Chapter 11.

We spent the ride home in silence as I leaned my head against the window and took deep breathes. I knew they were all walking me beacause I knew how it felt being stared at knowing I'm always the one on stage, but wasn't the kind of stare I liked though it made my stomach tightened. For some reason it was weird being surrounded by three vampires knowing i slept with Derek but I felt uneasy by what happened earlier with Chantel.

"Alicia are you okay?" Derek asked in my head but I ignored his question and heaved a big breathe, "Please answer me."

I didn't feel like talking or even thinking up a respond I just wanted silence, as if she knew Jess handed me my ipod and I forced a grim smile. I turned on F****ing Perfect by Pink loudly to block out Derek's pleas of response, it's not that I wanted to be a bitch I just didn't want to talk about it right now. It was as if we had drived around the whole city but we finally got back to my apartment and I opened my door but Jess rushed out and held it before I could open it even more and shocked me, Logan and Cerek got out and I was stuck in the car.

"We're gonna go check out the house make surenoone was in there." Derek said and stocked off with Logan behind her, so i turned to Jess.

"What's going to happen?"

"We have to keep you safe until she's found, that means keeping you here no matter what, schooling you here, and watching you on the clock."Jess said as if I were a child.

"What happened to you the whole bratty, spoiled, girlie girl that I knew just a little over a couple of days?" I asked so upset at her attitude.

"The change really changed me I guess looking back i realized how I wasn't an okay person back then. But heyy I wasn't that bratty." She smiled which made me feel a little better.

"You kinda were." We bot began to laugh but she looked so distraught, "How are you only a few days into the change and yet you seem like you've been like this for almost years? And how are you protecting me like Derek and Logan?"

"Well I guess being with Logan this long I learned abou all this crap and well you're like a cool friend and sister to me so when they said you were in trouble I jumped up to help." She looked at me and I dropped my head on the door making it hurt a little, when I heard footsteps.

"Yo Jess bring her up!" I heard Logan shout and she opened the door rushing me out with her arms securely around me until we were at the door of my apartment. i walked through the door to see Derek in the kitchen, Logan with his feet up on the couch, and Jess walked into the bathroom, i sighed and glidded over to my bedroom. Slowly I reached down to pet Maddie and filled up her bowl, I walked to my closet taking off my jacket and shoes sighing to myself. I flopped down on my bed and thought of the way it would be until they found Chantel.

"I get to be a prisoner..." i whispered to myself when there was a knock at my door, I looked over and saw Derek and his worried look. He walked in closing the door and sat next to me.

"Wanna talk about it?"

"No." I really didn't .

"Why not sweetheart?" I looked up at him and sighed.

"Because I just want to let it go and get this prison sentence over with."

"You're no a prisoner we're just trying to keep you safe." He said laying down next to me.

"Please stop trying to sugur code it you know this is a prison sentence." I screamed bouncing off my bed and running to my door. I opened it and motioned him to leave, he got up and walked over i thought he was leaving but he closed the door with his foot andcupped my face with his hands and brought my lips to his. His lips moved across mine in the same passionate way he always did and I let every even of today slip away with ease, he brought my back to the door and his hands to my hips. I hand my hands braced at his chest loving the feeling of being around him, slowly the kiss went deeper and then was interrupted by a loud gurgle i broke away from Derek and looked around. I heard it again and the feeling of it and looked down at my stomach, I know I haven't eaten in a long time but heyy now of all times, but wow I realized how hungry i was. I heard Derek laugh and looked up at him with a red tinge to my cheeks.

"Hungry?" He raised an eyebrow.

"Very!"

"Well you're lucky I made something to eat for you when we first got here." He grabbed my hand and we walked out the room to see Logan and Jess eating spaggetti watching Jersey Shore where Snookie gets in a fight with Jioni and Deena has a pregnancy scare.

****To let you know I was watchin Jersey Shore reruns while writin this****

We made our way to the kitchen and I saw what Derek had made spaggetti with tomato chunks, meatballs, and shredded cheese over it and I licked my lips thinking of food, "I knew you would like it spaggetti for breakfast oh and i always look through your journel to know more about you and found out this is your fave food." Just the words I had written down too, Note to self move journel to different spot. "Yes you should." I giggled and he made me a big bowl which i know I would finish and want seconds which made Derek laugh.

"Looks delicious." I grabbed the fork next to me and took the first bite which made my taste buds explode at the the way it tasted, I dug back in and scarfed it down.

Derek laughed, "I had a feeling you would like it all the years I spent living I learned how to cook from the best."

"So why haven't you ever told me about yourself with all the things you can do and know." It was really puzzling I wanted to know more about him.

"I bet you do, okay what do you wnat to know?" He sounded amused.

"Where were you born?"

"Bronx."

"When?"

"1984."

"When were you changed?"

"1991."

"How?"
"I was drunk one night and went out for a walk in an alley and was attacked." My stomach churned at the thought of someone hurting him, "Don't worry I was unconscious to even feel a thing."

"When did you meet Logan?"
"1993 he was the first dude to talk to the new kid..." that's when Logan came into the picture.

"And gave him some styling tips, he used to look like a goth." Logan laughed as he punced Derek's arm.

"And still does." Jess intercepted taking the stool next to me.

"Oh look who's talking!" Derek laughed and I smirked but she gave him a smile with her middle finger.

"Okay okay next question, do you guys just live with each other or do you still have family?" That's when they all went silent.

"Um well I still have my fam, Logan only has Derek, and Derek um..." Jess stammered.

"I live with a foster family...my mom and sister