Bella's Pov.
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I took a step foward, hearing a light crunch as my feet met with the grass. In front of me i could see my angel, all lit up by the moonlight. He always looked beautiful but in the moonlight, nothing could ever compare. I watched as he gazed toward the sky toward the twinkling stars, i remembered to the night when we gazed out to the stars he had said 'Every star is different, individual, but there is always one that sparkles just for you. You are my star.' I smiled as i touched the locket around my neck, lightly carved with many patterns surrounding the light diamond star. I took a leap foward not wanting to stay so far apart, i pushed foward but the wind pushed me slightly but still i moved foward. Nothing can keep me away, never.
As i got closer he closed his eyes then hugged me. His cold skin felt familiar but still so cold. I hugged with all my force making sure there was no space between us. He pulled apart and i was upset by that to be honest but when i saw his pitch black eyes, something was wrong. A questioning look sparked my eyes trying to get him to talk. He shook his head.
"What's wrong Edward," i asked confused.
"Bella," he whispered. I smiled, loving to hear my name escape his perfectly sculpt lips.
"I can't... we... I'm sorry." Was all that he said. I took a step back to try understand but he took a step back aswell.
"Edward? What are you saying?" I whispered still confused.
"Goodbye." He replyed, his voice hard and cold like his eyes. I watched him as he waited, looking into his eyes to find some sort of joke or anything that didnt mean goodbye.
"What? I dont.. I don't understand?" I said slightly getting angrier and threatening to break down right there. He took a step back and i watched as he disapeared into the night.
I ran after him trying to find him, searching. This isnt him, something has to be wrong. Right? Right, i told myself as i continued to run faster and faster before slipping over a root and landing on my head. Warmth flowed down my head, as i tried to see what it, a dark figure stepped out from behind a tree.
"Edward?" I whispered before being sucked into darkness.. It felt nice, to be endulged into the darkness, to not care. But i did care..
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My heart was racing and the pain expanded, i wanted to scream but there was no one to scream too. I didnt know what was happening, everything was dark, everything was messed up. I tried to push back the pain but it came back stronger, faster. It made me exhusted to resist but it was a reflex, my body felt on fire but i was frozen, no part of my body would or could move. I couldnt see anything, i couldnt open my eyes, its as if a thick blindfold was strapped to my eyes.
I kept wondering how i came to be like this. I remember the Cullens, i remember being happy, but then i remember pain, not physically but emotionally, as i watched Edward walk away. I remember falling and with that came pain, more then my body could bear. You'd think i would pass out but i was already, trapped in my mind with no where to go. Everything became hotter, the heat kept raising like no end. Like grabbing something hot and your automatic reaction is to drop it, but i couldnt because i wasnt holding anything, my arms lay dead next to me unresponsive. The burning grew, rose, peaked until it surpassed anything i'd ever felt.
I felt the pulse behind the fire raging in my chest and i'd knew i have found my heart. To realise that i wish i hadnt because each beat sent more fire through my body, spreading the pain rapidly. I felt heavy, wondering if it was the blackness holding me back, but it wasnt. It was my body, burying me in flames as i felt it spread, reaching every corner hidden in my body.
Seconds, hours, days, weeks, I couldnt tell the difference. I could feel my body gaining control as the pain slowed at the tips of my fingers and slowly fade again. I felt strong, new. Every now and then a slight mumble could be heard aswell as little things i could feel. I know there are people watching me, their presence is hard to deny. I felt like gasping in pain but i was already breathless, i felt something squeeze my hands, wanting to help but i know they cant i was on my own.
My pulse became frantic and my breath becoming restless. The pain became fainter as it faded through my body. I began to feel lighter and awake. My hands gripped and my breathing stopped, my eyes began to loosen and i knew it was over. A burning scraped my throat, it throbbed but i could push it aside, as if i had tabs in my mind. Knowing it was there just holding it back for the mean time. Slowly i opened my eyes, confusion and worry now filled me.
Everything seemed different, everything that has never been seen stood right in my vision. The lights, the details, all there still but moving. I heard many things at once, people walking, people mumbling and people breathing near by. I gasped not knowing where i was, but as soon as i sat up i knew that was too fast, nothing went blurry everything that had moved with me stayed the same. Beside me i saw four figures all in capes and i got scared. I wanted to move but i couldnt, i was scared and i didnt know where i was or what i was.
"Isabella." I gasped not knowing how he knew me, fear filled me as he got closer. His black hair and pale skin showed thoroughly as well as every detail within his clothing. He reached out to me but i backed away more, not knowing what to do.
