Chapter 15.
I knew Derek was worried about me because everytime I blackout he has some sort of heart attack, I wanted to wake up but I just didn't want to face reality yet. But for some strange reason I had to a voice in the back of my head was telling me, Open your eyes, you have to face your fears, it's what I wanted when I left you, I want you to be strong. I didn't know wheather it was my conscenious orsomeone getting into my head, but it kinda comforted me. i felt a warm hand on my shoulder and i felt myself melting at the touch, slowly i moved my head upwards, then my legs, and I finally fluttered my eyes halfway open. I was greeted by seven unhappy smiles first I saw Selene, then Trey, Logan, Jess, Freddie, Jenny, I turned my head over to the doorway to see Derek his face a spread of emotion not wanting to take his eyes away from me. I stared at him and he stared at me I saw a flash of anger in his eyes and he walked out of the room, my body hurt and I knew it was because he left.
"Well there hunbun you gave all of us quite a scare are you okay?" I hadn't really realized Selene accent until now.
"I-I'm fine..." I stammered but knew I wasn't really okay.
"Heyy Freddie Jenny how about I take you guys to get some pizza, that might make Alicia better." Logan tried to sound cheery.
Freddie nodded his head not taking his eyes off me I knew he saw something inside me but I looked away, Jenny grabbed his hand and they walked out with Logan. I could feel tears start to burn my eyes I looked up at Selene and Jess as they both looked at me with sad expressions, Jess sat on the bed and opened her arms. I hesitated but threw myself into her arms without a word said Selene joined the hug and we all sat there in silence. Slowly they pulled away and I laid back curling into a ball, "Why is Derek not looking me in the eyes?"
Jess sighed but Selene was the one to speak, "He's afraid to lose you and what I told you guys I know everytime he looks at you he says the image of you in your blood." She shook her head and I shuddered.
"Does he know how I feel about this," i sat up "how it feels to kow I could e dead any minute because I love him. I'm wanted dead because his ex has a grudge on him, I have nothing to do with it but yet I'm the one wanted to no long live!" I said my voice low and weepy, i noticed tears streaming down my eyes and didn't care.
"Lia I'm so sorry if there was something we could do you know..." I stopped Jess just as she was starting.
"Don't don't give me that SHIT...I just want to know is there anything that can keep me alive!?" I almost screamed.
"Not that we know of...besides killing her." Selene sighed out.
"How can you kill her?"
"We're not sure but maybe ripping her apart, burning her, and throwing the ashes into the ocean would work."
"Isn't that what killed vampires in the movie Twilight?"
"Yes.'
"Are you serious?"
"Heyy how do you think she came up with all that...duh she's a vamp." Jess pointed to her temple and smirked which made me smile.
"Okay we'll go see how Derek's doing if anything please SCREAM!" Selene laughed and made me giggle, they turned for the door and left. I laid down and thought about what would happen would I die this week, would Drek leave me completely, or would I lose Amber *PAUSE* I jumped up from the bed and flew the door open and scared the four of them.
""Lia what's up!?"
"What happened to Amber!?" I was so out of breathe and they all sighed.
"She fine she's in the hospital. She has a concusion, two broken ribs, and a broken arm, but for the most part she's just fine." Derek said finally looking at me and I relaxed alittle.
"Can I go see her?" They looked at each other and nodded. I went back to my room and put on my sneakers and jacket when I heard the door shut, I turned slowly and saw Derek. I stared into his eyes I felt frozen where I was like i wasn'rt breathing, moving, or living, his eyes locked on my and I just wanted to run into his arms but he looked away.
"Alicia I need you to not have any of those thoughts again."
"What are you talking about?"
"I realized how much danger I put you in with Chantel, we both know what going to happpen ...I knowI can't let you die, you desrve to live, and I'm going to make sure it stays that way. So I know that this is going to be hard but we can't kiss, touch, or even think of each other until Chantel is found " I felt my heart stop "I know that if my whole intentions are on finding her it will help me getter her sooner and you safe quicker." He stoppped
"But...but you c-can't do this you can't l-leave me like this!?"
"I'm not leaving you, I'll be here as much as possible.'
"NO! That's not the same thing I need you and you need me. I want to spend as much as my time alive in your arms, feeling the warmth of your breathe on me, the way it feels when you rock me to sleep, and the safety you give me when I know you're around. Please Derek I love you."
"Don't say that." His voice was low.
"And you love me."
"Alicia don't say another word."
"We belong together." I was on the brink of tears.
"I CAN'T LOSE YOU!" HIs eyes were gleaming red daggers into mine, his fists clenched, and teeth clenched.
"And you won't if you get the thought of ending us out of your head."
"You don't understand."
"You know what I don't understand, how in my most time of need you're choosing to leave me. You don't understand how I hurt when I'm away from you, how my thoughts are all about you, and how I lovee you with every inch of my heart. Don't you love me?" As soon as I asked I wish I hadn't.
"I won't answer that."
"Answer me you son of a BITCH!" Tears streamed down my cheeks, my teeth clenched, i turned to face him. But he just stared at me, I growled at myself and pulled my fist back, and hit him in the jaw. My knuckles burned and bile rose in my throat as he held his chin and looked up at me eyes wide.
"Verdita please." My anger lowered at the sound of that name.
"What did you call me?"
"i called you something very valuable to my kind, something very valuablle to me. I can't live without you so I have to protect you."
"By leaving!?" The tears were back.
"It's the only way." He put his hands on my face wiping tears away and looking me in the eye.
"Please don't.'
"I have to."
"Then one last kiss." He stared at me then pulled my face up to his, he passionately kissed me making sure every part of my mouth was included. I reached up to wrap my arms around his neck and he put his hands to my hips, I tried to get closer but he pushed me back by my waist. i stared at his face stunned.
"This is it." He pulled his hand out of mine and I gasped as he walked out the door leaving me alone in the dark. I felt my breathe running out, I turned and almost fell when two strong arms grabbed me. I turned to see Selene with a sad expression on her face.
"You did this, did you see him leaving me, did you want this to happen!?" I was screaming.
"Alicia please I had to come tell you guys, when I see a death and don't tell about the death it is much worse. If I didn't tell you i was afraid I'd let Derek lose his verdita." When she finished I looked up at her.
"That word what does verdita mean?"
"It's the soulmate or love of a vampire, and for Derek that's you." Her face showed so much sadness it wasn't even funny.
"If I'm his verdita then WHY did he leave me!?" I was screaming again.
"I don't know why he left you but I think he thinks he's doing the right thing." She sighed and looked at me, "Are you okay?"
"I'm terrified but you know what my best friend needs me." I rushed past her and grabbed Trey by the arm and pulled him to the van followed by Freddie, Logan, and Jess.
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