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I wanted to return to the house but i know there wont be much to do so i took a detour..
I stood, watching the old house where i use to live. It was empty, no one lived here and Charlie is long gone. Getting inside the house was easy just needed a little push. The living room and kitchen smelt faintly of Charlie, every spot reminded me of him. The room remained empty, nothing was left at all, i wondered where everything was. As i walked upstairs they creaked and echoed my steps and i got closer to my room. The door was closed and i laid my hand on the door handle before slowly opening it on.
Inside i was shocked every piece of furniture was untouched, even my clothes i had left on the floor. This seems to be the only room furnished although it was a bit dusty. I sat on my bed, looking toward everything, my photos, laptop, books. The smell was the same, strawberrys with a hint of honey lilac. Wait, has he been here? I took in s deep breath and followed the scent. It led me to the middle of the floor but i still couldnt see anything so i walked a little bit more before tripping over the floor board. On the ground i could see that it was higher then the rest of the planks.
I wanted to lightly lift it but instead i ripped it off. Inside lay my birthday gifts, the stereo, my c.d, a photo and the plane tickets. Was this here before i went to the meadow? Picking up the photo gently, i began wiping all the dust that had collected over the years. On the back of the photo it labeled 'Senior Prom, Bella & Edward.' Instantly i turned over the photo and there in coloured ink was indeed, Edward and i. We looked so happy. Tracing my finger round us i never noticed how happy we were. And yet Edward didnt look unhappy he looked.. beautiful. Hugging the photo i then held it in my hands just staring, remembering but it was too foggy to see.
"What are you doing here leech?" I jumped as the deep voice startled me from behind.
"I.. um.. It... Sorry.." was all i could manage to say. I stared at his figure, muscly, dark coloured, and big brown eyes. Looking at him reminded me clearly of someone, i looked closely trying to remember but his smell was to vivid. I began to shake, my hands clenched into fists and i fell to my knees. Tears pricked my eyes, unable to tear.
"Jacob.." I whispered looking at him straight in the eye. Shock hit him instantly and he was stunned.
"Bells? Is that.. is it.."
"Yes." I mumbled. At that moment i was caught in a hug, he squeezed tight but i didnt want to squeeze too hard.
"Yikes, you need a bath Jac." I laughed with my shakey voice.
"Bells im a were-"
"Jacob!" Another older, but smaller male figure said.
"Uhh, Hey sam.." He said suprsised.
Something about him scared me, the way he looked at me made me shiver although i wasnt frightened, I was however curious why i would react like this.
"You know we cant share things like that," He said yelling fully at Jacob who was just standing there.
"Look at her." Jacob replied, but as he said that i became confused, but the male figure turned to me, observing. We waited for about ten seconds, wondering if he could figure it out.
"Is that Charlie's daughter?" He questioned, so i nodded.
"I dont understand, you should all be.. dead," I whispered.
"So should you," Jacob replied.
"I am.. Technically." I replied meanwhile biting my lip. Jacob began to chuckle so im smiled feeling a little embaressed but comforted by an old friend.
Buzz. Picking up my phone it was, of course, another message.
Sender: unknown
Run.
This message confused me but looking ahead the Jacob looked at me as if he were scared for me. But beside him stood a dark.. werewolf? A loud growl came deep from through his teeth and he lunged. I quickly dodged not understanding what happened. He lunged again and again, running through anything in his way, i looked at Jacob not sure what to do but he just watched. Scared, for me or Sam? I began to run, down the stairs and out the back door into the forest behind the house. Sam although wasnt in sight so i had escaped, for now. I didnt know what to do, what to think.
I looked at Jacob wondering why he wasnt doing anything, why he was only watching. Why would he do that? Anger built up and i began to run faster, my current mood added to my movement. My feet hit the ground with a light thump, the sound of a pillow hitting the ground. I began to slow when i realised i was reachng Port Angeles. The small town lit up to look like the sky.. just not as big. walking into the city it seemed familiar and i could place my memories in them.
