She still didn't know how to talk about it, or even think about it. The mere sight of him immediately bringing back the memories of that night, forcing her to relive the horrifying reality. It was hard even being with him, it hurt feeling his soft lips pressing against hers. She loved him, she loved him so much it threatened to stop her heart, she loved him so much and that was why it was so damn hard to be around him.
"Hey love" He greeted his sweet Irish accent rolling off of his tongue as Emma held the front door opened for him "I'm glad you called" He grinned planting a quick kiss on her cheek before making his way to the couch a nervously look etched upon his face as he watched Emma slowly glide towards him "What did you want to talk about?"
"I….I" Emma stuttered instantly dropping her head into her hands her tears streaming rapidly down her face as she did her best to continue
"Em, what's wrong honey?" He questioned wrapping his arm comfortably around Emma's shoulder pulling her tightly into his side "You can tell me anything"
"The reason I've been acting so strange and distant for the past couple of months is because…" She said dropping her head onto Nick's shoulder using the back of her hand to rid her face of tears "I was pregnant"
"Was?" Nick asked running his fingers through Emma's dark hair "Did you…" He tried to ask the brunette unable to form a coherent thought
"No" Emma answered reading her boyfriend's thoughts "When I found out I was pregnant I was happy" She admitted "I was happy because I love you, and I knew I could have a baby with you and everything would be fine"
"I don't understand" Nick confessed obviously not following the conversation
"Nicholas, I had a miscarriage" She muttered her eyes dripping with tears as she lifted her emerald orbs to meet his light brown ones "I had a miscarriage" She repeated
"Darling" Nick breathed heavily hugging her into his chest rubbing his hand along her back gently "It's alright" He whispered into her ear holding her tightly as if to never let her go
She didn't mean to overhear there conversation, in fact she wasn't sure why Emma held the conversation in the living room when the brunette knew full well that Jess was hiding in her bedroom. She didn't want to believe it, she didn't want to think of Emma going through such a terrible time all by herself. Over the last three years of school all of the girls have gotten closer than anyone could ever imagine, whether it be Tori holding Miranda late at night when she had nightmares about Seth, or Emma constantly trying to help Jess find a suitable boyfriend. Three years had transformed the girls into sisters, sisters that would always be there for each other. No matter what. And yet, Emma didn't feel the need to confide in Jess about her current problem.
"Jess?" He whispered from the bed leaning his head back on the headboard "Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, fine" She lied tiptoeing back to the bed her bare body wrapped in her blanket her long blonde hair draped along her back
"You lying to me" He observed moving over on the bed to make room for his special friend a brief smirk crossing his face as he pressed his lips against her shoulder "Whenever you lie, your left eyebrow goes up"
"Damn it" Jess whined cuddling into his side "I knew hooking up with another psych student was a mistake" She complained exhaling deeply as she closed her eyes desperate to drift off into a peaceful sleep
"When are you gonna stop referring to us as 'hooking up', we've been sleeping together for the past four months, I think it's more than just casual sex" He suggested sitting up in the bed pulling his knees into his chest
"Ben, I thought we went over this already" Jess groaned her eyes flickering opened sitting up to face him "This is all I can handle right now, don't get me wrong your attractive and all but I just can't deal with the time and effort that goes into making a relationship work" Jess explained once again getting to her feet scanning the cluttered bedroom floor for a clean set of clothes. It wasn't bad sharing a room with Emma, the brunette normally spending her nights on the living room couch due to the number of times Ben snuck in at night. Emma was the only one who knew about Ben, well that's what Jess hoped. She didn't want the other girls thinking she was a slut who slept around and enjoyed hooking up with random guys, that wasn't Jess. At least not anymore.
