Her heart pounding, her body sweating and her eyes crying, she shot up in the bed that was not hers and let out a loud cry. She had fallen asleep so peacefully in her drunken state last night that she was even shocked by her rude awakening. Nightmares were nothing new for the Agent but she felt even worse about this one because this time she was not alone, she was not in her bed or with her things she was here and just as that thought crossed her mind, there she was standing in the doorway her eyes shining her whole body wrapped in the rays of sunlight just beginning to peek in through the windows her hair tossed so it just fell perfectly and a concerned smile on her face.

"My angel " JJ whispered only to her ear.

"Jayje, are you ok" Emily spoke softly as not to frighten the woman.

"yes I'm ok , I'm sorry Em I didn't mean to wake you" JJ replied her heart sinking in her chest , this was her best friend and a woman she was pretty sure she had feelings for and she had cared for her in her drunken childish state last night and this is how I repay her she thought.

"It's ok JJ, I'm just glad you're safe" the older woman spoke as she crossed to the edge of the bed and sat down at JJ's feet. Reaching a hand and placing it on the blonde's leg she didn't want to move to quickly as she really wasn't sure what the nightmare had been about.

"Want to talk about it" she asked the woman lying in her bed.

By now a million thoughts were dancing around in her head, what was her nightmare was it really that bad. How drunk was she last night what had she done what had she said did any of it matter, the kiss she remembered the kiss. She shook her head and a small tear ran down her cheek she was so drunk last night but Emily was still here she hadn't scared her off; then again it was Emily's apartment. She looked up to see those bright brown eyes looking deep into hers, did she have feelings to did she want to kiss her now she smiled when she noticed she hadn't answered the question yet.

"you know I don't even know what it was about" she said with a bit calmer tone as she reached her hand out and placed it on top of Emily's never breaking eye contact." I'm so sorry about last night, how can I ever repay you" what she meant to say was 'how I can ask if you love me, if you want me if I'm not crazy' but in her mind those words were crazy and she knew it.

"Jayje come on you are my best friend no thanks needed, it happens to all of us sometimes. But know that if you ever want to talk about anything I'm here" the Agent smiled as she slid her hand out from the other she could see a slight bit of confusion in JJ's eyes "how about some coffee"

Jenifer nodded .

JJ pulled the sheets suddenly aware she only had on her bra and panties she looked around for her suit that she had last night but it was nowhere to be seen then she saw folded on The dresser a pair of jeans and a t shirt. JJ knew that Emily had left them there for her last night her suit must be in the wash. The blonde couldn't help but smile she put the outfit on and oddly enough they fit perfectly which JJ thought was weird given they were not even close to the same size. She walked out to the living room and sat down on the couch watching Emily pour them coffee. The brunette walked over and handed her the cup.

"Thanks" JJ spoke.

"You're welcome" Emily replied as she sat down next to her.

Taking a sip of her coffee Emily began to speak JJ was glad she wouldn't even know where to begin.

"Your suit is in the wash by the way, glad you found the clothes" she told her.

"They are nice, but how is it that if these are yours they fit me perfectly" the blonde questioned.

Emily took a few more sips of her drink before answering with a laugh.

"Ok don't get mad or anything. She said in a giggly tone "they are not mine, the belong to someone I care about very much"

JJ could feel her heart sink 'of course Emily was with someone who was she kidding a woman like that'

"Oh will she mind" the blue eyed woman spoke with just a hint of heart break in her voice

"You know I'm pretty sure she doesn't even know they are gone, which is a shame because she looks so dam sexy in that pair of jeans" Emily said jokingly

Just when JJ was near tears she had made a complete fool of herself last night hell she had kissed Emily now she had to sit here and listen to the woman she would give anything to be with talk about another. She was so lost in her own head she hadn't realized that Emily was now next to her and had her hand firmly on JJ's thigh the blonde tilted her head and looked into the others eyes.

"Who is she" she said in confusion.

Emily knew at this point JJ clearly was not following and was beginning to become hurt she spoke in an upbeat tone hoping maybe she would make her best friend smile with her words.

"Just this Amazing, stunning ,brilliant, wonderful, blonde" Emily said brushing JJ's hair out of her face there it was that one small tear that fell from those blue eyes but Emily kept talking " Talented , Agent, oh and my best friend who happened to get insanely drunk last night and slept in my bed" she laughed.

This time JJ did smile and laugh at how silly she had just been but wait did that mean she has feelings for her, she just said all these lovely things and the blonde could now feel Emily's hand gliding across the jeans.

"But how long have you had these" she asked trying not to hold her head down in shame

"You left a bag in my car about a year ago, I meant to give them back but kept forgetting" the brunette replied.

"Ok I'm sorry I was acting childish again, I promise I am a mature classy woman" she smiled as she picked up her coffee cup and drank it with her pinky in the air.

Both girls burst into laughter happy to just have moment to forget that life was serious, but that hope was shattered by the words that filled the apartment next. Words JJ would have liked not to hear because she had no way of responding. But Emily spoke them anyway.

"So about that kiss