I remember running into edward, and dress shopping with the girls. Walking the streets i realised the book shop i had once been to, maybe that could entertain me for five minutes. The book shop was quite small making the book shelves a little to close to each other. Scanning the spines of the books with my eyes i noticed one of my old favourites, Wuthering Heights. My copy was too run down and i knew if i picked it up it would crumble to pieces. I pulled at it gently but it was crammed between the other books so i pulled a little harder causing more books flying to the ground.
I noticed the book keeper looking towards me,
"Sorry." I murmured giving a small apologetic smile. But he just went back to reading. I began to scoop up the books and slide them into the book shelf. Each book i passed were either ancient or colourful each different style. I picked Withering Heights from the load and rested it ontop of the shelf while i continued filing the rest. My hand stopped on a plain blue book, 'Traditional Myths.' I opened to a random page hoping to see what it was about. Black and white print talked about werewolves, the picture resembled a big wolf, howling to moon. The caption labeled 'Werewolves are the enemy of the Cold ones.'
"Hey this isnt a library." I jumped to see a frail girl with glasses.
"Oh im sorry."
"Hey your the new girl, Bella? Im angela." She said polietly. I smiled in return while waving my book so she knew i was going to pay for it now. I keep getting the feeling that the kids of Fork's cant stop stalking me. I handed cash to the book keeper and left before anyone else 'happens' to find me.
The run back didnt take long except the fact that it was pouring down and my car remained in front of Charlies house which im going to have to pick up in the morning perhaps. As soon as i reached my current house i dropped my books from under my jacket onto the lounge table before racing up stairs to the shower. I never realised that denim is so hard to take off when wet and since i just pulled harder the thing was left in two parts.
"Fantastic." I mummbled to myself.
The hot water felt nice against my skin, not that it would do much. But was quite relaxing from the day i had. Leaving the shower i got changed into Pajama's for no reason except i wanted a relaxing night, well what was left of it. I made my way downstairs turning on the stereo before collapsing on the couch. 'Claire de Lune' filled the room as i began to read the Traditional Myths book.
- The Enemy -
Werewolves assemble when the presence of the cold ones threaten their have the power to transform whenever they feel although they are easily controlled by their emotions. Treatys between the cold ones and werewolves had been said to been made but as soon as one crosses the line then the treaty is demolished causing an outbreak of fights. The cold ones roam the cities feeding on innocents for blood. If a werewolf thinks one is in danger then they are free to expose the cold ones to their true pale faces.
The cold ones, that must be vampires, obviously. But jacob remains the same 16 year old teenage boy. Vampires are stone cold, frozen in time never changing, is that the same as werewolves? But to me Jacobs skin was like touching flames. My phone began to virbrate but it was a call.
Caller I.d - Logan
( Bold = Bella )
( Normal = logan )
Isabella speaking.
Hey Bells how are you?
Bells? You've never called me that before
I havent? Oh well must of heard it from someone. Anyways how is Forks?
Its.. um.. Left me speechless..
That great huh?
Yeah sure, is there a reason your calling?
Mmm does there have to be?
Yes.
Oh well then i called because i wanted to talk with you
Well i got a lot to do i'll um.. talk to you later.
Okay. Goodluck.
I hung up and threw my phone onto the other couch meanwhile letting the music play in the background. Logan and i have grown as close as i would allow him which would mean we are only friends. I didnt want a relationship, i didnt want anything that could bring someone close enough to break me. I never understood that, giving someone the power to break you? I guess the saying 'Love makes you blind' does apply. Never did i think i would be blind to love but even so i didnt see any of it coming it just blew up in my face.
Wuthering heights didnt take long enough to entertain me and i had hours until school. Although it was quite depressing to want to go to school, plus the fact that i would have to see Tanya and face her. I still remember the look in her eyes.. It was so deep.. I stood up trying to shake the image from my head and started pacing the room. I walked back and forth.. But i didnt know why, i was bored.
