Hello my beautiful readers! I just wanted to give you all an update on what the plan is for this wonderful, heart jerking, soul crushing, black hole of darkness story that my twisted brain had as I tried to fall asleep one night... Anyways! I hope to have a new chapter roughly every week or so featuring a new character's own horrible story. The chapters will be written in this order: Blake (this chapter actually), Yang, Jean, Nora, Pyrrha, and finally Ren. I might even add extra chapters featuring Ozpin and Glynda. Hope you all enjoy the feels coming your way. Please review and let me know what you think of each chapter so I can improve my writing and increase your enjoyment!

Blake

Days pass since Yang's and Weiss's fight at Ruby's grave and things just keep getting worse. Weiss rarely comes down from the hill anymore and when she does, it's like she doesn't recognize anyone, just going through the motions.

Yang has entered a comatose state and has stopped going to class Mostly she just lies in bed comatose hardly eating a thing. Sometimes I can coax her into drinking a little water or a roll of bread but that's about it.

The two of them still refuse to talk to each other or even notice the other's presence. I even heard that Ozpin has been drinking and blaming himself for Ruby's death since he was the one invited Ruby to come to Beacon a full two years early.

After managing to get Yang to eat something I step out of the dorm room planning to go the library. Across the hall I can hear Nora's crying and Ren trying to comfort her. The poor redhead hasn't stopped since the funeral.

Giving a depressed sigh I walk down the hallway stumbling a bit from lack of sleep. Ever since the fight I haven't been able to sleep.

I walk into the library and immediately everyone looks up at me. Though when I try to make eye contact with them, nobody will meet my eyes.

Ignoring them I walk forwards heading towards my usual corner of the library. As I walk along I catch snippets of whispers. "That's Blake Belladonna..." and "She looks exhausted." "I wonder what's going to happen to her team," I hear someone say.

I pause having wondered this question many times myself. Without our leader the team is falling apart bit by bit. I doubt that Yang or Weiss would even accept a new member to the team let alone a new captain.

So what's to become of our team then? Are we just going to disband and go back home? Or could we be a three person team? Though I haven't ever heard of a three person team before. I doubt one would even be allowed.

I take a step intending to go hide in my corner and my vision swims. The quiet sound of whispers and pages turning morph into a single loud buzz. A sensation of vertigo washes over me and the last thing I remember is my face pounding against the floor.

I painfully open my eyes aware of the pounding in my head. "Blake? Blake can you hear me?" I turn my head to the voice and blink away the fuzziness in my vision. Glynda stand above me looking concerned. "Blake? You just suddenly passed out in the middle of the library."

I prop myself up on my elbows and try to roll off the bed I'm on mumbling, "I'm fine. It's happened before. Thanks for bringing me here. Wherever here is," I add looking around the colorful room. "Where am I?"

"You're at my house Blake, and you are very not fine. You're physically and emotionally exhausted. And you said this happened before?" I roll my eyes at her concern for me and swing my legs off the bed.

However when I try to stand up my knees buckle beneath me and I fall again. The only thing that keeps me from banging my head against the ground again is Glynda using her magic to place a series of pillow cushions underneath me.

"Oh yes, you are surely fine. In fact I might even say you are the image of perfect health Blake Belladonna." She walks around the bed and helps to lift me up and puts me back on the bed. "Now, you need rest."

I shake my head in protest and weakly try to push her away from me. "No, no I'm fine. I don't need sleep. I just need something to drink, my head is killing me."

"Blake!" Glynda says sharply. "How long has it been since you last slept." Her tone doesn't leave any room for disobedience and her green eyes stare at me icily.

"Two weeks," I say after a moment. "Not since the invasion."

Glynda sighs. "Alright then. I have some sleeping pills that you can take. Sleep can be an elusive little bastard with the things I've seen."

Frantic I grab Glynda's arm suddenly fearful. "No, please. Don't make me go to sleep. I can't sleep. Please Ms. Goodwitch. Don't make me go to sleep, I'm begging you."

I keep pleading her starting to lose it. "Blake, Blake. Blake! Stop it! You need to calm down!" I quiet down my lip trembling and tears threatening. "Now please Blake, tell me what's wrong."

Trembling I bury my face in my arms and tell her what's wrong. "I can't sleep. Everytime I close my eyes all I can see is Ruby slowly dying. I see the blood spilling out of her and pooling on the ground. I can't take it… The only time I can sleep is when I pass out because then I can't dream."

The tears start to spill over my eyes and I curl my legs up to my chest. "Oh Blake… Honey I'm so sorry," Glynda whispers. "Come here child." Glynda pulls me into a hug and I start to cry into her shoulder, sobs racking my body.

"I-I just. I can't. It's been so hard without her. Th-the team has been falling apart. W-W-Weiss is just a zombie and Yang hasn't left the dorm for days," I manage to say. I realize a moment later that Glynda is shaking too.

I look up to find tears streaming down her face as well. "Blake I am so sorry. You've been suffering through this all alone. We're all suffering but you've had to deal with this by yourself..." Glynda hugs me tighter and I bend my head back down into her shoulder, my resolve having finally broken down.