She finally lifted her head to look at me. Her face was motionless but her eyes said everything. She just looked at me with pleading eyes saying this is what she wanted but she wasn't sure if this was what she needed. She told me she didn't know how to be a healthy loving relationship with a man. The only one she had was ruined from the start. The only guy, scratch that, the only person she could really trust in her life was her brother. He may be an overprotective and wasn't sure of me at first but that's only because he cared. He was the only one who was there through it all, even if he didn't know what was going on. He was the reason she kept smiling through all that pain. His approval was everything to her. He was her true best friend for life. Even he said I was the best that happened to her. And she was the best thing that happened to me.
I loved her and I knew she loved me too. She couldn't take another heartbreak and I knew that. We've only been best friends for like 8 months and I want her to be my best friend for the rest of my life. Be mine for the rest of my life. She was that girl. She was the one I wanted to wake up next to every morning and just hold on to before I have to go to work. She was the girl I wanted to have kids with. She put up with all my bullshit and my dirty past with girls. I was such a fuck up and hurt so many girls but I could never do something like that to her. I showed her there was a good side to life and to not always wait for something bad to happen. She may be the most pessimistic person I know but I can deal with it. Maybe I can change it but if I can't, who cares.
Looking back on our friendship these past months make me appreciate her more than I ever could. All the fun we've had and times we hung out. She always had a smile on her face. never did she frown or get upset unless it was one of those three days. She cared for everyone and everything. Even a little ladybug. She was super smart and even though she was going to graduate two years late, it didn't matter. She still worked overtime in rehab to get to where she was at. She always blamed herself for being so stupid but she was a scholar to me. She even helped me with my homework and I was technically two years ahead of her. She was so strong, I would of never known she went through so much in her childhood. And it wasn't even just her childhood. It was all the way up to almost three years before this. Three years. And I met her a year ago. She said I was only one knew, she didn't even tell her best friends. Growing up in that environment has scarred her for life. It pains me that I can't take it away. But I'll work everyday to make it better for her.
She's everything I ever wanted. I didn't need a different girl in my bed every other month if I could just be in her presence or hold her hand. I can always count on her to brighten my day when she smiles. She always said that I was her light in the darkness but she was really mine. Whenever life got hard, she told me it would get better for me. She changed me. I became a better man because of her, for her and to her. I lost my quick temper, I didn't go out to the clubs as much, and I stopped drinking. Anything she didn't like, I changed for her. Because that's who she was to me.
She's not just everything I wanted, she's all I need. And I'll make sure she knows this everyday. I know this is a big step for her. Saying yes was giving me the power to break and destroy her. She's been holding on to that ever since her dad went to prison. I wouldn't let things end badly, I wouldn't even let things end at all. She needed me. I knew it from the start. I always could make her smile and I want to do that for the rest of my life. When I told her all of this, she just cried again. She told me this was the first time she cried cause she was happy.
"Yes, I'll be your girlfriend."
A/N: Sorry for the short chapter but I wanted the quote at the end to be her saying "yes" so it wasn't much I could write in between without going on a tangent.