Making my way upstairs to my room i began to stare at my closet, trying to pick something but not really being bothered. After five minutes of nothing i decided on 3/4 pants, a plain white t-shirt and a slim black hoodie along with some flats. I was dressed to match the depressing weather outside. Looking in the mirror i decided to have my hair in a high ponytail, nothing special.
I was about to grab my bag and put my gym gear until i remembered its in my car, outside Charlie's house. It was good for time so i didnt run there considering that i didnt live far away and it wasnt raining. My car was still there all parked and unlocked. Im suprised its still there, i guess im going to have to learn to lock it.. Or i could just buy another... Inside my car it seemed the same except someone was in here, not a vampire.. There on my windscreen was a note. I grabbed it and began to read it over..
Bells,
Im sorry, Its just we aren't meant to be friends.
We're mortal enemy's, im not suppose too..
Im under orders and i cant betray them,
Have you ever been somewhere bound by laws?
But please understand i wish i could see you again.
Im Sorry.
Jake.
The thing was that i did understand. The volturi was extremely strict and the Vampire kind was bound to the laws. Its either follow the laws or die, for real. The way you should die, the peaceful way.
It still hurt to know that i couldnt see Jacob anymore to know that its all because of what i am and not who i am. I began to drive not wanting to dwell over what i cant change. I was never told how Charlie had died, they said that he spent every hour of every day trying to find me in the forest. It was my fault, i was warned by Billy to clearly stay away from Edward and now, i dont have Edward, Jacob or charlie.. I had eternal nothing, stuck as i am.. forever..
I didnt want to enter the school too early so i circled the block but got a bit distracted and all the parks outside school was taken. I drove into the school car park but the only spot to park was in between a silver volvo and a red mercedes. I grabbed my bag and stuffed everything in there double checking i had everything before leaving my car. Only few students were still outside, it was colder then usual so i went inside as a habbit. If i felt the coldness i would go somewhere warmer, i know it wouldnt effect me but its a habbit i cant break.
The halls were crowded as i squeezed between people hoping no one would touch me, or the other way around. As i was walking i saw all the Cullens standing in a group, what was weird is that no student dared to stand near them. I suppose the Cullens are doing the right thing, not getting attached to what they will leave. I had to get to my locker but it was too close to the Cllens and i didnt know if i should just turn away but i kept moving.
As i opened my lock it fell to the ground but as soon as i went to pick it up a pale hand got there first, i looked up to see Alice bouncing it in her hand. She smiled at me and passed it back so i smiled in return hoping she would leave or something.
"We have maths second, you should sit with us." She said lightly.
"I dont think that would be a good idea." I replied pretending to be occupied in my locker.
"How about at Lunch?" She asked still as bubbly as ever. I turned to look at her she still had her light coloured hair and topaz eyes, she was still the same but something was different.
"My name's Alice, what's yours?" She said rocking on her heels. Wait? She doesnt know me? Is this a game or did they actually forget.. But they cant of their minds remember everything, they cant.. I slammed my locker and walked away, so i meant nothing..
Walking down the hall wasnt so hard now, the students seemed to give way as i passed by. My eyes felt hard and i knew it would be a hard pitch black colour. I took a seat at the back of the english room again hoping not to be disturbed but that was quickly changed with the slamming of books from beside me.
"Bella!"
"Matt." I replied.
"Its Micheal." He responded not caring what i called him.
"So me and some people from school are going to La Push you should come along."
"I.. um.. i'll think about it."
"Greeeeeat!" He said excitedly. I think i gave him a little bit to much hope, oh man.
English wasn't boring but it wasnt fun either we spent the period reading actually. A list of books that needed to be read was given out and it was the same as 92 years ago.. I've read them all but i pretended to be interested in the book just to stop Micheal from talking to me. As soon as the bell rang i left instantly as i usually did not that most people noticed anyways.
