As soon as she answered, she brushed right past me, straight to the floor. So I quickly followed before I lost her and that was definitely not what i was trying to do. She took no time to get into the music despite that you could barely hear it with all the noise. She just started dancing and I swear she was doing it on purpose. Her ass just kept rubbing against my pants but I don't think she noticed due to it being crowded. She looked like she had no cares in the world. And she was slowly turning me on… the way her hips hit every beat, the way her stomach would peek as she rolled her hips, the way she would hold hair up so I could see most of her back glistening in the light, the way her hands were up not worrying about who saw her, but mostly the way she has this sensual look in her eye while the rest of her face looked as if she didn't care at all. She acted like she wasn't sure if she wanted to come out here with me but she so needed this. I could tell by the way she danced, like she was letting go of everything. She was beautiful and I wanted her, I wanted her now. But she didn't make any move to ask for my number or to ask me to come home with her tonight and by this time, most women asked. I needed something from her. So I kissed her, well I attempted to. She turned around and grabbed my right hand while she was still dancing; I pulled her closer to my body. I started to lean in and put my unoccupied hand on her neck so I could deepen the kiss fast.

I've never seen a girl freak out so fast in my life. I didn't even get a chance to pull her into me. Her eyes went so big; she slipped her hand from mine then she stood there for a second. She started pushing through the crowd; some people gave her a look of disgust, others told her to watch out while some didn't even notice but she didn't stop. I saw her make a break for the stairs as I just stood there. I was so confused and I'm just trying to register what happened as I find my way to the next level up just in time to see her slip out the front door. I look out the door and not far from the front of the house, there she was.

She was pacing back and forth on the sidewalk, mumbling words to herself. I couldn't figure out if she saw me or not but I went over to see if she was okay. She finally caught my eye and sat on the sidewalk in front of us so I sat down on her right. She was running her left hand through her hair as her right hand held her neck. She was breathing kind of heavy but she eventually mellowed herself out.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to freak you out or anything."

"No problem," I said while looking out at the street. I turned to look at her and she dropped her hands in her lap. That's when I saw it. It was multiple scratches going across her neck in the same direction but they look old, as if they healed a while ago.

"Umm… are you -?" I began to ask but I guess she saw me looking already by the way she cut me off so fast.

"It's no big deal. Just a scratch. Some girl I got in a fight with years ago got a little more violent than I expected.

"Girls can get a little ruthless sometimes," I say with a laugh. She joined me in the laugh but I could she was a little uncomfortable as she did.

We kind of just sat there and I was enjoying the slight silence. I wasn't used to it since I'm always at the party scene. I only got silence when I was sleep or in the library doing homework. You could still hear the music from the house playing, people talking outside and the cars as they drove by. But it was nice. I was just looking out at the scenery and eventually I turned to her. She really was beautiful. And if she asked me, I would go home with her. But she didn't look like the type. I respect that. I wish more girls were like that. It's been like 10 minutes and she finally breaks the silence.

"So I'm gonna catch an uber home now." She got up and and gave me an awkward look like she didn't know what to say. She went over to the sidewalk to call an uber & I followed her over to make sure she got back safe. She started to realize I wasn't moving so she stared at me like she was bothered so I just walked back in the party. That was the last time I saw her.

And I still went home with some random chick that night. Her name was Shannon, I think. Blonde hair, blue eyes & olive skin. We were walking to her apartment door making out, her hands were already in my pants, stroking me. She opens the door but her lips never parted from me. I'm taking off my shirt and then I pick her up.

"Second door on the right," she muffled out. I lay her on the bed and I start to take her skirt off then she stops me.

"I can't do this." She looks at me and her eyes are saying sorry but no words are coming out. I just nod my head and walk out the door. I just pick up my shirt as I'm walking out and get into my car. I wasn't mad or anything. I told you I wasn't that guy. I didn't need to have sex. And some girls are just like that. They think they wanna do it but when it really comes down to it, they just stop. And that was okay but the whole time I was with Shannon or whatever her name is, I kept thinking about… I didn't even know her name.

But two months have passed and nothing has changed for me. I forgot about that girl at the house party and kept being the heartbreaker I was. I still remember what my friend told me a couple of weeks before.

"Man why don't you settle down? You know, get you a real girl. You deserve more than a new girl every night when you can come home to one shawty instead."

So I decided to somewhat kinda settle with this girl Angie but she didn't know that. Angie was my brother Colt's girlfriend's best friend. We called her a devilish charmer because of her big boobs and her fat ass. She had long curly orange-brown hair, dark brown eyes and light olive skin. I was already with this girl like two times a week and even though I didn't have feelings for her, she was cute and the sex was good so I gave it a shot.

Me and the boys still went to parties whenever we found the time or were just bored. One of our good friends Nate decided to host a small get together at his apartment with his roommate to celebrate them just moving in. So of course I was there but Kenny couldn't make it. I knew most of the people there and some I didn't so I assumed they were his roommate's friends or Nate girlfriend's friends. I wasn't a big social person so I was chilling in his room until they decided to watch a movie. So I went out there but I started to get thirsty so I went into the kitchen to grab something when I saw the most beautiful girl I ever laid my eyes on, well at least from the back of her. She was bending down into the fridge, I guess she was trying to find a drink. She had curves that weren't out there but distinctive enough for you to see. She was slim but not so much you could see her bones. She turned around and looked at me. She had the most innocent face, like a girl who's never done anything wrong in her life. Like a girl you would take home to meet your mom. She furrowed her eyebrows for a second then relaxed.

"I never got a chance to tell you cause I was being kind of rude but thanks again for checking up on me that night."