~*BROKEN PROMISES*~

Chapter 8 – Glimmer

And you may go, but I know you won't leave
Too many years built into memories
Your life is not your own

Who am I to need you now
To ask you why to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

Who am I to you?
Along the way
I lost my faith

And as you were, you'll be again
To mold like clay, to break like dirt
To tear me up in your sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

Crestfallen – Smashing Pumpkins

JacobPOV

The Seattle day light came through my darkened windows early in the morning. Edward sat quietly across from me as I wallowed in my own self pity. He kept a small smirk on his face and it took all I had to try and keep from ripping it off his cold, dead face.

"Jacob, you are such a pussy," Edward said to me.

"Fuck you Edward Cullen. Just because you went a whole decade killing humans doesn't make it my cup of tea," I snapped back.

Edward laughed out loud as Alice bounced her happy ass back into the living room. I tried not to pay her any attention. I tried to watch TV and ignore her however the television had become a very boring guide for entertainment. I couldn't believe we even agreed to move to this hell hole. The sun shone more in Seattle and it kept us indoors until night time.

"Jacob, I keep promising you everything is going to be ok. Can't you trust me for once," Alice said with a smile.

"Alice, I want to believe you and I know your visions of me are happy ones, but I'm growing quite impatient with this bullshit."

"Jacob, please be patient with me. I've never steered you wrong yet have I?" she said.

"Do you really want me to answer that?" I snapped back. Edward laughed and rolled his eyes at me.

I've almost called Carlisle a hundred times the past hour to ask if I could come back to Forks. He's the only one of the Cullens that didn't annoy me to the point of jumping off the Seattle Space Needle. Not that it would do me any good.

I stood up and went to my oversized bedroom. It had to be at least quadruple the size of my room back in Forks.

The best thing about the Cullens had to be the money. I felt awful, almost like I was mooching off their funds, but Alice swears they have more than their fair share of money.

As a gift for my big change, Alice got me something I'd always wanted. She bought me an Aston Martin DBS. It was enough to make me splooge on myself. All of our cars were hidden away in a rental garage but once a week we'd take a trip outside of town. Nothing felt better than driving over 100 miles per hour and know that only the car can end up in shambles if I wreck.

I absolutely loathed our apartment. It is the biggest one in this building. It consumes the entire top floor. Below sit a ton of apartments, mostly for college students.

I don't know what possessed the Cullens to put me in a building full of weak humans for me to step the line again and devour. Alice liked it because it was near the bustling downtown area and near all the shopping areas.

My room didn't even hold a bed for me to lie in. As I walked in I slammed the door in hopes that everyone in the apartment would leave me alone. I had to be careful doing this now. I've broken so many doors the past two years that Alice has Home Depot on speed dial.

I sat down on my futon with my head in my hands. If I'd only known then what I know now, I would have left with Bella that night in front of the Cullen house. Those bad memories follow me everywhere.

At least the good memories do too. I still think of Bella and the way things were. Her big smile and big brown eyes – even the way she would sigh when she was deep in thought. It all haunted me.

I sat thinking about the last time we were together, right before Dad got sick. She wore a cute white camisole top with matching underwear. I held her up against the door of my bedroom as she screamed my name over and over again.

I felt myself harden beneath my jeans at the thought of her against my door in my bedroom. I knew Edward was listening in on my thoughts and I decided to fuck with him a little bit. I thought of how she looked last night with her hair swept around the front side of her hoodie. Her pale face showed through like a beam of light in my heart.

I imagined her following me to the alleyway of the café and pinning her up against the brick wall. I would wrap her legs around me like the night at my house and show her how much I needed and desired her still.

My hand found the zipper to my jeans and I slowly began to unzip them, teasing myself with each tug of the golden zipper. I finally unbuttoned them and slid them down slightly showing the sunlight how hard I was for my Bella.

My hand grazed over my cock as I thought of Bella's eyes, her face, her swollen nipples that I've had in my mouth more times than I can count.

It took barely anytime before I blew my load all over myself.

"Damnit Jacob, stop that shit!" Edward yelled from the living room.

Mission accomplished.