Making my way to maths i realised my maths book was still in my locker so i had to rush there and back but by the time i got back all the seats in maths were taken. Looking around one seat remained, between Tanya and Alice.. I shoved my books on the table and began fiddling with me pen. The teacher wasnt in yet probably hiding in the staff room for as long as he could.
"Oh hey bella." Jessey waved as she passed but temporarly stopping for a moment.
"Hey." I said giving a small wave in return.
"So um Micheal probably mentioned this but you in for the La Push trip?"
"No sorry Bellas coming to my house." Alice butted in.
"Oh. I'll talk to you later." She said while quickly before walking away.
"Why'd you do that?" I asked directly to Alice.
"You cant go to La Push, You'll break the treaty." She whispered.
"Oh." Was all i could say. So this werewolf thing is that serious..
"That's okay we'll just have to have fun at my place." She said meanwhile bouncing up and down in her seat.
"I dont think thats a good idea.."
"Me either." Tanya piped in. Alice stopped bouncing and glared at Tanya for a while before paying attention up front.
After been given six pages of work i began to work hoping i could get through this class unnoticed. It wasnt as bad as yesterday when everyone felt the need to stare at me like im the newest thing in town. Alice began giggling in her seat, i gave her a questioning look and she just shrugged.
"Oh man this stupid pen! I brought it yesterday for God's sake!" Tanya squeeled right next to my ear.
"You know it would help if you took off the lid." I replied meanwhile holding a giggle down.
"No your just a--" She began before realisation dawned on her, "Oh."
I began laughing aswell as Alice making Tanya 'humph' in defeat.
The rest of maths began to float past because for once, i prentended to be obsorbed in my maths work, which everyone seems to take seriously. And two, Tanya was quiet a little too quiet. When i looked at her she was already facing the other way or looking anywhere other then my direction. The bell was about to ring so i took my early leave once again and walked toward my locker. As soon as i closed it my arm was being linked in between Jesseys and Angela's arms.
"What are you's doing?" I asked wanting not to be touched.
"Nothing, we have food tech together so we might as well hang around now." Jessey replied in her usual preppy voice. She led me to the cafeteria where she picked up some water.
"Do you want something?" Jessey asked me. I shook my head and we all sat at the same table as yesterday. We were soon joined by Micheal and a few others whos name i didnt care to memorize. They spent the next 10 minutes talking about the La Push trip which i apparently wasnt allowed to go too. We then made our way to the food tech room where we were making, savoury pancakes.
The room was filled with a horrid stench that made my stomach turn. Looking around you could see, mainly the guys, flipping pancakes and it ether didnt move or hit the floor in 2.34 seconds. I was partners with Jessey so i gave it all to her and told her i wasnt feeling so well. She didnt complain, she explained her diet made her hungry but i still didnt understand why she cant just get take out and eat it.
After this class we were awaited by non other then Micheal where Jessey tried aimlessly to flirt and laugh at all his jokes that werent funny. For example,
Mike: Why'd the rooster cross the road? Because it thought it was a chicken!
Mike: Knock Knock, Who's there, Ha, Ha Who, Hahahahahahaha.
When entering the cafeteria we all lined up to grab some food where i just grabbed a soda and apple again. I was a few steps behind Micheal and Jessey but preferred to stay away from their.. um.. 'Chemistry.' The table was loud but i didnt mind because it meant i didnt have to say anything and they wouldnt notice. I jumped at whatever had touched my shoulder and saw it was only Alice. The table went silent and all looked up at me and then Alice.
"Hey, im just going to steal Bella, i need a little help with Maths homework. Hope you all dont mind." Alice responded and everyone just nodded their heads while i was being dragged away to another table.
I was then forced to sit with the group where i sat awkwardly while i played with the cap off my soda.
