Sitting on the couch she looked around the room with tear filled eyes. Why did she yell at JJ, why did she let her leave, she knew she wouldn't have gone far, her keys and purse were still here. Emily stumbled to her feet and began to blow out all the candles. She felt her heart break here she was having just found the love of her life and she let her go. JJ must have been hurting after all it couldn't have been easy to tell that story. For the strong and fearless blonde to admit she might be broken but that was ok with Emily, she was broken too, and maybe just maybe they could fix each other. With the last candle out and her tears slowly fading she knew she had to go find JJ bring her back here and talk. Emily grabbed her jacket, keys and cell phone and went in search of her love.
The steps were cold the air was cold in fact she was cold JJ had been sitting on the steps for nearly twenty minutes but could not find the strength to move. She had not stopped crying that entire time, she had hurt the woman she loved, and how could she have said that awful thing. Why couldn't she have kept her mouth shut why did she have to tell her anything? But what's done is done the only thing now would be to go and beg forgiveness. JJ pulled herself up and turned to walk back into the apartment building. She stepped in and the warmth hit her like a wave it was then she realized she was shivering. But even the building warmth did not cheer her up as much as the pair of eyes she saw at the bottom of the stairs.
"Emily"
"Oh my god JJ you're soaked and shivering" she ran to the blonde and threw her jacket over her.
"I'm sorry Emily"
"I know, me too, now please let's get you upstairs and dried off"
JJ did not speak but nodded her head as Emily led her back to the apartment. They got inside and Emily went to the bathroom and JJ stood by the kitchen frozen the smell of the blown out candles filled her nose she heard the water being to run she followed her into the bedroom and stood in the doorway to the bathroom.
"What are you doing?"
"Starting you a nice hot bath we have to get you warm"
"Thank you" she said barely above a whisper.
Once the bath was drawn Emily reached for her Jacket and slid past JJ she was about to close the bathroom door when a voice made her pause.
"Don't leave me"
"But you need a bath Jen "
"I know but stay, please"
Emily could see the hurt in those blue eyes but was this really how she had envisioned seeing her love naked for the first time, no.
"Tell you what , you get in I'll go start a pot of Tea and come back"
"Emily"
"Yes"
"Thanks"
Emily nodded and headed for the kitchen to start a pot of hot water. JJ peeled the wet clothes off and laid them on the sink. She was stepping in letting her toes hit the water as Emily reentered. Emily scanned the woman's body her every curve her pale skin her blonde locks falling down around her she was stunning. JJ had slid all the way in the tub before she saw Emily in the doorway. She flashed her smile and motioned for her to sit down next to her. She reached out of the water and took the brunettes hand and kissed it.
"I'm sorry I ran"
"I shouldn't have yelled either"
"I never meant to hurt you Emily; I would never want to hurt you"
"Yes I know, I'm sorry about your sister and your uncle"
"Thank you and thanks for taking care of me"
"Anytime, I love you Jayje and there is nothing that will ever change that"
"Sure about that" she took her other hand and splashed a puddle of water in Emily's face both woman laughed.
"Yes I'm sure" as she leaned in and kissed JJ on the lips.
JJ splashed her again getting her shirt wet this time Emily looked into JJ's eyes , the light from that morning was back she was glad that they were going to move past this but right now she was still being pelted with water. A small smirked crossed the blondes face as Emily leaned back from the tub.
"Agent jareau are you trying to make me take my top off"
"Me never" she said with a slight giggle.
After about ten minutes Emily went to go find another set of clothes for JJ, she set a tank top pair of sweats and clean panties on the bed then went back into the bathroom the blonde was smiling up at her and pointed to the towel on the rack. Emily took the towel and held it open. JJ climbed out and the brunette wrapped her in the warm cloth drying her off happy to have her close. They headed into the bedroom.
"There are fresh clothes for you; I'll go finish the tea"
"Three spoons of sugar and a drop of honey" she smiled
"Well now I don't think I can put a drop of me in it"
"Oh shut it Emily"
She exited the room and JJ was left alone to dry off and change, the blonde took her time putting on the dry clothes she wanted to think of what to say. She still could not understand why Emily wasn't mad and how she could still love her. Then again that made JJ wonder how she could truly love anyone if she didn't love herself. She made her way back to the living room and sat on the couch next to Emily who handed her a cup of tea. She took one sip and smiled at the other women.
"Good" Emily asked
"Yes thank you it's perfect"
"Like you"
"Don't start Emily"
"But I mean it, your beautiful and strong, sweet and loving "
"Please don't "The blonde shot her a death glare.
"Ok I'm sorry" realizing the woman was not going to believe her, she leaned in and kissed her forehead. She ran her hand over JJ's cheek and tucked a fallen strand of messy blonde hair behind her ear. Emily smiled seeing the hair brush on the table next to her.
"Sit in front of me on the floor" she told her
"What" the blonde was more than confused
Emily pulled the brush up and held it to her. "Calm down I just want to brush your hair" Emily laughed "Of course if you like the idea of using the hairbrush for other things we could always…" Emily was cut off by a small slap to her shoulder.
Laughing JJ did as she was told and leaned her head back into Emily's lap
"I can't brush it like that"
"No but you can kiss me like this"
Emily leaned down and kissed the woman's lips soft and slow they broke apart and JJ moved forward a bit so the other could reach her hair. Emily began to run the brush though the blonde's hair she was shocked at how easy it was to detangle. JJ closed her eyes it had been a while from the last time anyone brushed her hair, she loved having her hair played with she was falling into a slight trance when the brush hit a knot.
"Ouch be gentle" she said reaching for the brush
Emily pulled her hand away so JJ couldn't reach. "I'm sorry"
"It's ok" JJ giggled as Emily continued to brush her hair.
"So why are you doing all this again" the blonde questioned.
"Are you ever going to stop asking me that?"
"It's just strange to have someone take care of me I've been alone for so long"
"You're not alone; you have me and the guys"
"I know I know "JJ began to tear up.
Emily dropped the brush back on the side table and slid down behind JJ. She wrapped her arms around her waist and buried her head in her neck kissing it softly. The blonde laid her head on top of the brunettes.
"Don't ever leave me Emily" JJ whispered.
"I won't, I know your scared Jen, but we can get through this, you took a big step today"
"I know, a few actually" kissing Emily
"You may not see yourself as perfect, but I want you to know, you're the perfect woman for me"
JJ giggled "that was really cheesy"
The blonde turned around and climbed back onto the couch Emily followed
"Speaking of cheese, what's for dinner?"
It was around seven now they didn't even realized the whole day had passed. The road was still too wet for anyone to be on and Emily's cabinets were empty as normal. Emily had gotten up to check what was left in the fridge.
"I think that would be leftover pizza or Chinese"
"Eh heat up the Chinese food" JJ said walking into the kitchen
"Sorry I don't have real food"
"It beats ramen" she told her
They ate dinner and watched TV as they cuddled on the couch the rain had finally stopped. But JJ knew she didn't want to go home it was Saturday night and Monday they would be back at work she had one more day alone with Emily and she was going to make it count if she couldn't love herself she was going to love Emily with all her heart. It was eleven when the women decided it was time for bed Emily smiled and kissed JJ as she laid down on the couch.
"What, are you doing" the blonde said in a rather annoyed tone
"Giving you the bed"
"Oh no Emily Prentiss, you're coming with me" she pulled Emily up and walked her to the bedroom she closed the door and pushed her onto the bed. She jumped on top of it and kissed her. Then they both curled up under the covers Emily holding JJ close. As they drifted off to sleep JJ knew there would be no nightmares tonight, she was in the arms of her angel.