I laughed out loud and I heard the front door slam. I'd pissed him off enough to make him leave the apartment and I felt pleased with myself – in more ways than one.

I walked back into the living room with Jasper and Alice. Emmett and Rosalie were still in their room. I can only imagine what those two lovebirds were doing in there. They fucked more than any couple I'd ever met in my life. They even had a better sex life than Bella and I did.

The minute I walked back into the living room, a wave of calmness came over me and I immediately knew it was Jasper calming me down. His gift of mood changes kept this household from falling apart.

"Thanks, Jazz," I said and I walked back into the living room.

"You are quite welcome," he said.

"You know Jacob, if you are having issues with what happened last night, you can always come to me. I know better than anyone in this household what it's like to lose your footing with the vegetarian deal," he said smiling.

Jasper has slipped more than any of us and yet I envy his ability to keep a positive outlook.

"I keep telling him everything is going to be ok, but he won't listen," Alice said to Jasper.

"Alice, when you are in this situation, it's hard to imagine anything getting better. We all just need to lay off him for a while. He needs space," Jasper said in my defense.

"Thanks, Jazz again. Hey Alice, all seeing and knowing, where's the rain? You promised me it would rain today," I said.

"Look outside," she said.

I walked to the windows and sure enough, the rain drizzled down from the sky. I looked down at all the humans crossing the street and trying to make the most of their time on earth. I watched each one of them following almost the same kind of pattern bees would make in a nest. One busy bee looked familiar though.

My eyesight as a vampire had increased tremendously. I can even see in the pitch black. I watched as the hoodie wearing young girl left the very apartment building I stood in and cross the street to the café across from us. I quickly realized it was Bella.

What was she doing in my apartment building?

I watched as she went into the café and emerge a few moments later with a coffee in hand. She sat under the awning of the café, pulled out her laptop and began working.

What I wouldn't have paid to see what she was working on. Hell what I wouldn't have paid to have been what she was working on.

She watched around her as though she felt something near her. I saw him before she did and it took every single bit of energy I had to not break the glass window in anger.

Damnit Cullen, stay the fuck away from her. What the hell do you think you are doing? If you so much as lay a fucking hand on her, you're dead... well dead again, this time you won't fucking come back.

Edward looked up at me from the street with the same smirk on his face. He knew I was watching and it pissed me off that he could be near my girl and I couldn't.

Fuck this was so unfair.

Bella realized he was standing next to her and almost dropped her coffee.

That was my final straw. I had to find her and talk to her. I knew how Cullen worked and I wasn't about to let him fuck things up for me.

BellaPOV

"Edward!" I said almost dropping my coffee I my lap. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I would ask the same thing about you, but I already know. How's college going?"

"Great… wait… is Jacob with you?" I looked all around for him but didn't see him anywhere.

"No, actually he isn't. He's back at the apartment wallowing in self pity."

"What do you mean? I thought being like you was what he wanted in life – you know, more than being me?" I said sarcastically.

Edward laughed. "I think you have it wrong, missy. He wanted both. I tried telling him that it was a world less forgiving of having your cake and eating it too, but he wouldn't dare listen to me… silly teenagers and their ideas on the world."

Edward brushed a piece of hair behind my ear. His cold fingers made me shiver a bit but I kept my thoughts to myself around him when I could.

"Bella, he thinks about you day and night. I'm so sick of hearing your name for the past two years."

"Well, Jacob made up his mind a long time ago. I've moved on."

Edward leaned into my direction with his cold but alluring breath enticing me to move closer to him.

"I know better Bella Swan. Your little boyfriend, James, is nothing but a temporary fix. He's your fill in until you finally break down and realize the mistakes you made in all this too."

His scent was too much for me. "Edward," I said clearing my throat, "I can't. I can't be with Jacob. He's turned into a monster and I won't allow myself to follow down that same path."

Edward leaned in even closer, this time his lips barely grazing my ear. He whispered, "We both know that's bullshit. You'll end up thanking me one day…"

"Excuse me, can I help you?" James said from behind me.

Edward didn't even budge.

"No actually, I think we're just about done catching up," Edward said.