"Why dont you drink it if your going to play with it," I heard Tanya snap at me.
"Well why dont you eat dirt if your going to look like it?" I retorted. I felt the table vibrate as Emmetts booming laugh filled the cafeteria meanwhile the rest of the table joined in except Tanya and Edward. The sound of their laughs sounded gentle like a row of light bells, this however caught all the attention in the cafeteria making it more awkward when they stopped laughing.
"So bella, i need some help with some calculas questions, i was wondering if you could help me out?" Alice asked all bubbly. I glanced up and looked around as everyone awaited my answer.
"I dont think-"
"Why?" She said as soon as humanly possible. I felt my eyes pry to her bag when conveniatly she has a perfect 100% on her calculas pop test She attempted to shove her bag on the seat but she knows she was too late. Awkwardess filled the room so i decided to stand but was stopped as i felt a hand hold my arm down. It was soft yet firm and sent shivers down my spin. Edwards pale hand wrapped perfectly round my arm as i sat frozen, i began to feel a dose of happiness followed immediatly by pain. Flashes of the past hidden behind my eyelids, tempting me, calling for me to attack. I felt a wave of calmness and instantly turned to Jasper who stared into my eyes meanwhile anger causing me to glare at him with full force. With a swing of the wrist, Edwards hand was where it should be and my bad slung over my shoulder as i paced to my next class. I tried to escape but i saw the fear in Jaspers eyes, he didnt deserve that and the guilt became immense.
Biology wasnt what i was looking foward too as i sat in the worst place mentionable. The bell had only rang, echoing in my ear as i watched the stundents pile in and take a seat meanwhile laughing and playing around. I kept my focus on my book in front of me. Doodling shapes with perfect angle while i listened to the shifting of the chair behind me followed by the clacking of pink pumps behind.
We were assigned some work in partners so i instantly slumped over not wanting to be talked to nor touched.
"Ladies first," He mumbled polietly.
"Well what are you waiting for princess" I replied. I could see the corners of his mouth turn up as he began investigating the problems. For the rest of the lesson i wrote the answers on the provided sheet as he called them and we were done 10 minutes done after we were given the activity.
"Nice writing. Elegant, smooth and precise." I heard him compliment. I didn't reply or agknowledge his exsistance but felt a light probe in my mind as if someone trying to invade my space. I turned slightly to see that Edward had a small crease between his eyebrows.
I began to chant 'Cullen' over and over in my head before opening up my shield for a full 1.3 seconds before blasting him out of my mind. His chair tipped back and his arms held to the desk meanwhile breaking a piece on the way down. I choked down a laugh and giggled lightly as his face was frozen in shock like a deer in headlights, as they say.
"Oh my gosh! Eddie bear! Are you okay?" Tanya shouted meanwhile bending slightly to help him up. Although her pink high heels stopped her from bedning more then 5 cm's.
"What did you do!" Tanya shouted directly at me. I felt a smirk pull the corners of my mouth and i watched as her stare became more frustrated.
"What is going on. Tanya sit down-" The teacher began,
"No she did this!" Tanya rudely interrupted meanwhile sticking a perfecting manicured nail in my direction. The teacher looked at me, waiting for an explanation.
"Yes sir. I did it. My manly strength pulled Cullen off his chair causing him to snap the desk just to entertain my own enjoyment." I said sarcastically with an innocent look.
"Everyone back to work. Edward was practising his.. I dont even want to know." He managed to mumble the last part as everyone went back to their work.
Tanya paced her self down not breaking the glare she has toward me. I winked in her direction just to spice things up, her reactions gave me a slight kick of enjoyment. Her fists tightened and a light snap emerged from the pen she had picked up thus causing a small handfull of dust to blow on her desk. As fast as she could she picked it u before anyone could notice and throw it toward the back wall.
"You missed a spot," I called tilting my head to match her.
