A/N: This is my first time writing fanfiction and I'm sorry for the dark contents within it.
Trigger warning: Brief mention of self-harm. Suicide content.
I don't own Pitch Perfect.
"So this is it," she thought. Today was the day. The day everything ends. No more cowering inside her dorm room. No more crying. No more hiding her puffy eyes with make-up. No more lying to the Bellas. She was going to do it. Nothing was going to stop her. She's tired of making excuses. She's tired of hiding all these scars with her flannels and skinny jeans. She's tired of lying to everyone especially Chloe. She knows how the redhead feels for her. She knows how she feels for the redhead. She loves her and the Bellas, but she can't take it anymore. She can't take on the dark anymore. There was no light at the end of the tunnel anymore. She was failing. Music doesn't block out the voices anymore. The cutting doesn't shut them up anymore. The only thing left now was to go the extra mile.
Before taking the extra mile she needed the Bellas to know now how she felt about each and every one of them including: Aubrey, Chloe, Cynthia Rose, Fat Amy, Stacie, Jessica, Ashley, Denise, and Lilly. She needed to tell her father that despite everything that happened, she does love him. Luckily today there was no Bella rehearsals so she took the time writing all the letters. She spent most of the day writing and sealing them all in their envelopes with each Bella's respective name corresponding to each letter. The one with the longest letter was Chloe's. She poured everything to her letter ending it with, "I will always love you Chloe. I understand that you need to grieve over after my death, but promise me to never change. You were the one that kept me sane through the days, and don't let my death change you. I love you Chloe Beale always and forever. Love, Beca" Chloe's letter was the last one. Looking at her watch she realized it was a litter after two in the morning. She took each one of her letters leaving one addressed to all of them on her desk for her father to find letting him know what things she wanted to give to either him or the Bellas and left. She stopped at everyone's dorms or apartments and slipped it underneath for them to find in the morning. Her last stop was at her father's and a couple blocks away was a bridge. Afer getting to the bridge she just stood there. Lookin back at the time it was nearing four in the morning. Climbing over the rails she took out her phone and started recording. You can see her face and how the tears were trailing down them.
"Hey guys.. If you are watching this, then you know that I'm gone.. I'm sorry to each and every one of you. I can't do this anymore and I want all of you to know that I love each and every one of you. Dad if you are watching this, I want you to know that I forgive you for everything. Just know I will be in a better place now. Mom's probably waiting for me.. I love you dad and I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you wanted me to be. If the Bellas are watching this then I want you guys to know that I love you weirdos. The Bellas meant everything to me. And Aubrey, if you are watching this, I'm sorry I just shorted you a Bella. And if you need ideas for the set list if you ever change it, I left a flash drive filled with some mixes in it at my dorm. Chloe if you are watching this.. I want you to know I love you. I always have. I was just an alt girl with her madlib beats and you were the one who brought her out of her comfort zone and showed her love like she never felt before. I love you Chloe Beale. I'm sorry everyone."
And with that being said she ended the video. She took out the password off her phone and left the video on as she locked the screen so it was the first thing they saw. With one last look at the time, she looked up at the dark sky and prayed for herself and everyone she was leaving. After whispering out, "Amen" she jumped.