serious I need to talk to you!"

"I don't want to hear what you have to say Logan so shove off and leave me alone!"

"You don't have to act like that!" Logan yelled "We used to be friends you know..."

"That was a long time ago" I said as I turned my back on him and walked away.

Logan's POV

Veronica was in school again today!

But she was acting really weird...

I tried to talk to her before class and she screamed and ran into the girls bathroom.

But that's not what get's me...

The look in her eyes. It was pure terror.

Like I was going to... Oh my God... She thought I was going to hurt her!

I have to call her!

She's not going to answer her cell so I'll call Mars Investigations

"Mars Investigations. Marcy speaking. How may I help you?"

Marcy... huh. Must be a new secritary

"Hello Marcy, Is Veronica Mars there?"

"I'm afraid not. May I ask who is calling?"

"A friend. Well then, may I speak to Keith Mars please?"

"I'm afraid Mr. Mars is... dead."

"Dead..."

"Yes, He died a few months ago. You said you were a friend? I'm sorry for your loss."

"Dead..." I repeated as I put down the phone.

So that's why Veronica wasn't in school for a few weeks.

That still doesn't explain her behavior!

I'm going to get to the bottom of this!

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Reviews please!

~ Rachel