"Isabella, please do not be afraid, we can help you. My name is Aro." He said quietly and patiently. I watched his eyes, seeing if there any part that i shouldnt trust but all i saw was concern. I pulled my hand foward before being shocked by the milky pale colour of my hand. It may be my hand but it was unfamiliar, so i examined it. The silkiness and texture seemed, flawless.
I then looked up to see that Aro was watching me, so was everyone else.
"What.. Who..why am i.. I.." I began but kept getting distracted by the bell of my voice.
"Your a vampire." Hearing this was shock, my mind kept trying to remember but everything was muddy, foggy.
"No what! No i dont want this! I dont.. i cant.. The cullens... what.. how.." I became frantic as my emotions twisted and were much more powerful then i've ever felt. I didnt want this not without Edward. There is no point, i dont need this, why am i like this.
"Isabella, the Cullens arent your concern they are long gone they've packed, left. As for this --He gestured to myself-- there is a reason you just got to have patience, everything happens for a reason." He said while examining me. I didnt know what it was but i trusted him.
"You must be thirsty Isabella, we wouldnt want you to hurt. Come with us, we shall all feed." I followed Aro and the others down through the castle and into a main room. At the end was a few thrones along with many others in black cloaks. We were placed in a line, Aro in the middle along with Marcus and Caius. I was centered in front of Aro. Seconds later i heard heat beats down the hall, each step making the thirst in my throat burn more and more. It was then that i noticed as they entered they were humans. I couldnt do this, this isnt me, i cant take an innocent life.
"Welcome to Volterra guests." Aro shouted as the doors closed behind them. As soon as that happened every vampire began to move, taking lives and feeding. I couldnt do this, as much pain as i was in at the moment i couldnt harm a human it just doesnt seem.. right.
I began to run, Edward told me i would be stronger, faster for my newborn years so i ran. Knowing i could out run them. As i ran i could hear someone following me, terror filled my system the further i went. I eneded up in the garden of the castle but there was no where to go, i looked toward the high stone wall with a forest behind. I could jump over it, atleast i thought so. Making my way to the wall i stumbled on my feet pulling my body to drop. I didnt move and whoever was following me came closer. I didnt dare look to see who it was instead i just lay on the ground staring at the grass. I felt someone sit beside me i turned to see who it was before turning away. He sat there waiting for me to say something or so i asumed. His dirty blonde hair shined a bit and his perfect muscles showed through his black T-shirt.
"why didn't you feed? If you dont mind me asking?" He said gently.
"I cant.. just the fear that crossed their eyes.. I dont want to be a killer." I mumbled asuming he could hear me.
"Its who you are Isabella, cant deny what you are now."
"Bella." I corrected.
"Bella. I'm Logan." He said meanwhile holding out his hand to shake. I gave a small smile and shook his hand. He didnt let go, he began to stare right into my eyes just like Edward did. My cold heart pounded hard at the sound of his name, making guilt and sadness roll over me. I immediatly pulled my hand not aware that i flipped Logan onto the floor.
"Oh, I'm sorry.. I guess i dont know my own strength." I said shocked at what i could do with just a flick of the wrist.
"No worries." He said showing his white teeth in an dazzling smile.
"Isabella!" Aro shouted from behind. I instantly got scared and hid behind Logan, what will happen to me now. I betrayed his kind, im in soooo much trouble.
"Are you alright child?" He asked sincerly, nothing at all what i expected.
"I cant.." I began,
"I know." Was all he said before leading me inside.
"Heidi, lead Isabella to the forest, teach her to drink from.. animals.." He said trying to hide his disgust, although it wasnt hard to miss.
Heidi taught me everything i needed to know. And although my first kill was extremely messy, i had to admit i had fun. She began to tell me about the Volturi, what they do and why. I never really knew that they even had Laws but they were pretty straight foward. Heidi seemed pretty nice and as much fun as it was it felt wrong. To be like this without anyone to be with. As i was lead to my room to clean up i didnt know what to think anymore.
Each thought was hard, every decision was made for me and i was to become a guard of the volturi. I dont know why i dont just leave but i wouldnt have anywhere to go or anyone to see. This was all i had left along with sadness. Tomorrow morning i would train, physically and mentally. I didnt know what was my future but i know it was here in Volterra. The volturi is know to be evil but they do help the innocent away from this life, keep them safe from knowing and living in fear. That is why im going to stay, not for myself but for them i havent got anything else to live for..
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