"Tanya" Edward hissed bringing us both to look in his direction. Something he did made her look down and begin fiddling. I looked curiously toward Edward and his eyes were all soft but slightly crisp. I stared dumbfounded but realised in time to look away. I saw the smirk as if he knew i was taking notice. Anger filled me slightly but the warmth i felt was stronger pulling me in and making me fantasize.
Once the bell rang i couldn't be more happy even if it was gym. As soon as i got to the lockers i was slammed toward the lockers followed by the echo of locks rattling. Pink manicured nails, pink heels, pink.. everything.. Tanya.
"Look leave him alone i will not tell you again! Do you hear me!" She breathed looking me dead in the eyes.
"Don't You owe me something. Remember our little.. rumble?" She loosened her grip but not completely proving my point.
"I.. you.." she struggled with words and her mood change constantly, flickers of anger, flashes of sadness. I placed my hand over hers where she was push against me, she loosened some more and i was able to slip free before all the other girls piled in for the last subject of the day.
Today was volleyball, the joy. As i looked across the gym i saw the little cliques all grouped up. Each looked at me curiously, wondering where i would go. As i took a step they all watched, as if i was the first person to walk. Human's i scoffed in my mind. The teacher ended up coming out and pairing us into groups of three. As lucky as i am i had micheal and Tanya, can i ever catch a break? Tanya wasn't much help as she complained about her nails and micheal flexed his muscles every time the ball went near him. I was extremely realieved that this day was finally over after hours that seemed like years, and i felt like i wanted to go home. But i knew that what ever this test is i was most likely not close to finishing. A clue would be nice, anything would be nice at this stage.
After slinging my bad over my shoulder i quickly paced myself down to my car. I felt relieved as it came closer in sight but regretted thinking that as the cullens were standing around.
"Bella!" Alice shouted meanwhile waving a small hand at me.
"Bella.." I heard a bitter voice repeat, wasn't hard to figure out who that was. I polietly smiled at Alice but kept my attention on my car hoping the message would get through. As i monuvered around them a small hand gribbed my arm forcing me to turn around. Alice's face was full of.. worry? Her brows began to furrow and her grip tightened although not in a painful way.
"You can't go back to your house tonight." She firmly stated.
"What?" I asked with a slight edge.
"They are waiting for you. You have to stay with us just for the night or two.." She began,
"No." As these words escaped my lips she quietened. I dont think she's been rejected before..
"But Bella!"
"No." It was quiet and Alice was looking at the floor. A small wave of calmness covered us all but i refused to let it get to me so i cast my shield over myself.
"Jasper its not polite to do that with out permisson, don't you think?" I asked calmly whilst looking at him.
"I was just trying to help." He said while waving his hands in a mock surrender.
"Look if she wants to be attacked by the mongral then just let her." I instantly thought of Tanya saying this but turned out to be Rosalie.
"Same old same old" I murmured mainly to myself, rewarding me with a bitter glare from Rosalie.
"Bella will you just come with us? We dont bite, pun not intended." Alice finally butted in with a pledding look in her eye.
I took a breathe and glanced around. Jasper now stood behind Alice with a comforting hand on her right shoulder. Tanya leaned in annoyance as Edward stoof far away from her. Emmett and Rosalie were inside the mercedes waiting.
"One night." I said through my gritted teeth meanwhile regretting what i had just said.
One night, I reassured my self.. one night. But even that didn't calm the nagging pain i felt through my chest. Alice lead me to the volvo and i got in before i could bolt out. The car ride was silent and i gazed at the blurs that passed my window.
"How'd you know it was me?" Jasper asked. I turned to him,
"Know what?" I asked slightly confused.
"That I was calming everyone.. And how did you block it out?" He began rambling.
"Magic." I replied slightly amused. I felt the light laughter of Alice and Jasper fill the car, it felt reassuring and made me a bit too comfortable. The car began to rock a bit as we entered the drive way. One night i repeat.. one night.