Hey everyone! Happy Limoversary! I'm back as promise with this new chapter today. I know the chapter isn't really long. And there's a little jump in time, cause to the fact I was completely stuck there in the story. Anyway, I'll soon post another chapter and that I promise you. It will probably take a week or two but no longer than that. I promise. With this pause, I forgot how much I love writing fanfiction and especially my Chair story. I won't let this story down. Anyway, I hope you're all going to love the chapter! xoxo
So look at me in the eye
Is anyone there at all
Is anyone there at all
Cause I'm not leaving
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One week had past since that time at the hospital. Everyday was the same for Blair. She woke up, ate breakfast (while being watched very carefully by either Serena or Chuck), spent the morning in her bed, ate lunch in the same ambience as the morning, saw her therapist, ate dinner and spend the rest of the night in her room. She was just the shadow of herself at this state. She was tired of living the same everyday, but she knew it was all her fault.
"Blair, are you listening to me?" asked Serena as they were taking lunch both of them.
"Hu-huh"
"Do you really think I believe you?" Serena said with a laugh. "Anyway, I was saying we should go shopping. It'll be fun right? Just like the old times, when we came here the summer."
"I don't know S. I don't feel like it." Blair said.
"Come on B. You don't need to shut yourself from the whole word. Some fresh air could just do you good," the blonde said, worried about her best friend.
"Maybe another day, but not today." With those words, Blair got up from the table and walk to her room.
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"I don't know what to do anymore Chuck." Serena said as they were talking later that day. "It's like I'm losing my best friend. She shutting herself down. She even refuse to go shopping. Even those past years, she never was like that."
"What do you want me to say? We can't force her to do anything. If she needs time, we should just give her that." Chuck sighed, annoyed by Serena and her urge to push Blair.
"I know," she said. "I just want her to be okay,to be herself again."
"You know that's what I want to. Everything I do is for her own good."
"I know."
"You seem to forget that. Now, excuse me while I take this call," he sighed as his phone rang in his pocket.
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A knock on her door woke Blair up that night. "A minute, I'm coming." She putted on her silky robe to answer at her door. What a surprise when she saw Chuck in her doorstep at this hour. He was probably just coming back from a party and was drunk, she thought. But, no, he didn't smell like alcohol. Well, not more than his usual state. And it was just a little before midnight. "Hey."
"Hey," he said with his legendary smile on his lips. "Did I wake you up? I'm sorry."
"It's not a problem. What happened?"
"Your mother just call. She will be here tomorrow for dinner." The smile on Blair's lips disappeared in an instant. Was it really necessary from her mother to come here? Couldn't she just wait until Blair was better and go back home? She was already nervous just at the thought of her mom coming here. "Is everything alright Blair? You're shaking."
"I'm fine," she said not louder than a whisper. "I'll just go back to sleep." With those words, she started to close the door, but was stopped by Chuck's foot.
"I'm not leaving you right now Blair. I told you, I'm here for you," he said.
She wasn't even sure why she was panicking that much at this moment. Maybe it was just the fact that someone other than her therapist, Dorota or her friends was going to see her like this. She was weak, broken. Stupid bulimia. What would her mother think or said? she was, by far, the most judging person in her life. Before Blair even had the time to realize what she was doing, she took refuge in Chuck's arms.
"I'm sorry I always push you out." Blair said in a whisper. "I feel like that's all I have been doing lately, saying sorry, but I really am. These past week, I shut myself in my room almost all the time. I know I shouldn't have done that. You've been doing all of this for me, so that I don't go in a center or something. I appreciate that even if I don't show it. I think I just shut myself in so you wouldn't think less of me. See me the way I see myself. I don't know. I just… I don't want to lose you Chuck."
"That will never happen Blair," he said as he backed off a little bit to look at her right in the eyes. "And I will never, ever think less of you. Even if you don't seem to see it, you're beautiful. You are one of the most beautiful person I know." The sexual tension was palpable between them right now. Her breath was short. His eyes were black with desire. "You know I never fail at showing you how much you are beautiful."
"Then show me…" she whispered just before both of their lips got sealed together in a passionate kiss.
He would have wanted to tell her he love her, but it was like the words wouldn't come out of his mouth. So, he just show her what he was feeling.
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They loved each other in their own way that night. Their body fitted perfectly together as always. None of them was able to say the three little words, but they loved each other.
"Please, don't leave me" Blair said as she was slowly falling asleep.
"Never" he promised.
That night, he holded her close, closer than ever before. Like he was scared that she would slip away. Like he wanted to make sure she wasn't going to fall into pieces.
That night, he didn't sleep at all. He just hold her in his arms, listening to her steady breathing, spending every second he could holding to her.
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You say you wanna, but do you wanna run away?
Your great escape, oh yeah
Where you going? Always running
Find a way to call it quits again
- The Girl Who Cried Wolf, 5 Second of Summer