"Jess" Ben said drawing out the blondes name as he too got to his feet quickly pulling his jeans back onto his body "You know how much I care about you, so if this is what you want this is what you'll get but eventually I'm gonna find someone who returns my feelings and when I do, this…" He explained gesturing between the two of them "This will end"
"And until that day, I'll enjoy this while it lasts" Jess giggled resting her hands against Ben's perfect abs her eyes falling upon them instantly "Unless you want to call this off now" She teased placing light kisses along his toned chest
"You know, sometimes I really hate you" Ben laughed picking Jess off of her feet carefully tossing her back onto the bed before climbing on top of her
"It really seems that way right now" Jess joked wrapping her arms around his neck
"Oh just shut up already" He demanded connecting their lips together
"And then Sky stands up and start yelling at the class" Tori chuckled explaining to Miranda the events that had taken place earlier in her anatomy class Miranda appearing as if she found the story less than amusing "Isn't that hilarious Mira?" She questioned taking a small sip of her water
"Very" Miranda lied picking at the plate that sat in front of her
"So Miranda" Sky began desperately trying to stir up any form of conversation "What are you majoring in again?" She asked
"Miranda took a year off" Tori explained giving Miranda a quick look before continuing "Her mom was recently diagnosed with early onset…"
"Tori!" The blonde interrupted angrily "Can we not talk about my mom right now" She begged forcefully dipping her fries into her pile of ketchup "Please"
"You have to talk about it sometime, you can't just pretend it's not happening!" Tori argued shifting in her chair so she was facing Miranda
"I'm not pretending that it's not happening! I see her every other weekend! I see her struggling to remember who I am, or who my father is, or who Connor is! So don't try to tell me what I'm doing!" Miranda shouted waving her finger angrily towards Tori
"You don't think I know what you do! Every time you come home from Rosewood I have to deal with you being pissed off at the world! I have to deal with your outbursts for no reason, yelling at Emma because she left a freaking dish in the sink, fighting with Jess because she wants to invite a guy over! Pushing yourself away from me whenever I try and help you"
"You're not supposed to help me! I'm supposed to help you!" Miranda spat
"Why?" Tori asked finally seeming to calm down as all eyes in the diner became glued to the table "Because I have epilepsy? Because you think I'm inept? Because you think just cause I'm 18 means I'm unable to take care of myself?" She groaned "Well what's the reason Miranda please tell me!"
"Tori…." Miranda spoke softly her eyes suddenly shifting around the room instantly becoming aware of the strange stares other customers were sending their way
"It's because I'm epileptic right?" Tori assumed pulling her pill bottle from her bag "You think you need to take care of me because I have to take pills! You think I'm incapable of looking after myself?"
"Tori I never said that" Miranda said her face full of guilt
"You don't have to! I can tell by the way you treat me, by the way you treat everyone around me" Tori confessed reaching over to Sky's hand stealing her drink away "But guess what, I'm 18 years old and I can take care of myself!" She whined wrapping her fingers around the cold glass of beer quickly washing it down her throat
"Tori!" Miranda yelled watching as the brunette swallowed the last bit of the beer "You're not supposed to drink, it can…"
"Cause seizures? Affect my meds?" She smirked "I know damn well what could happen, and if something happens I'll take care of myself!"
"You're insane! You realize this right? Your gonna put yourself in the hospital and guess what there's no way in hell that I'm gonna be there holding your hand" Miranda admitted jumping to her feet rushing out of the diner without a single look back fiddling with the small velvet box in her jacket pocket as she disappeared down the street
"Sorry you had to see that" Tori apologized slowly sliding the empty glass back to Sky "And for drinking your beer"
"Its fine, it brought some excitement to the day" Sky giggled dropping a twenty on the table before getting to her feet "You up for a walk? We could talk about what just happened if you want" Sky suggested holding out her hand for Tori to grab
"Sounds like a plan" She smiled hastily accepting Sky's hand the two quickly making their way out of the diner and into the empty park
"So try to explain to me why you and Miranda were fighting? Aren't you two like relationship goals?" Sky chuckled wrapping her fingers around the chains of the old swing before descending onto it slowly swaying back and forth
"You're such a dork" Tori stated lowering herself onto the swing beside Sky "But in all seriousness Miranda and I don't fight like that too often, at least we haven't for a while not since she found out about her mom"
"Isn't that a good thing?" Sky asked dragging her feet across the ground to slow her swing down "No one likes fighting"
"That's what everyone thinks, but as soon as you stop fighting with the person you love you realize you've stopped fighting for the relationship" Tori explained sadly "Miranda and I don't fight to much anymore, she's too concerned with watching out for me, and making sure she takes care of her mom"
"What's with her mom anyway?"
"Her mom was diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer's and Miranda's taking it really hard, ever since finding out she's pushed everyone away. I understand, but I just wish she would talk to me about instead of trying to only focus on my epilepsy"
"Well epilepsy is a pretty big thing to focus on" Sky defended
"Yeah, but…." Tori stuttered the instant change of speech startling Sky to the core "But….I…I"
"Tori are you okay?" Sky questioned sliding off of the swing resting her hands on Tori's shoulder as she felt the younger girl's body begin shaking violently "Tori!" She yelled doing her best to keep the brunette from falling off of the swing
Question (answer in reviews): Do you think Nick and Emma will work through their current problem? Is Jess doing the right thing by keeping Ben as her special friend? How will Miranda react to hearing Tori had another seizure?