He finally pulled his lips from my ears, stood up and walked past James, barely touching his shoulder with his arm.

"Who the fuck was that, Bella?" James said with such anger in his voice.

"That was an old high school friend of mine," I said trying to act nonchalant about the whole thing.

"That fuckwad was all up on you Bella!"

"Yes, and it was harmless, I promise you."

James took a seat next to me. "He comes into my club every single Wednesday night. He's got a huge crew with them each time – two girls and three other guys. I don't like the way they act. It's all so… what's the word… phony."

Three other guys… wait… Jasper, Emmett… JACOB!

"They barely drink anything, well except for the really big guy. He drinks his weight in beer and always tips really big. They take up the entire VIP section each time too – high dollar guys. You went to high school with him?"

"Briefly. He started right before my senior year ended. Him and his sister, Alice were a year behind me."

"What on earth do they do to spend so much cash?" James asked me.

"Their dad is doctor," I hated that he was asking so many questions. I felt like asking a few of my own.

"So the three other guys with my friend, what do they all look like? I wonder if his brothers are still following him around," I said.

"I'm not even sure if they are related to be honest. There is a blonde headed guy. He seems like he's southern with his accent. I talked to him one night after we closed down and he seemed pretty cool. The big guy seemed like a football player of sorts. Then the other guy barely says a word. He looks like someone pissed in his cornflakes or something."

"I don't remember Edward having a third brother. What exactly does he look like," I asked trying to push without pushing too far for answers.

"He has shorter brown hair and yellow eyes just like his friends. He's got darker skin than the two of us, almost native American like."

My heart went into an instant flutter.

Jacob.

"Ah, yes now I remember him." I said trying to play it off.

"So what was your friend, Edward, saying to you that he had to get so close?"

Shit. I was hoping I wouldn't be asked again.

"He was telling me how awesome it was to see me again. He was just about to leave actually."

"Well I didn't like how he looked at you. He looked like he could have devoured you and I wouldn't have known what happened to you. You could end up like your friend that got killed last night," James said.

"First off, Jessica wasn't my friend. She was a pain in my ass. Second of all, Edward wouldn't dare touch me."

James looked confused. Luckily for me he dropped the subject and I had no desire in even pushing the issue further.

However, the next Wednesday night, come hell or high water, I would be at James' club.

JacobPOV

I watched as Edward crossed the street back to our apartment building. I waited by the door ready to pound his ass into the ground for pulling that stunt.

She didn't need any confusion in her life and I felt like he just added a shit ton more into it.

"Jacob, before you beat the shit out of me, you might want to hear me out," Edward called from the other side of our apartment door.

I opened the door and he stood with that same damn smirk on his face. It must feel great to always know what is going on. It would explain that shit eating grin he always carried.

"She's unhappy." Edward said.

"Again, thank you captain fucking obvious. Remember, every time she cries, I can feel it too."

"No I mean, with James, dipshit."

"Oh. What did she say?"

Edward sat down in the big leather chair.

"She said she was happy, but when I read her thoughts, all I could see was you. It was quite disturbing actually. Your girl never stops thinking of sex. I would have sworn she was a guy."

I shook my head. "So you mean to tell me that this guy, James, isn't making her happy?"

"Nope-p."

If my heart was still beating, it would have fluttered then. Bella was unhappy and that sent a little bit of hope through my psyche.

"Oh and by the way, I don't know if you realize it, but your girl's new boy toy is that douche bag bartender at the club."

Great. Now I had another reason to not go now. Unless…

"She'll be there next Wednesday night. I just heard her say it in her mind."

"Edward, you know as much as I loathe my eternal existence with you, for once in your cold, dark fucked up life, you did me a favor. Why? What's in it for you?" I asked.

"I'm just tired of hearing you whine. It's bad when you even whine in your fucking thoughts."

I smiled at him. It was the first time in a while that I actually felt ok. I felt like I could figure this out. I just didn't know what to do or how to make it work, but Alice wasn't budging on advice. She wouldn't even tell me when Bells and I would return to our life together.

But if everything went according to her prediction, next Wednesday night could make or break my life with Bella.